Jakarta from my hotel room.
All I have to say, is that Jesus is just miraculous.
Being there is Jakarta for the Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference(APYAC) was just life changing. I'm not gonna drag on much about it, but I'm gonna let the pictures do the talking.


A certain giant model of Transformers in a mall at Jakarta

Woohoo.. Night concert goin on!



Michael & Daniel preparing for our night!


Grace, "Hiro" and I :P


Stadium Istora!

Michael & I after the whole thing. Michael was sleepin in service, and the camera caught him.. Hahah! ;P
Singer Uncle, Drummer Uncle Simon and Me! :)

My "Si Fu" Liang

And the MAN! Michael Camilly. He is the best escort anyone can have. He was superbly patient with us Malaysians and guided us all the way! God bless you man. Really. He is one special guy.

Amanda, May Vern & I :)Hiro, unmasked.. hahaha.. Derry uncle! Took real good care of us :) He is another phenomenal guy. Just so ever willing to serve His people. Fantastic spirit man. Keep it up!

Abang Mikel. The stage manager for all 3 days. I really don't know how he handled it man. He was still smiling after every session. Must learn some stress management from him. Am very encouraged to see such enthusiasm and zest for the Lord. :)

Peace for Indonesia!!
Ricky! :) We exchanged nametags. Promised to switch them the next time we met :) He is one naughty security boy :P God bless you bro ;)

Ricky's best friend, Michael (yes, there are sooo many Michaels~). He refused to give his jacket to me :( Hahahahha.. God bless you anyway!.. Hahahahah! :P

:D Sweetttnesss :P

E... E.... E..... E........ Fantastic girl. Still remembered what she wore the first time I met her :P

Those are the pics for now. I really had a remarkable time with the APYAC team. Though it was just a short time spent at Indonesia, I learned so many lessons to life and just how to live as Christian. I had to admit I went with much prejudice but I left the country a changed man. I really had a 180 degree turn of view on the land and country. I've learned so much from the people I have met in this conference. Their dedication and sincerity and simplistic spirit in doing the work of God. I was truly encouraged and convicted to be the person who God wants me to be.

It was time John learned a lesson on humility. These people lacked, but still they gave, in areas other than finances, such as their time and energy to serving God's people. They were just so willing and sacrificial. Something I was not. Especially Michael Camilly. I was very encouraged by his life. He comes from a family of 7. He is the second from the youngest of 5 siblings. All of them aren't Christians. But yet, he is so persistant and fervant in prayer. He even woke up at 4am just to pray for us. And best of all, he is just 16 years old. Such love I have not seen in a 16 year old. This is one of the few people that I see Christ in. I will definately keep him in my prayers, for God to sustain his faith in the midst of all his trials and especially for his family to come to know of God's goodness.

It is said, that the greatest sin is to keep the good news from those who have not yet come to know of the it. And I don't want to be found with that sin. Keeping the privilege all to myself. May this experience change me and mold me to be a greater servant of God. Whole and pure in His sight. Though I will have many obstacles ahead, many sacrifices to make in the near future, hurts in the past to be mended, and changes to be made, I want to see the promises of my life come to pass.

It far beyond time now that change should have happened in my life. I'm glad I tagged along with the team to be bless at this conference. I caught the fire and now, its time to bring it back to Malaysia. Challenges shall I face, persecution shall I face, but in You shall I trust, because in You, all things are possible.

Lord,

Take my life again. Burn me, break me, mold me, and shape me into your child. May You continue to pour favour and blessings into my life as I follow You each day of my life. Forgive me, because time and time and time and time again I have failed You SOOO many times. Countless times have I turned my back on You and deliberately choose the wrong path. Guide me Lord. Take me as You find me, all my failures, all my weaknesses and impurities, and turn it around Lord. Use it for Your glory. Its time I put all my faith in You. Hold my hands Lord, and never let me go. In You, I choose to trust, In You I choose to believe, In You I choose to face life's challenges.

Thank You, Jesus.

Amen!

Its not gonna be an easy commitment but I'm gonna trust Him. Who ever said Christians were perfect, who ever said Christians were suppose to be the top of the class, who ever said that Christians were to be boring poeple.. We are regular people with weaknesses and emotions. But what keeps apart from the world is that we have a hope in God and a friend we can turn to and trust at all times.

Alright. Thats it from me for now. Gonna hit the books and catch up on some work I left when I was gone. College, here I come! Wooohoooo!

-jOhN "trusting" Lim-

OMG, previous post was such a waste of time. Gonna post some pics up instead.

Michael Lean on the E. Guitar. Extremely humble dude :) Seing ya soon dude!
Retarded Uncle Drummer Simon :) He's my Personal Trainer wanna-be cum Jazz band leader
"Lala-fied" Amanda and Impersonator Prakash with Ghostly Enoch at the background
Our little dance at Cotton Club. Dee, I know where you're looking, you naughty girl! *smacks*
JoW JoW! :) Thanx for everything Bro. You da best! And you still have my shirt!

AHHHHH!!! Was suppose to upload more.. But OMG nvm!.. AH!!!!! Pissy-fied n Emo-fied!!!

I'm just so utterly confused right now.

Ah. Keep writing and deleting. I'm just a bit messed up right now. But jazz somehow always lights me up. Oh well. Don't wanna whine about it. Just gonna move on :)

Just a little update on the happenings.

Fulfilled my little TO-DO list.
Finally checked out Cotton Club. To my disappointment they had changed their concept from a Jazztaurant to just casual live music. But it was alright. Always enjoyed live music. I actually even took the opportunity to sing over there. Club owner was so nice to spend us drinks after that. He bought a second round of everything. Nice dude. Next stop, Groove Junction@Hartamas. So MUSTT!

Aiks, very distracted tonight. My thoughts are just all over. I'm just troubled over the fact I'm going downhill in studies as well in friendships. Like I said, I seem to screw everything. Hmm. Its just me. Screwed up piece of kid :) Naa.. not really, compared to J****a. Hahaha.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh~~~!!! I don't know what I'm typing anymore!! :'(
I'm just so disturbed la. So many things in my mind. You, and You, and You, and then there is You, then there is That, and That, and OMG, THAT! Ah~~! You know how I miss You? Walalallalaalalala.........

I know Jakarta will be good. But have a slight feeling I'll discover something else that is greater there. Hmmm.. Weird. Meeting new people. Traveling alone again. Hmm.. Somehow have been traveling alone alot. Planning to drop by Bangkok during my August hols. We'll see what parents have to say. Wait, parents? I'll go ANYway~ Hmph~! Hopefully I can bump into Mami, remember her? Mami Hashizaki from Japan. She told me she'd be coming down to Bangkok from the States. But then again, Bangkok ain't too nice. Ah. John better stop plannin all these holidays and take time to practice Calculus :'(.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Just feel like screaming out and crying le! OMG~~! Just so disturbed tonight. Where are you when I need You?

I just wanna cry in your arms again. Pick me up will ya, Jesus?

-jOhN "utterly confused" LiM-

PS: Flying off for Jakarta in the morning. Bye bye :)

You know how life punished you sometimes. Making sure it has the best of you. Not letting that joy in your heart reflect to a smile on your face and killing every sense of hope.

I began my week that way. It was a terrible Sunday night. Though I really appreciated the help from Jo Weng when he came over in the night to help me out with Accounting. My mind went bad that night. Or probably for both nights. Sunday and Monday. I just went on the same ride of thinking that I might just not make it. Tiring thoughts. But nonetheless, I had to sink in them for a bit, just a bit. Monday blues was dark blue. Got a hold on Buble's latest album on Sunday night and sinked myself in the blues tunes while gasping for air each night.

Got my ass to Calculus on Tuesday and I was free for the rest of the day. Looked for a "kaki" for lunch and bloody hell, everyone had class till 2. Let's see, Jo Weng, Delaine, Vincent, Caryn, and yes, I didn't call you Jo because you were having your exams, how thoughtful right? Hahaha. All the best for your last paper tomorrow btw :P Finally gave up and got a hold of my favourite curry puffs and munched my way to Ellen Degeneres. Hate her "KA-KA". Finished up and yes, it was time to hit the books. Accounting was creeping by the corner. And yet again, another imbalance. And to the horror of all accounting students and accountants, when you don't balance, YOU'RE IN SHIT! Hahahaha.. But a new horror has descended. The ambiguity of Net profit/Loss/wat-the-heck? Oh, don't bother my rants. Ain't worth your time.

And yes, I ain't trying to steal anything from you. Not your time, not your bloody XXXXXX, and certainly not your attention. Oh boy, and I thought drama class was interesting. Real life time drama has never reached its plateau. Just right before you close your eyes to rest in the sweet meadow amongst the sunny sunflowers beneath the clear blue sky, there jumps a bear that was apparently NOT lurking behind the rocks. I should have seen it coming. Madness. How could you ever fallen for the same scene? Disappointing, and disturbing.

Life is everything but a bed of roses. OUCH

Life is what we choose to make it be. So be it.

Urghh. More questions. More changes. More disappointments. OMG, MORE failures. But yet, there shall always be more and abundantly more HOPE. Oh, boy, I hope I can hope on Hope.

Thank You for listening. I HOPE that YoU make the world go round and never let the world make you go round.

-jOhN "spinning around" LiM-

ps: Sorry /.\ to You.

-Random pics-

My lil boy for the night. Appreciate company Josh. Cheers to H

High Dad = New Laptop

AND of course, the JAZZ FESTIVAL@GENTING!

Seriously, Jazz is my passion man. I'm even thinkin of naming my daughter Jazz, THATS IF I get a daughter. Hmmm.

John is currently not high anymore, though he had a fantastic time at the Jazz Fest and a good weekend. He will update more on the Jazz Fest when the mood is right.

However it was not productive, academically speaking.

John is currently sitting in front of com tryin to finish Accounting, Economics and Calculus at 2.30am.

He is in grave danger if he keeps up this pattern.

God, its time you intervine and get a hold on John's life.

A quick shout out to the A-Levels students from Taylors that'll be having their exam tomorrow, ALL THE BEST! ;)

-jOhN "regretting" LiM-

WOOHOO.. Weekend Road Trip..!!

Agenda 1:

JAZZ FEST @ GENTING

WOOOHOOOO... JAZZ Love love loveeeeeeee!!!!!!

Agenda 2:
Hmmmmm.. high possibility of

UV NATION @ 1UTAMA

WOOHOOOOOO... RAVE Love love loveeeeeeeee!!!!

Shyyyttttt.... John is high and losing focus.....!!!.. OMG~~
After this must SUPER FOCUS d...

OH NO.. wait!!!..

In 2 weeks,
there is APYAC at Indonesia!!!

I'm i'm going!!!... WAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

SHYTTT!!!! John is in deep shit...
OMG, whats wrong with me tonight?.. ahahhahahhahaha
I know why... its because You said Yes :)

-jOhN "high" LiM-

update: Screw UV Nation.. Got Accounts test on Wednesday.. Better study for that instead.. WOOOOHOOO... ACCOUNTING!!... screw john la~

Oh NOO... x_x

Here it comes..

I'm staying OUT OF IT.. You hear me?!

Sinking myself in Jazz and Trance... HAHAHAHAHAHHA...

GanjaGuru Vs. Buble

Its A Dream Vs. Call Me Irresponsible

Deadbeat Vs. What A Difference a Day Makes

Everytime we Touch Ys. For Once In My Life

Raise the Bass Vs. Summertime

99.9 Vs. Singing in the Rain

The beauty of music.. If only I can make it, or can I?

Hmmm... Its weird... Things are changing again, and so am I.. New thoughts are forming.. My world is getting bigger.. I'm in for more this time..

Agenda:

Jazz Fest@Genting

CottonClub@Ampang

XXXXXXXXX@XXXXX

A 2 hour drive with someone@Klang Valley

Ruums@KL

Surabaya@Indonesia

Himeji@Japan!!! (dream on John)

With You in Your arms (dream on John)

I'll bring You there someday ok? Lovely ain't it?.. Perth.... Don't you just love the K800i...

Urghh.. my posts are just so all over... Messed up mind... Econs is interesting, Accounting is fun, Calculus can jump into the ocean...

-jOhN "messed" LiM-

I just knew when things were about to get bad...

And I'm getting the same vibe now...


Why do all good things come to an end?

Don't drift away? Please? I'm here to stay..

Don't walk away into the sunny rays,

Just hold on, and we'll reach the end

Together.

Who said it'll turn bad?

All it was, was just wind chimering

Do not fear, cause I'll be here

My Dear.

Ah, reminiscents of Japan

Rave music keeps me awake LATE. Hahahaha.. Oh boy, kill me, I should be studying now!

Yes, Aussie chicks in Japan. I miss them.. haha!.. I know you still read my blog right, Larry?.. Hahaha.. Me-Larry-I FORGOT HER NAME :'( - Claire

This guy looks like Bradley, RIGHT????!! Hahaha.. Don't worry, he is Malaysian :P

Oh, I feel the love baby.. :P Mind You, I had showers with them.. HAHAHHAHAHHAA..!!.. Brendon-Steven-Me-Naoki

Such a screwed up post... Just so random... Oh, I might be going gown to Indonesia in 2 weeks.. WOOHOO.. Travelling again!!.. WEEEEEE!!!... Indon, here I come!

-jOhN "lalala" LiM-

It has been awhile now..

Oh well.. I've been pretty much over the emo-ness of life that had stricken me for the past 3 months. I've been pretty much getting back on my feet now. I guess the break was good.

It really wasn't about me. It was really all about You. I'm glad I got to know myself so much more through those times. As weak as I am, as frail and imperfect as I am, but yet You chose to accept me. Time and time again You have assured me of Your perfect Love for me.

It was so hard to be strong when I turned my back on You. You were my backbone in my structure, You were the Sun in my universe, You were my Flowers in the fields.. Owh you get the picture.. And You still are..

The next challenge will be maintaining this level of trust. I hope I won't fail You like I have failed You in the past. I'm glad You've placed really nice people by my side in the process of getting to know You better. So where will You take me next?

College has been rather hand-full. Next week isn't gonna ge a breeze either. But I'll survive, I hope. Was up in Genting for a night. Went up alone and got down the following morning before class. Genting is so freaking near! I mean, I knew it was near, but just didn't know it was THAT near :P Enjoyed my night with some of the Pastor's kids. Though it was just a night and I'd probably only knew 5% of the people but I still had a good time knowing a few people, eating and of course laughing. I felt belonged :)

:) Moving on, I LOVE Jazz! :P Aiyo.. dunno wat to blog d le.. :'(

Reflective mood

-jOhN "reflecting?" LiM-

THIS IS MY NOW!

Woohoo..!! Love the song..!! Listen to the original.. Soooo much better..
http://www.americanidol.com/songwriter/

Look out for This is My Now and If You Ask Me To... They had a small songwritting competition during Idols to get a new winner's song and This is My Now was chosen. Impressive writting materials over there. Hmm.. Anyone into writting songs with me? :)

-jOhN "humming" LiM-

Congrats Jordin :)

This song makes me smile :)

How'd I wished I found You soon.. My everything..

Michael Buble - Everything from Call me Irresponsible which I will get soon.. muahaha! A must!

Looking forward to more good changes in life soon :) This is for the better! Cheers ;)

-jOhN "where is my Everything?" Lim-

First week of school done.

I think it is gonna be an interesting quick semester.

Taking up Accounts, Microeconomics and continuing to Calculus 2 this semester.

All subjects ain't too bad but I really have to constantly read and be on my toes in every lesson because there is just no space for mistakes or slacking. Really have to do well this semester again! Gambate!!!

Well, there were sparkles in my eyes when I saw you guys again tonight. I was really glad I met you guys again. Truly. Sigh. I just wished you were as excited to see me as well. I missed our times.

I had a good chat with Angie tonight. It was really deep. She understood. Its good to have someone that had been in that position before. I guess maturity sometimes isn't the best thing after all. I mean, time and time again I wished I just didn't know. The less I know, the less hurt i become, the less I know, the best things can turn out. It really applies everywhere from friendships, family matters, SOME school matters and even mamak matters. Like, if I didn't know the mamak man had spit into my teh ais, I wouldn't mind drinking it, because I DIDN'T KNOW!

I don't know man. Its just, like I was telling Vinz tonight, I mean, these past few months have thought me not to rely on people so much already. As painful as it may sound, but its just the truth. People just tend to disappoint you at every turn of the corner. I mean, to the people out there, its not that i don't trust you anymore, but I am sure you are MATURE enough to understand where I am coming from and not go "ooOoOOooO, John don't trust PEOPLE anymore worrrrr~~~" and all those bull crap.

*Brutally Honest Section*

Another thing that really got m thinking today was when I went early for the mamak thing they had in church tonight. Because I was PRESSURED and FORCED by "some" people, I agreed to go as early as 6pm to church, expecting he worst la. I just wasn't in the mood to sweat and work around the sun. As soon as I arrived, I helped carry some chairs from Zoe. Knowing the John that you know, John had thoughts running ALL over his mind about this chore. John started despising and complaining in his mind. But as soon as he watched others and as soon as he walked the many rounds as he did, he started thinking and reasoning. You know, if you'd been reading my posts lately, I had mention I wanted to be a better person right? And here was I complaining in my mind and just regretting the decision just going early. However, something in me just striked, and questioned myself. "You wanted to be a better person, now be THAT better person". You know, I can be so attentive and diligent in class listening to the lecturer and just so focused to do well but here am I, in church, carrying chairs around and whining. I just stopped at that moment.

My thinking changed. I carried the chairs with a smile. Suddenly all the burden of carrying those chairs left. Totally. I was glad I was doing it, in fact. I just genuinely wanted to help. And it was really funny how God works. The past few nights I have been doing push ups (yes, John can be vain too~) and it is just how weird I am now doing all these weights.. Hahaha! Oh well.. Yeah, tha was a really good lesson tonight on humility and jsut serving with a HEART! It was solely for God and to be a better person and totally not to please any man or to show off to any leader bla bla.. i'm just so sick of pleasing people la.. Who are they for me to please them, just suck off la~ Hahahaha.. I glad my heart still had a heart beat after such a long while of negligence and ignorance. Oh well, my baby steps..

I'm growing. For the better I hope. Now, cheers to a whole new week! WOoOOOoooHooOoOo!

PS: Thank You for allowing me to trust you, my friend.

-jOhN "learning" LiM-

OMG.. I was just randomly browsing my music library and came across this song that I presented with the "SS1 boyz" for Prefect's install!.. OMG.. I missed it so much!!!... ADAM, MOGGYS, JINNJO, ISAAC, BENJOZ AND I!... Wah Lau!... I missed this song!... Go download!! Shyt! I miss you guys back at school man...

The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New

All I could find was this pic

Damn bloody useless ppl we were last time.. HAhahahaHAHHA.. somehow I hear someone shouting "speak for yourself" from a far.. hahahha...

Anyways... Have a great week peeps!!! :)

-jOhN "smiling2" LiM-

:)

I'm glad I met You again..

Brought back so much thought..

Brought me back to the path I should be taking..

Thank You for just thinking of me..

Dugged out an old picture of You and I and realised how much You've thought me since..

Truly..

Hope You have a good time, my friend..

Classes starts tomorrow. I really don't know if I am ready for this semester. I pray I'll keep consistant and pleasent. Since the stories I have been hearing about people, I really pray I actually grow to become a better person. Everyone has been changing and growing, and I really don't want to grow the wrong way (emotionally and PHYSICALLY!).

People are getting particularly interesting. Everytime I am gone, something happens. Hahaha. Oh well, thank God I'm just not in the drama. Hmmm... Drama is just happening everywhere. Oh well, keep to myself, stay out and stay true and cool..

=) Growing can be a painful but rewarding experience. You don't need a rocket scientist to tell you that but how many can testify to enjoying the process of growing? What doesn't break you only makes you stronger. At this moment when no horrible events are happening it is easy to say and push myself on. It is always good to start off at a right set of mind. Hope it helps me carry through another sub-chapter of my life.

I am enjoying taking baby steps towards my future. Just growing and learning each day and time and just slowly discovering who I really am and to cope with every pressure around me. Oh well... we'll just see how I fluctuate.

Lessons lately:

Jealousy is a liar, think before you talk, smile =) and sing your heart out! =)

Good night ya'll! Things will get better :)

-jOhN "smiling" LiM-

Howdy peeps..

Safely arrived in Singapore from Perth in the wee hours of the morning before I flew back to Kuala Lumpur. I had such a blast in Perth with my sister. It was a whole new experience compared to Japan because Japan was a very luxurious "holiday" holiday. You get it right? But this one was where I really got to see the student life, away from family, all alone with your friends, in your own space and room. It really opened my eyes to a new dimension all together.

We went everywhere from the city to shop to the country sides to the wildlife park and beaches to just beautiful sceneries all around Perth. I am truly thankful for such an experience. It really got my mind off some things that weren't worth thinking of. The thing I loved the most was the times when I just drove along with my sister in the car and while we talked and really caught up with each other. She is truly my inspiration and just such an exceptional person in my life. I love You Ci! Her name is Julie by the way. I just call her Ci because Ci is Che in Hokkien.

I don't think any of her friends will read my blog, but I have to say she has extremely nice friends. Each of them were so friendly and hospitable. Many of them were crazily lame and funny. yes, even more funny than you Jo Lin~ Haha.

It really opened my eyes to a whole new experience. Student life isn't as glamourous or free as you think it is. At least not for me. I guess, when you are all alone, you are so caught up with work at Uni plus taking care of your food and chores at home till you really sometimes just feel so lost in a whole new foreign land. From the way I see it, what keeps you going is your friends. Just watching my sister's friends laugh and take care of each other really encouraged me loads. They were so sincere with each other, just like family. I realyl admire what they have for each other.

Somehow the way I feel is not coming out through words, but trust me, once you leave home, you'll get me. Learning to be independant, learning to make new friends, and just surviving over there. I'm glad I had the opportunity to look at it before I left. It would definately make me a better person.

:) A whole new semester is starting on Tuesday. I really pray I would have a good start and continue to be consistant for the next semesters to come. It really feels like a whole new beginning once again, coming back from this holiday, coming back to college.

Truly, I am taking baby steps towards the destiny of my life and I am learning each step of the way. Gonna press on towards becoming a better person each day.

Missing my classmates back in 5BR :( Hope to meet some new INTI faces soon :P Take care peeps! Having friends is like having cabonara for dinnner, YUMMY-LY DELICIOUS. Cheers!

-jOhN "pressing on" LiM-