THIS IS MY NOW!

Woohoo..!! Love the song..!! Listen to the original.. Soooo much better..
http://www.americanidol.com/songwriter/

Look out for This is My Now and If You Ask Me To... They had a small songwritting competition during Idols to get a new winner's song and This is My Now was chosen. Impressive writting materials over there. Hmm.. Anyone into writting songs with me? :)

-jOhN "humming" LiM-

Congrats Jordin :)

This song makes me smile :)

How'd I wished I found You soon.. My everything..

Michael Buble - Everything from Call me Irresponsible which I will get soon.. muahaha! A must!

Looking forward to more good changes in life soon :) This is for the better! Cheers ;)

-jOhN "where is my Everything?" Lim-

First week of school done.

I think it is gonna be an interesting quick semester.

Taking up Accounts, Microeconomics and continuing to Calculus 2 this semester.

All subjects ain't too bad but I really have to constantly read and be on my toes in every lesson because there is just no space for mistakes or slacking. Really have to do well this semester again! Gambate!!!

Well, there were sparkles in my eyes when I saw you guys again tonight. I was really glad I met you guys again. Truly. Sigh. I just wished you were as excited to see me as well. I missed our times.

I had a good chat with Angie tonight. It was really deep. She understood. Its good to have someone that had been in that position before. I guess maturity sometimes isn't the best thing after all. I mean, time and time again I wished I just didn't know. The less I know, the less hurt i become, the less I know, the best things can turn out. It really applies everywhere from friendships, family matters, SOME school matters and even mamak matters. Like, if I didn't know the mamak man had spit into my teh ais, I wouldn't mind drinking it, because I DIDN'T KNOW!

I don't know man. Its just, like I was telling Vinz tonight, I mean, these past few months have thought me not to rely on people so much already. As painful as it may sound, but its just the truth. People just tend to disappoint you at every turn of the corner. I mean, to the people out there, its not that i don't trust you anymore, but I am sure you are MATURE enough to understand where I am coming from and not go "ooOoOOooO, John don't trust PEOPLE anymore worrrrr~~~" and all those bull crap.

*Brutally Honest Section*

Another thing that really got m thinking today was when I went early for the mamak thing they had in church tonight. Because I was PRESSURED and FORCED by "some" people, I agreed to go as early as 6pm to church, expecting he worst la. I just wasn't in the mood to sweat and work around the sun. As soon as I arrived, I helped carry some chairs from Zoe. Knowing the John that you know, John had thoughts running ALL over his mind about this chore. John started despising and complaining in his mind. But as soon as he watched others and as soon as he walked the many rounds as he did, he started thinking and reasoning. You know, if you'd been reading my posts lately, I had mention I wanted to be a better person right? And here was I complaining in my mind and just regretting the decision just going early. However, something in me just striked, and questioned myself. "You wanted to be a better person, now be THAT better person". You know, I can be so attentive and diligent in class listening to the lecturer and just so focused to do well but here am I, in church, carrying chairs around and whining. I just stopped at that moment.

My thinking changed. I carried the chairs with a smile. Suddenly all the burden of carrying those chairs left. Totally. I was glad I was doing it, in fact. I just genuinely wanted to help. And it was really funny how God works. The past few nights I have been doing push ups (yes, John can be vain too~) and it is just how weird I am now doing all these weights.. Hahaha! Oh well.. Yeah, tha was a really good lesson tonight on humility and jsut serving with a HEART! It was solely for God and to be a better person and totally not to please any man or to show off to any leader bla bla.. i'm just so sick of pleasing people la.. Who are they for me to please them, just suck off la~ Hahahaha.. I glad my heart still had a heart beat after such a long while of negligence and ignorance. Oh well, my baby steps..

I'm growing. For the better I hope. Now, cheers to a whole new week! WOoOOOoooHooOoOo!

PS: Thank You for allowing me to trust you, my friend.

-jOhN "learning" LiM-

OMG.. I was just randomly browsing my music library and came across this song that I presented with the "SS1 boyz" for Prefect's install!.. OMG.. I missed it so much!!!... ADAM, MOGGYS, JINNJO, ISAAC, BENJOZ AND I!... Wah Lau!... I missed this song!... Go download!! Shyt! I miss you guys back at school man...

The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New

All I could find was this pic

Damn bloody useless ppl we were last time.. HAhahahaHAHHA.. somehow I hear someone shouting "speak for yourself" from a far.. hahahha...

Anyways... Have a great week peeps!!! :)

-jOhN "smiling2" LiM-

:)

I'm glad I met You again..

Brought back so much thought..

Brought me back to the path I should be taking..

Thank You for just thinking of me..

Dugged out an old picture of You and I and realised how much You've thought me since..

Truly..

Hope You have a good time, my friend..

Classes starts tomorrow. I really don't know if I am ready for this semester. I pray I'll keep consistant and pleasent. Since the stories I have been hearing about people, I really pray I actually grow to become a better person. Everyone has been changing and growing, and I really don't want to grow the wrong way (emotionally and PHYSICALLY!).

People are getting particularly interesting. Everytime I am gone, something happens. Hahaha. Oh well, thank God I'm just not in the drama. Hmmm... Drama is just happening everywhere. Oh well, keep to myself, stay out and stay true and cool..

=) Growing can be a painful but rewarding experience. You don't need a rocket scientist to tell you that but how many can testify to enjoying the process of growing? What doesn't break you only makes you stronger. At this moment when no horrible events are happening it is easy to say and push myself on. It is always good to start off at a right set of mind. Hope it helps me carry through another sub-chapter of my life.

I am enjoying taking baby steps towards my future. Just growing and learning each day and time and just slowly discovering who I really am and to cope with every pressure around me. Oh well... we'll just see how I fluctuate.

Lessons lately:

Jealousy is a liar, think before you talk, smile =) and sing your heart out! =)

Good night ya'll! Things will get better :)

-jOhN "smiling" LiM-

Howdy peeps..

Safely arrived in Singapore from Perth in the wee hours of the morning before I flew back to Kuala Lumpur. I had such a blast in Perth with my sister. It was a whole new experience compared to Japan because Japan was a very luxurious "holiday" holiday. You get it right? But this one was where I really got to see the student life, away from family, all alone with your friends, in your own space and room. It really opened my eyes to a new dimension all together.

We went everywhere from the city to shop to the country sides to the wildlife park and beaches to just beautiful sceneries all around Perth. I am truly thankful for such an experience. It really got my mind off some things that weren't worth thinking of. The thing I loved the most was the times when I just drove along with my sister in the car and while we talked and really caught up with each other. She is truly my inspiration and just such an exceptional person in my life. I love You Ci! Her name is Julie by the way. I just call her Ci because Ci is Che in Hokkien.

I don't think any of her friends will read my blog, but I have to say she has extremely nice friends. Each of them were so friendly and hospitable. Many of them were crazily lame and funny. yes, even more funny than you Jo Lin~ Haha.

It really opened my eyes to a whole new experience. Student life isn't as glamourous or free as you think it is. At least not for me. I guess, when you are all alone, you are so caught up with work at Uni plus taking care of your food and chores at home till you really sometimes just feel so lost in a whole new foreign land. From the way I see it, what keeps you going is your friends. Just watching my sister's friends laugh and take care of each other really encouraged me loads. They were so sincere with each other, just like family. I realyl admire what they have for each other.

Somehow the way I feel is not coming out through words, but trust me, once you leave home, you'll get me. Learning to be independant, learning to make new friends, and just surviving over there. I'm glad I had the opportunity to look at it before I left. It would definately make me a better person.

:) A whole new semester is starting on Tuesday. I really pray I would have a good start and continue to be consistant for the next semesters to come. It really feels like a whole new beginning once again, coming back from this holiday, coming back to college.

Truly, I am taking baby steps towards the destiny of my life and I am learning each step of the way. Gonna press on towards becoming a better person each day.

Missing my classmates back in 5BR :( Hope to meet some new INTI faces soon :P Take care peeps! Having friends is like having cabonara for dinnner, YUMMY-LY DELICIOUS. Cheers!

-jOhN "pressing on" LiM-

Sitting here
In the silence of the room
I think of how much I want to be there
Beside You

I don't know You anymore
Where has those days gone
Those few days
Those few short days
That felt like forever when I smiled at You

I can't seem to drain the thought of You in my head
Everytime when everything is silent and when time stops
I start to think of You

Where have our days gone to?
I can't sit still beside you without any akwardness or discomfort
Is it You? Or am I just the one thinking too much again?

We used to know each other
So well I figured
But now, I don't
I am not falling out on You
Never will I. Surely. In Your arms. You enbrace me.

Hold me close to Your heart.
Don't ever let me go.

I miss You terrible, hopelessly..

IF I could, I would..
Catch a shooting star and put it in Your eyes
-that You'll dazzle me everytime I look into it.

I miss You, dearly, my friend.

-jOhN LiM-

PS: Perth is :)