Yee Sang with family
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Monday, January 30, 2006
Happy Birthday and CNY to me! :P
Alas a post. Forgive Yours truly once again for my lack of attention to this site. Sigh. Time has been a restrain. Anyway, the past week has again been quite packed and hectic. Well, maybe I should write about something that just had happen that is……. My Birthday! Weeee… This year’s 17th Birthday wasn’t much of a bang or boom. It was just a simple, sweet, beautiful day (Btw, did you know, OPRAH WINFREY was born on the SAME day! 29th of Jan!). Went to church in the morning, went over to Aunt/Uncle’s place at Shah Alam for lunch. Note, it was also the First Day of Chinese New Year. We already had my birthday cake after falling for temptaion the night before at our reunion dinner. It was a savouring caramel cake from King’s Confectionary. It was A++. Just simply irresistable. In the evening, my family finally agreed on having dinner at Italianese. I seem to be the only Italian Food fanatic in my family. My bro hates Spagetti, Mom doesn’t like the thickness of the cheese, Sister only likes Rice and Chinese Dishes, and I dunno if my dad doesn’t like it or not. But dinner was superb too. Had Cabonara, Spagetti Meat Balls and Stuffed Mushrooms which were just splendid for a Birthday Night. 1U was like a ghost town. No shit. It was as dead and quiet as if the God of Chaos was about to arrive. All in all, it was a rather quiet birthday, but hey, I really liked it. Just sweet. Oh, and a special shout out to all those who’d wished me. Received heaps of sweet smses. Thanx ya’ll!
Chinese New Year. The one conclusion I’ve came out with is that Chinese New Year means Television Time with Family. What else can you do during chinese new year other than food food food and more food? But cool family movies rock. It’s the time of the year when we all sit down together and watch as Hong Kong stars stret their way up the stage to receive their heavy metal toys that only make their way to shelves. Last night, we watched Mr. Hong Kong. Gosh~ Hong Kong seem to be coming up with all these cheesy crappy shows. Buffed Boys shashaying along their way, working it out. The highlight of the night was when we found out there was a swimsuit round too! My Gawd, they had water to wet them too. Ughh.. with the wet look and see-through shirts and “United Colours of Beneton” Speedos, God forbid this competition to happen again! Wonder who coordinated their clothing rack. It was bad. Colour combination was out. The winner had a purple coat with lime green pants. He looked like Joker from Batman. But one thing I learnt from this competition is that women still prefer guys that are intouch with sensitivity. I guess the winner had it all when he serenaded the women with his scales on the piano. But I guess all in all the togetherness of the show was the thing that made it special. It surely wouldn’t be fun if I’d watched it alone, or would it? :P.
Looking forward to the next few days of this holiday. It’s a good get away from school. And as I write this, I can’t believe it is the last day of the month of January. Its over! Its Fishing Over! 10 more months to go to SPM! Ahhhhh……..
Gong Xi Gong Xi
-jOhN “8” LiM-
Chinese New Year. The one conclusion I’ve came out with is that Chinese New Year means Television Time with Family. What else can you do during chinese new year other than food food food and more food? But cool family movies rock. It’s the time of the year when we all sit down together and watch as Hong Kong stars stret their way up the stage to receive their heavy metal toys that only make their way to shelves. Last night, we watched Mr. Hong Kong. Gosh~ Hong Kong seem to be coming up with all these cheesy crappy shows. Buffed Boys shashaying along their way, working it out. The highlight of the night was when we found out there was a swimsuit round too! My Gawd, they had water to wet them too. Ughh.. with the wet look and see-through shirts and “United Colours of Beneton” Speedos, God forbid this competition to happen again! Wonder who coordinated their clothing rack. It was bad. Colour combination was out. The winner had a purple coat with lime green pants. He looked like Joker from Batman. But one thing I learnt from this competition is that women still prefer guys that are intouch with sensitivity. I guess the winner had it all when he serenaded the women with his scales on the piano. But I guess all in all the togetherness of the show was the thing that made it special. It surely wouldn’t be fun if I’d watched it alone, or would it? :P.
Looking forward to the next few days of this holiday. It’s a good get away from school. And as I write this, I can’t believe it is the last day of the month of January. Its over! Its Fishing Over! 10 more months to go to SPM! Ahhhhh……..
Gong Xi Gong Xi
-jOhN “8” LiM-
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Staying focus, Pulling through, Pressing On!
Everyday has been such a gust of wind. It has been a wild week and it will be wild for the whole year long. It is crazy to imagine that I actually have tuition or something extra everyday. I have tuitions everyday of the week except the weekends where I have tennis lessons and worship practices and church activities. That’s sad ain’t it? But life goes on. I’m starting to feel how working people feel. They struggle to wake up early and leave for the office and get home late, have a few bites of chicken rice and read a lil and get to bed and the cycle goes on. Holidays mean more to me now. We LIVE for those days :P.
But anyway, yesterday was a crazy day once more. Got up at 630am and went for tennis from 7am to 9am. Immediately got a change and went to school to help paint the damn carpark which I dunno why must we paint it the same damn colour?! :P. After some painting and weeding, went home to get a bath and immediately left for Central Park at BU for my cell’s outing. It was a crazy time of laughing and eating. Enjoyed it loads. I want pics people!! Walked over to BU afterwards to meet up wif Jinny, Ben, Emelia and Jo for a movie. Watched Pride & Prejudice. Love their accent and english. It’s just so special how they express themselves. Simply extraordinary. However I had to leave half way through the movie to go to church. Didn’t want to attend Sunday Service because I didn’t want to wake up early the next morning as I have through out the whole week. So rushed to the Saturday Service and afterwards went for dinner with family at Green View in Sect 19. Boy, after a long while I had never had such a great meal. The highlights were Yee Sang and Crab! Lovely, Tasty, and how Jo Lin explains it, “Orgasmic”. By this time I had not got home since my cell outing at 11am. After dinner I got home for a bath and went out AGAIN to meet up with the cell guys for mamak. We chatted till bout some 12am before I got home. Fuh~ It was a long PRODUCTIVE day. Love it. :P Unfortunately through the process I had rejected an offer to MC for the Leo Charity Concert coming this February. But well, I just can’t commit anymore.
Its crazy how involved I am in school. But whats the point of it? Hmmm.. Not that I want to brag or anything here, but here are my RESPONSIBILITIES in school;
Prefects – Student Affairs Department Director
Leo – Vice President
PBSM – Membership Director
Yellow House – Form 5 Representative
Christian Fellowship – Form 5 Representative
Tennis Club – President?
Its crazy. I remind you, these are only the responsibilities I hold in school. I am as active in church as I am in school. I am a cell leader of SS2B as well as a worship leader in our Youth Church. Quite a number now have wondered how I juggle my studies and my co-curricular activities and I just don’t know how to answer them. It has to be the wisdom of God. Seriously. Its madness. Without God, by now, I’m some blown up chicken. His strength is always suffiencient for us, Amen? :P. Mom is beginning to complain now. It’s true what she says, that SPM only come by once. I really want to do well for it ;) and so do you of course. Well, all I can do is trust in God now. So many things on my mind, responsibilities, Friends, Family, Church, School, Tennis, Love? Hahahaha… Ok, maybe Love ain’t in it. Fuh, Frienship is another thing. I’m starting to realise I am unable to say No to friends sometimes. I always like to spend time with my friends and all, but sometimes I’m so incapable of doing so. Don’t want to disspoint anyone. I hate dissapointing anyone, Especially myself. I have an undenialbly High expectation of almost everything. If you’re my leader, You really gotta be good. So mean of me right? But somehow, I just can’t help it.
Hmmm.. Don’t really like this post. But what that heck, just want to jot down something after awhile. Will anyone be there for me when I fall, when I cry, when all is not going well? I’m so not falling into mood swings this week. No no…..
Pressing On,
-jOhN “pulling through” LiM-
But anyway, yesterday was a crazy day once more. Got up at 630am and went for tennis from 7am to 9am. Immediately got a change and went to school to help paint the damn carpark which I dunno why must we paint it the same damn colour?! :P. After some painting and weeding, went home to get a bath and immediately left for Central Park at BU for my cell’s outing. It was a crazy time of laughing and eating. Enjoyed it loads. I want pics people!! Walked over to BU afterwards to meet up wif Jinny, Ben, Emelia and Jo for a movie. Watched Pride & Prejudice. Love their accent and english. It’s just so special how they express themselves. Simply extraordinary. However I had to leave half way through the movie to go to church. Didn’t want to attend Sunday Service because I didn’t want to wake up early the next morning as I have through out the whole week. So rushed to the Saturday Service and afterwards went for dinner with family at Green View in Sect 19. Boy, after a long while I had never had such a great meal. The highlights were Yee Sang and Crab! Lovely, Tasty, and how Jo Lin explains it, “Orgasmic”. By this time I had not got home since my cell outing at 11am. After dinner I got home for a bath and went out AGAIN to meet up with the cell guys for mamak. We chatted till bout some 12am before I got home. Fuh~ It was a long PRODUCTIVE day. Love it. :P Unfortunately through the process I had rejected an offer to MC for the Leo Charity Concert coming this February. But well, I just can’t commit anymore.
Its crazy how involved I am in school. But whats the point of it? Hmmm.. Not that I want to brag or anything here, but here are my RESPONSIBILITIES in school;
Prefects – Student Affairs Department Director
Leo – Vice President
PBSM – Membership Director
Yellow House – Form 5 Representative
Christian Fellowship – Form 5 Representative
Tennis Club – President?
Its crazy. I remind you, these are only the responsibilities I hold in school. I am as active in church as I am in school. I am a cell leader of SS2B as well as a worship leader in our Youth Church. Quite a number now have wondered how I juggle my studies and my co-curricular activities and I just don’t know how to answer them. It has to be the wisdom of God. Seriously. Its madness. Without God, by now, I’m some blown up chicken. His strength is always suffiencient for us, Amen? :P. Mom is beginning to complain now. It’s true what she says, that SPM only come by once. I really want to do well for it ;) and so do you of course. Well, all I can do is trust in God now. So many things on my mind, responsibilities, Friends, Family, Church, School, Tennis, Love? Hahahaha… Ok, maybe Love ain’t in it. Fuh, Frienship is another thing. I’m starting to realise I am unable to say No to friends sometimes. I always like to spend time with my friends and all, but sometimes I’m so incapable of doing so. Don’t want to disspoint anyone. I hate dissapointing anyone, Especially myself. I have an undenialbly High expectation of almost everything. If you’re my leader, You really gotta be good. So mean of me right? But somehow, I just can’t help it.
Hmmm.. Don’t really like this post. But what that heck, just want to jot down something after awhile. Will anyone be there for me when I fall, when I cry, when all is not going well? I’m so not falling into mood swings this week. No no…..
Pressing On,
-jOhN “pulling through” LiM-
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Love Letters
*Bleks*.. Yet again, another late post. I just seem to have something everyday. Ok, maybe not seem, I DO have something EVERYDAY. But God's strength is sufficient for me ;). I would rate last week at 8.5/10. It was pack & productive. Don't you just love productive days? Love it! Gives you that exuberant feeling. Well, Vic stayed over on Monday night. Slept at 3 am that night. He arrived in a friends BMW 318 series. Gosh~ And it was a 27 year old women that owned it. MY DREAM GIRL *_*. You know how I like rich, hot mamas ;). Anyway, it was cool. Watched Batman before we went upstairs to have small chats on bed. Yet again I'm always very interested in Victor stories and counsel. I don't know bout you, but I LOVE long thoughtful chats. Something different bout chats with Victor is that I need not find for input, but just listen. Love listening to his philosophy and ideas bout different issues and stuffs. I guess, its just I like having to listen to a big bro. I've already know the feeling having listen to an elder sis which is really cool. Both of them have very different topics of discussion but nonetheless both are as equally interesting :P. Watched and episode of Smallville tonight where Clark had this younger friend, Ryan. Clark and Ryan seriously had this Brother-Brother relationship going on and it was something I'd long for. It was so sincere and loving. It was so emo when they hugged on the Air Baloon before Ryan passed away. Then followed these statements
Me : Awwwww... So nice... I likeeee :(
Sis : Mmm.. You like emo shows ah... You like feeling emo i realised
Me : Ya... I like to cry.... I like that moment when everything is silent and beautifully still...
Maybe thats why I like jazz and emo love movies. But thats just me. And I like it that way. Ahh.. The more I think of it, the more and more I want to feel it. Anyway, back to my topic, so, that night Victor and I chatted till 3am ++ 4am probably. He's one cool bro la I can tell you. Can be so superly spiritual, crazyly whacky and cranko and yet full of maturity in his statements sometimes. One thing I can always know for sure that he'll be by my side whenever I call. Love ya loads Bro!
Its just beautiful la. This year is gonna be great. I can feel it. That night at cell was phenomenal. It was so different. At that moment of singing praises to the Lord, I knew the cell was ready. The cell comprises of different personalities and character but yet, as we come together, all weaknesses seem to disappear. This bunch of people are different. They're gonna change the world. Its always beautiful to see something grow and I've seen this cell grow. I'd never see myself at this spot years before today. I believe its the flow of God's anointing. When I first entered cell Yi-Ki was my most wonderful cell leader. I was only Standard5 then but I had always observed her an dhow she led. She was THE ROLE MODEL. She was the one that grommed me the way I am. It was a cool journey. And people you never imagine rising up, now have rose up to the occasion. You never know when God can raise someone up. As they say, NO ONE is indispensable. God can raise someone up, God is also capable of pulling anyone down. Looking forward to new cell. New people, new environment, new house, new leaders, new Year. Its gonna be cool. Honestly, I have no idea of my cell members right now. Although we are planning but there are still some changes and input from Gwen but well, I'm gonna believe for a change. And change is good ;). It keeps us going on and learning through new changes. Its just how things go. So if we're gonna see a change, face it dear ;).
Don't you just love change? Changes in age? Well, just celebrated Emelia's 17th birthday last night at her beautiful place. Had many laughs there, from how Melissa Pong did her Mr Bean thing~ Gosh, She HAS TO HAVE THE WORST ACTRESS AWARD! But I still love you girl. HAHAHA. Well, Emelia, what I have to say bout her. Emelia and I go way back in 2000. Some of you might know more than others, but let's just leave that there. But through those years, I've found her to be a very easy, care-free girl that life is something to be enjoyed each day. But Emelia is also something always deep in thoughts. I dunno why, but I feel that she is always torn between two. But Emelia, I must tell you, till today I still admire you for who you are. She was always taller than me, but now I ain't too sure bout that. Thanx Emelia for everything, the laughs we had, they shy phone calls then, the morning walks that never came true, the dumb letters I wrote and so on. Aiya, wanna write more la. But i tell you in person only la one day.
Wordy post, but if you ain't reading it, who cares. But anyone, some of you might be wondering why I called this post Love Letters. Well, recently I've started writting Love Letters ;). Interested? Want one too? Too bad, its only for my loved one, Jesus. Lolz. Started a book called "Love Letters to my Lord - By John Lim". Its weird la. But I find thats a cool way to converse with God and express my Love everyday. Its more like a Love Letter-cum-Diary. Gonna jot down my emo request. Lolz.
Alrighty, thats enough. Gonna write more soon k dude and dudez! Love ya'll!!
Yours Truly,
-jOhN "eMo" LiM-
Me : Awwwww... So nice... I likeeee :(
Sis : Mmm.. You like emo shows ah... You like feeling emo i realised
Me : Ya... I like to cry.... I like that moment when everything is silent and beautifully still...
Maybe thats why I like jazz and emo love movies. But thats just me. And I like it that way. Ahh.. The more I think of it, the more and more I want to feel it. Anyway, back to my topic, so, that night Victor and I chatted till 3am ++ 4am probably. He's one cool bro la I can tell you. Can be so superly spiritual, crazyly whacky and cranko and yet full of maturity in his statements sometimes. One thing I can always know for sure that he'll be by my side whenever I call. Love ya loads Bro!
Its just beautiful la. This year is gonna be great. I can feel it. That night at cell was phenomenal. It was so different. At that moment of singing praises to the Lord, I knew the cell was ready. The cell comprises of different personalities and character but yet, as we come together, all weaknesses seem to disappear. This bunch of people are different. They're gonna change the world. Its always beautiful to see something grow and I've seen this cell grow. I'd never see myself at this spot years before today. I believe its the flow of God's anointing. When I first entered cell Yi-Ki was my most wonderful cell leader. I was only Standard5 then but I had always observed her an dhow she led. She was THE ROLE MODEL. She was the one that grommed me the way I am. It was a cool journey. And people you never imagine rising up, now have rose up to the occasion. You never know when God can raise someone up. As they say, NO ONE is indispensable. God can raise someone up, God is also capable of pulling anyone down. Looking forward to new cell. New people, new environment, new house, new leaders, new Year. Its gonna be cool. Honestly, I have no idea of my cell members right now. Although we are planning but there are still some changes and input from Gwen but well, I'm gonna believe for a change. And change is good ;). It keeps us going on and learning through new changes. Its just how things go. So if we're gonna see a change, face it dear ;).
Don't you just love change? Changes in age? Well, just celebrated Emelia's 17th birthday last night at her beautiful place. Had many laughs there, from how Melissa Pong did her Mr Bean thing~ Gosh, She HAS TO HAVE THE WORST ACTRESS AWARD! But I still love you girl. HAHAHA. Well, Emelia, what I have to say bout her. Emelia and I go way back in 2000. Some of you might know more than others, but let's just leave that there. But through those years, I've found her to be a very easy, care-free girl that life is something to be enjoyed each day. But Emelia is also something always deep in thoughts. I dunno why, but I feel that she is always torn between two. But Emelia, I must tell you, till today I still admire you for who you are. She was always taller than me, but now I ain't too sure bout that. Thanx Emelia for everything, the laughs we had, they shy phone calls then, the morning walks that never came true, the dumb letters I wrote and so on. Aiya, wanna write more la. But i tell you in person only la one day.
Wordy post, but if you ain't reading it, who cares. But anyone, some of you might be wondering why I called this post Love Letters. Well, recently I've started writting Love Letters ;). Interested? Want one too? Too bad, its only for my loved one, Jesus. Lolz. Started a book called "Love Letters to my Lord - By John Lim". Its weird la. But I find thats a cool way to converse with God and express my Love everyday. Its more like a Love Letter-cum-Diary. Gonna jot down my emo request. Lolz.
Alrighty, thats enough. Gonna write more soon k dude and dudez! Love ya'll!!
Yours Truly,
-jOhN "eMo" LiM-
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Dearly beloveds
It never meant as important to me as ever. The future holds uncertainties for our life. But yet, I’m going to choose to move forward and press on towards the goal he has placed for me. It got my mind running when I watched those passengers of Flight 93 run down the aisle to stand for what they were made for, to Live. I spend my night with my family watching “The Flight That Fought Back” on Discovery Channel. It wasn’t the usual family night. It was definitely a time of reflection and determination. Passengers of Flight 93 fought back when their plane had been hijacked by terrorist on September 11th 2001. Though memories of the incident vaguely present itself in our minds, but yet it is still fresh in history. Though it may bring back haunting memories but yet, through the short clips that were presented, a light amidst the darkness shone.
They had a purpose, they were determined to live on and fight. Even as I paid close attention to the TV screen even as some whail and cry, thoughts of how thankful I am for the people around to me beat in my heart. One lady’s words were very clear to my ears that said, from then on, every phone call she’d ever got from anyone really strike a chord in her chest that it might just be the last call she’d get from the individual. All this just sums up that life isn’t to be taken lighty. Had a good chat with Victor this afternoon after lunch when he came by my place just to hang around. It was very true what he said about our perspective on life. It’s truly how we view it. Sometimes, certain obstacles and boundaries are just meant to be there to allow us to bump into it. It is because if it wasn’t for that struggle, we’ve would never ended up where we are today. Even as I reflect back on the past, how true a statement it was. If it wasn’t for me falling down each time I fell, I wouldn’t have got up and learn that lesson.
They died as heroes. And that’s what I want to live for, to leave a legacy of faith and strongwill. I want to be different. I want my life to be counted in for His Kingdom, knowing I’ve impacted someone’s life out there. Its time I got up and made a difference. But well, I’m gonna start with the small steps now. Wanna go write a sappy, moody like Life song now. Just humming a tune of new life.
Reflecting,
-jOhN LiM-
They had a purpose, they were determined to live on and fight. Even as I paid close attention to the TV screen even as some whail and cry, thoughts of how thankful I am for the people around to me beat in my heart. One lady’s words were very clear to my ears that said, from then on, every phone call she’d ever got from anyone really strike a chord in her chest that it might just be the last call she’d get from the individual. All this just sums up that life isn’t to be taken lighty. Had a good chat with Victor this afternoon after lunch when he came by my place just to hang around. It was very true what he said about our perspective on life. It’s truly how we view it. Sometimes, certain obstacles and boundaries are just meant to be there to allow us to bump into it. It is because if it wasn’t for that struggle, we’ve would never ended up where we are today. Even as I reflect back on the past, how true a statement it was. If it wasn’t for me falling down each time I fell, I wouldn’t have got up and learn that lesson.
They died as heroes. And that’s what I want to live for, to leave a legacy of faith and strongwill. I want to be different. I want my life to be counted in for His Kingdom, knowing I’ve impacted someone’s life out there. Its time I got up and made a difference. But well, I’m gonna start with the small steps now. Wanna go write a sappy, moody like Life song now. Just humming a tune of new life.
Reflecting,
-jOhN LiM-
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Heaven will never ever be the same...
Tell me have you heard the story
That took place not long ago
Bout an angel up in heaven
They say You up and ran away from home
Word is You had unfinished business
So back on earth You had to flea
Well you know I'm so elated
Because You're right here next to me
And when God woke up that morning
And he called out her name
And when You did not answer
Heaven will never ever ever be the same
Always dreamed that it would happen
I just didn't know exactly where
All my life I'd been waiting for something amazing
Said it took a while but now I know
So tell me can I get a witness
If you believe in miracles
And the proof I have is living
And my life will never ever be
And your life don't have to be the...
At times it seems we take for granted
How precious life can be
Just hold on and I'm sure you'll understand it
Bringing into this world
A precious miracle...
And when I woke up that morning
Said where has my angel had gone
And when You didn't answer
Heaven will never ever ever be
Its amazing how God places people in our life. Its amazing how He places angels in our lives to guide us through certain seasons of change, trials and tribulations. This post is my expression of thanks to a certain angel that had stepped into my life. No words by far can express my gratitude and thanks for your life. You have certainly pull me out from the mud, clean my wounds and carried my on your shoulders. You were there when no one was there, You were there when all was dark. Its amazing how life holds challenges and obstacles that we're specificly made for each individual. Though sometimes we look and imagine our bigger picture as dark, God has always planned it for good. He had always meant it for good. And I believe He always has a plan for us, a plan to bring us to greater heights and levels of maturity each step of our life. Through the tides of time, You'fe stood by me and made sure I grew to be a strong young man. And today you help me build my house on solid rock. That no wave or storm may tear down the walls that You've help me build in trusting God. It ain't easy to do. Man can give all the necessary advice, support and guidance. But at the end of the road, You're gonna be there all alone. And if it was merely Me alone out there, I guess I'd be carried and swept away by the winds. But You helped me realise to put my trust in God alone and Him alone I shall trust. It has always been comforting to know that I might just have that someone to care for me when I needed that one to trust and lean on when all fails. Though sometimes I took for grantted how precious You've had meant to me, I want to believe in You each time I fail.
But all this only began when I've finally come to realise to accept my past. I have to admit that in my past I've done horrible, horrible and i mean really horrible stuff. But only through self acceptance and forgiveness have I come to known of His love once again. The past is to thank for, and there it shall stay. Behind me. Looking at it now, somehow no more sense of regret or remorse build in me. Letting go of what belongs behind relieves tension and gives a sense of relieve. My life has been filled with so many ups and downs. Well, EVERY life is filled with ups and downs that we are ought to overcome. I'm thankful for the lessons that have come by each day. So am I thankful for the different people he places in my life each step. People that has really held me by the arm to pull me out. People that has kept walking with me even when I was turning back. Truly, life would be meaningless without the latter. No doubt, appreciating my past has brought me where I am today. Each stepping stone has truly brought me to newer heights and levels in my walk with God. It is a never ending walk till we reach eternity with Him.
I'm glad that through the years I've been moving on. Looking back now brings back memories that are vaguely clear. It sparked when Victor came back and suddenly brought memories along. I really thank God I stood up to the challenge to get out of the darkness and rise up to his Glory. It was a tough one when I had no one to hold on to. There was a period of time when I was so confused and lonely and occasionally gave up but yet somehow still got hold of my the plans and hopes that God had for me. Its truly amazing how things unfold each day. That each time we open our eyes, decisions are made and how things just place themselves each step of the day. The mental development of humans is such a mystery and intriguing to me. Its wonderful how to see how one develops and grows to be the person God has meant that person to be. Through the tide of time, we sometimes grow to be more defensive and some even build walls of distance to create defense to be hurt. But yet, sometimes just coming transparent and true to God is the way to really come to realise that His ways are always higher than our ways. Truly, God is marvelous.
Confusing post, but I just had to write my thoughts down. Feel so much lighter now. Well, now back to my "outward-self" John. Today was the first time of school and it spelt B-O-R-I-N-G. The teachers had the nerves not to come in and teach. I'm cying to learn. Well, but Malaysians will always be Malaysians. Prejudice! Hahahaha. But anyway, I was so dissapointed to find out that my class had a change of Class teacher. Pn. Tan went over to the afternoon session. I really liked her teaching and she was no doubt one of the best teachers. Gonna miss her dearly. Still remembered the incident in which we met her at Pasar Malam and her son had called Jo Lin aunty. Well, today we spend the whole morning just yacking on corny topics. I also had the opportunity to tell Jo Lin she has backslided. Hahaha. But all was good. Good time of bonding. Came home to lunch and soon after my first ever Vocal lessons with Liang Tan. Got to know him for some time now in church. Liang has appeared on Hitz.Tv and Hitz.Fm. He'd just released his debut album "8oz of Soul". Do check him out sometime ;). It was rather akward but I guess it'll all be well soon enough. Had learn quite a bit on singing technics and so on. Would I ever be a singer you ask? Well, to put it this way, if God opens the door, so be it. But if no doors are open, so be it. But truly, I guess I've the privilege of being blessed with such a talent and I'm thankful for it. Gonna use it wisely.
Life is back to its schedule. I have at least something EVERYDAY. Thats sad. I shall not post my daily schedule here for certain purposes but all is good. I'd rather have a full schedule than an empty one fearful of falling for sloppyness if I was too free. But well, Life goes on. Alrighty, taking off now. Take care of yourself people. Love ya'll!
Thinking,
-jOhN "siNgin" LiM-
That took place not long ago
Bout an angel up in heaven
They say You up and ran away from home
Word is You had unfinished business
So back on earth You had to flea
Well you know I'm so elated
Because You're right here next to me
And when God woke up that morning
And he called out her name
And when You did not answer
Heaven will never ever ever be the same
Always dreamed that it would happen
I just didn't know exactly where
All my life I'd been waiting for something amazing
Said it took a while but now I know
So tell me can I get a witness
If you believe in miracles
And the proof I have is living
And my life will never ever be
And your life don't have to be the...
At times it seems we take for granted
How precious life can be
Just hold on and I'm sure you'll understand it
Bringing into this world
A precious miracle...
And when I woke up that morning
Said where has my angel had gone
And when You didn't answer
Heaven will never ever ever be
Its amazing how God places people in our life. Its amazing how He places angels in our lives to guide us through certain seasons of change, trials and tribulations. This post is my expression of thanks to a certain angel that had stepped into my life. No words by far can express my gratitude and thanks for your life. You have certainly pull me out from the mud, clean my wounds and carried my on your shoulders. You were there when no one was there, You were there when all was dark. Its amazing how life holds challenges and obstacles that we're specificly made for each individual. Though sometimes we look and imagine our bigger picture as dark, God has always planned it for good. He had always meant it for good. And I believe He always has a plan for us, a plan to bring us to greater heights and levels of maturity each step of our life. Through the tides of time, You'fe stood by me and made sure I grew to be a strong young man. And today you help me build my house on solid rock. That no wave or storm may tear down the walls that You've help me build in trusting God. It ain't easy to do. Man can give all the necessary advice, support and guidance. But at the end of the road, You're gonna be there all alone. And if it was merely Me alone out there, I guess I'd be carried and swept away by the winds. But You helped me realise to put my trust in God alone and Him alone I shall trust. It has always been comforting to know that I might just have that someone to care for me when I needed that one to trust and lean on when all fails. Though sometimes I took for grantted how precious You've had meant to me, I want to believe in You each time I fail.
But all this only began when I've finally come to realise to accept my past. I have to admit that in my past I've done horrible, horrible and i mean really horrible stuff. But only through self acceptance and forgiveness have I come to known of His love once again. The past is to thank for, and there it shall stay. Behind me. Looking at it now, somehow no more sense of regret or remorse build in me. Letting go of what belongs behind relieves tension and gives a sense of relieve. My life has been filled with so many ups and downs. Well, EVERY life is filled with ups and downs that we are ought to overcome. I'm thankful for the lessons that have come by each day. So am I thankful for the different people he places in my life each step. People that has really held me by the arm to pull me out. People that has kept walking with me even when I was turning back. Truly, life would be meaningless without the latter. No doubt, appreciating my past has brought me where I am today. Each stepping stone has truly brought me to newer heights and levels in my walk with God. It is a never ending walk till we reach eternity with Him.
I'm glad that through the years I've been moving on. Looking back now brings back memories that are vaguely clear. It sparked when Victor came back and suddenly brought memories along. I really thank God I stood up to the challenge to get out of the darkness and rise up to his Glory. It was a tough one when I had no one to hold on to. There was a period of time when I was so confused and lonely and occasionally gave up but yet somehow still got hold of my the plans and hopes that God had for me. Its truly amazing how things unfold each day. That each time we open our eyes, decisions are made and how things just place themselves each step of the day. The mental development of humans is such a mystery and intriguing to me. Its wonderful how to see how one develops and grows to be the person God has meant that person to be. Through the tide of time, we sometimes grow to be more defensive and some even build walls of distance to create defense to be hurt. But yet, sometimes just coming transparent and true to God is the way to really come to realise that His ways are always higher than our ways. Truly, God is marvelous.
Confusing post, but I just had to write my thoughts down. Feel so much lighter now. Well, now back to my "outward-self" John. Today was the first time of school and it spelt B-O-R-I-N-G. The teachers had the nerves not to come in and teach. I'm cying to learn. Well, but Malaysians will always be Malaysians. Prejudice! Hahahaha. But anyway, I was so dissapointed to find out that my class had a change of Class teacher. Pn. Tan went over to the afternoon session. I really liked her teaching and she was no doubt one of the best teachers. Gonna miss her dearly. Still remembered the incident in which we met her at Pasar Malam and her son had called Jo Lin aunty. Well, today we spend the whole morning just yacking on corny topics. I also had the opportunity to tell Jo Lin she has backslided. Hahaha. But all was good. Good time of bonding. Came home to lunch and soon after my first ever Vocal lessons with Liang Tan. Got to know him for some time now in church. Liang has appeared on Hitz.Tv and Hitz.Fm. He'd just released his debut album "8oz of Soul". Do check him out sometime ;). It was rather akward but I guess it'll all be well soon enough. Had learn quite a bit on singing technics and so on. Would I ever be a singer you ask? Well, to put it this way, if God opens the door, so be it. But if no doors are open, so be it. But truly, I guess I've the privilege of being blessed with such a talent and I'm thankful for it. Gonna use it wisely.
Life is back to its schedule. I have at least something EVERYDAY. Thats sad. I shall not post my daily schedule here for certain purposes but all is good. I'd rather have a full schedule than an empty one fearful of falling for sloppyness if I was too free. But well, Life goes on. Alrighty, taking off now. Take care of yourself people. Love ya'll!
Thinking,
-jOhN "siNgin" LiM-
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