Of Earthly Bonds..

Greetings to all readers,

First, I have to pour cold water over your kettle because Paul Moss has NOT replied. It is disappointing. But well, his reply ain't everything. To update you guys a lil on what has been going on, allow me to begin with my exams. Exams started last last Monday and is coming to an end this Monday. To my joy it has been extremely quick that it has ended in a blink of an eye, however it has been a disaster that I had screwed up my Chemistry paper. Chemistry has been a disappointment. Last year I was doing extremely well for Chemistry. I have been getting above 80 last year but this year, I GOT A F***IN C for my Chemistry! Yes, it was the few C's in my life I have every gotten other than DUMBASS ART~. ANYHOW, I screwed up my Chemistry AGAIN, and ironicly, of all sciences, I ENJOY Chemistry the BEST. I least enjoy Physics, but I score the best at it. WTH~. Dunno la. But seriously, I am NOT here to condamn anyone. If you feel insulted that I am frustrated I got a C, please, don't. Its just everyone has different standards and I know I can do better for my chemistry and I have a certain standard I have to live up to especially not to disppoint MYSELF and maybe Pn. Liew (my tuition teacher).
But enough of complaining, other than that, exam has been so much of a relief compared to the Mid Term.

OK, enough of EXAMS, cut the crap and I'm going to the cheesy details on John's Life now.

WARNING! EMO Post ahead!

Went for the movies tonight with Dear Benjoz and Ernie. Picked them up and left for 1U to catch You, Me and Dupree. I have to say it is an especially entertaining movie. I shall not spoil the movie for you here, but I'm just highlighting the gist of the movie. Unlike any other movies that promote sex, violence, horror and romance, this one was particularly special. What stood out to me most was Friendship.

Yeap, You bet it, Friendship. How many out there can say now that "You have a Real Best Friend". The way Carl and Dupree placed friendship in their life was such an envy to me. I really don't know why. I think I have been through this before previously on other posts. But such a loneliness shadowed my heart as we journied back.I just felt all alone in this big world.

I'm going to be very honest right now. I warn you, some of my remarks might be selfish, rude, childish, senseless, brave, ironic and silly but I am who I am.

I don't know about you, but I don't think I ever had someone that liked me as much as I liked that person. Note: All "like" words used from now on is not related to romantic likes but friendship "likes" ok? I dunno. Its like everything I note someone that probably things might go well with the both of us, somehow it always seem I'd be the one pushing for the friendship. It always feels like I am clapping my own hands and the other person is just not getting the hint that I'm interested to go forth with our friendship. Friendship requires trust, faith and honesty. It is selfish of me to say that sometimes I just want a return of the care and concern I pour out for the person but am I wrong? Am I wrong to say that everytime I share a secret of mine I quietly want you to share yours along with me? Am I wrong to say that everytime I cycle to your house, quietly, I would love you to surprise me as well? Am I wrong to say that everytime I "manja" with you, I secretly want you to "manja" back with me? I don't know if you're getting me here but, I just want something back in return. I just want acceptance, love, care and concern not in an extravagent way, but just in a still small ways, I see through it. I really do. I see through the small deeds, short messages, sincere smiles, corky teasing, light taps,wink of an eye. I see all these actions. Call me Homo or sensitive, I LIKE THE WAY I AM. I read people's actions and the slightest gestures and expressions will be analysed and evaluated by my neurons. I just can't help it. From the dinasaur days that I can remember, I have been evaluating the people around me. Weird? Well, I like it.

Ever wonder if anyone thinks about you? For my side, I think alot about people. I think alot about the people around me and especially the friends I like. I just wonder how they are doing or what they are doing sometimes. But somehow, I always feel, or know that maybe just no one does the same for me. I don't know why. Its dumb la, its like I "want" people to think about me like that, but when you just like someone, you will just naturally think about the person and I do think about the people I like. But somehow I just feel no one like me like I how I like them. Strong remark here but its true. Thats how I feel SOMETIMES.

I have been rather transparent tonight. I just like people to know the real me. No fakes, no lies. Just Me, John Lim Boon Oon. So now, whad'ya feel? I just feel like getting feedback. Are you like me? Or do you despise this post? Tag them on the Tag Board ;)

It has rather been an Emo night but well, we all go through our ups and downs right? ;) Its just my night. Leave ya with the lyrics of a song that I can relate to right now. 2 cents for those that can identify the song ;)

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know?'

Cause nothing's going right

And everything’s a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I...

I'm with youI'm with you

So anyone wants to be John's BestFriend now? :P

Signing off,

-jOhN "thinking" LiM-

Of One In A Million and My mail to Paul Moss..

Hey avid readers!

Considering how close my trials are, I was still watching One In A Million on Friday night. I had to take time off since tonight there was no cell so I had to see how was its progress and the standard of Malaysia. I was pleasently surprise by the determination I see. Though the quality ain't up to expectation but you have to admit, Malaysia is nuts to Americaphant. Anyway, I have to say Suki is an excellent singer. Really. Do take notice of her ;) Mark my words. I have ears (oh, so do You :P). Anyway, I was rather, how do I put it, errrr offended by Paul's remarks tonight. He was rather strong and frustrated by his remarks to the contestants. Almost all of them got slammed hard on the face. Really, he just threw rotten pizza at each contestant one after another and it got worst with smelly cheese on it. Well, anyway, it was entertaining seing Syafinaz fight with Paul. Really, I don't know what is his problem. He was ok last year with Malaysian Idol. But he got worst this year with OIAM. Probably he can't spend his precious Friday's at Zouk or so. But he was rude. And thats why i came up with a brilliant idea of writting Mr Paul a mail ;) Berikutnya adalah isi isi yang saya kupas daripadanya. Happy reading :-

Dear Paul Moss,

First of all I must thank you for making time to read this mail. My name is John Lim and I am a 17 year old guy from PJ. To cut the crap, I had tune in to 8TV just last night to see how One In A Million(OIAM) was progressing. It was interesting to see how the contestants have grown through each week. I have to admit I am not an avid view of OIAM every week because of circumstances however I have to say the contestants have certainly show determination and effort in their singing and performances each progressing week.

However, my main point of this mail is to politely highlight what I see as what is coming through in my screen regarding YOUR comments. It is rather transparent to see that you have shown much frustration in their performances. However I feel that it is taking a toll on the contestants. Yes, they ARE suppose to take the pressure and it is not an excuse and so on so forth because the industry is as such but your critiques have somehow come across as a Projection of Your frustration and anger. That is however, MY opinion of your comments. Probably it maybe be caused by stress, or personal reasons but if for any reason what I say is correct to a certain degree, I really do hope for your criticism to be more of Positive and Constructive criticism. Really, they do need encouragement and support too and especially from someone as such as You with some air-time included.

I honestly do not want to come across as correcting you or what-so-ever in any way because I am in no position but somehow I felt compelled to write this mail to you to address this issue. I respect you as a person and do agree with most of your comments however it need not come across as anger or such but encouragement and guidance from someone as experienced as you.
I do hope I have not offended you in anyway but at least caused you to ponder for a moment on my comments. I really do just want to help :) Please to address you, sir ;)

Yours Truly,
John Lim

(this mail is TOO modest :P)


That was my mail to him ;). I WILL POST the reply, IF he ever reads it~ I bet he gets at least 50 hate mails a week~ Hahahaha... Oh, and all the best for trials SPMers!!!...

A little update, Trials from 4th to 18th ;) Wish me all the best? HAHAHHA.. Muaxy people! Now back to the books!!

Emmanuel,
-jOhN "studying" LiM-