One Last Chance - James Morrison

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before
Some people say that i'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never and
I'll try to remember who i used to be
I've got one last chance to get myself together
The time has come for me to change again

I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me.
Just give me the time and space to heal my head
I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good



This is sooo for me :P

This Boy

Dedicated to the Boy that has grown up.

- Officially Closing the Door to my Heart -

Call it Vow, Promise, whatever~ Its signed with the blood in my heart.
Goodbye, Heart. Its better left untouched then touched.

I'll see what I want to see

I'll be what I want to be

And I know, I can be.



-jOhN "this boy" LiM-

Yet again Life unfolds another Dark Chapter. Here goes.
Tell me now, is it human nature to move on to another when things get bad with the current one? Or is it just me?

I'm hurting inside. I need a cure.

Speak. Say. Tell.

When will I ever reach Moksha? Mum says I'm finding my identity. Internal conflicts.
Its like, I know who I am, but I'm rejecting it, but I'm accepting it.
I like who I am, but at the same time I'm hating it too.

They say peace is not the ultimate goal of mankind. There is always going to be a trade-off somewhere. Its impossible if Claire's blood is gonna heal all humanity. Man will take like and health forgranted. So what if the weapons of mass destruction were destroyed? So what if Israel gave up their land? So what if Bush waved the white flag? So what if Hindraf gets their RM1million per Indian their claiming? SO WHAT!

When will mankind ever be satisfied? And so what if you're satisfied with where you are? Then you'll never progress! You'll be stuck all useless and roting right at your shell. I've seen numerous people, with great attitudes but they lacked the hunger, the hunger to progress, and soon after get left behind. Donald Trump would have fired you a long time ago. Wait, I take that back. He wouldn't even have hired you.

Balance you say? I guess that will just cause dissatisfaction then. You'll never be at your highest potential of happiness. There needs to be some level of equilibrium or balance. But then again, we will always want to maximize our pie. But isn't the sky our limit? Wait, then there's no pie.

Have I lost you there? Identity. Thats what I need. A clear cut. But I know I will never get one. Have I just got tired of the masks? Or have I got confused with which mask to wear everytime I went out?

The human behaviour disgust me but intrigues me at the same time. Dissonance they call it.

Good/Evil, Hate/Love, Peaceful/Havoc, John/John.

-jOhN "yet another piece of his useless mind" LiM-

I've decided! I'll go with JAZZ!! Woohoo!

Was over at Bangkok Jazz tonight and was blown away. It was featuring some bass player that just came back from Berkeley with his Japanese gf on the keys. She was beyond awesome, nothing like I've heard before! Apparently she is Beyonce's keyboardist. Ahhh Heaven!

Was just enjoying myself listenin to the lead singer when someone walked passed me to go to the toilet. My friend went like, "Eh, thats Sheila Majid~".. Like wth man.. She was there to observe too. Ahhh.. Jazz my love, friend, baby, sweetheart! I'll never let you go! Don't ever let me go!

Desperately seeking for HUGE leap in improvement and inspiration. Gonna write some pieces after exam. I PROMISE! (=

For now, STUDYYYYY!! :'(

-jOhN "humming" LiM-

BlackMeOut

Woohooo. Britney's Blackout puts me in a trance man. Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttt.

Now going back and forth betwee getting Stacey Kent's new swing album, or Diana Krall's Greatest Jazz Hits or Britney's HEAD BANGING Blackout.

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Impermanent they say..

Yeah, Finals are drawing near, like a week plus away? Final speech is next week. Final World Religion presentation is next week too. Last Statistic test is next week. WTH! Oh boy. Drowning myself in college now. I would have to admit this semester has been a rather interesting one. I had made even more friends. Got to know a few people a little better. Got myself involved in the Buddy Program, tought PASS 093, business plan competition, and I'm even gonna MC for the graduation ceremony for ADP this Fall, though its an irony, it actually might be my last semester myself. Life just has its funny plans for us.

Yeah, I've not decided where I'll go for Uni. Not even sure when I'll leave. Not even sure what major I wanna stick to. Decisions. Taking it one step at a time.

Just waved goodbye to a new found Brunei friend recently.

I was inspired by him to go over to Brunei for a visit. And I might just, if this is my last semester in ADP. Pop by in January, and maybe even drop by Miri to visit Moses. Wait, Moses should have been back here in Subang. Damn. I'll still pop by Miri and then fly over to Mulu Caves! Its freaking awesome! And I'm getting excited over my plans. Travelling! Woohoo! Probably I can drag Sam (Brunei Boy) along on this adventure.

Counting down till holidays in December. Though its gonna be freaking short, I'm gonna make the most out of it and stay out of drama.

2007. I don't even know if I like ya or not. Gonna do some reflection post in some mid-Dec. Till then, I'll just live as I am. Cheers to better days. Looking forward to Huge House Party tomorrow at Sze Ming's place >.<>

-jOhN "needs to leave" LiM-

ps: Yee En, I read your blog =)

When I woke up,
It all became clear. What I really meant to you.

When I slept,
My dreams came true.

When I woke up,
It all became blur. The things you said to me.

When I slept,
My fears vanished.

When I woke up,
It all seemed to work out. The past and the future.

When I slept,
My insecurities proved to be a nuisance; again.

When I woke up,
I was dreaming.
When I slept,
I was awake.

Think. Think. And think again. Ignorance really is bliss.

-jOhN "flying" LiM-

You made me realise the meaning to life again.

You made me smile even when it was dark.

You made me laugh at every serious moment we had together.

You made me cry in joy.

You made rock music sound like sweet jazz.

You made love look like chocolate pies with peanut butter jelly all over it.

You made me feel like I was meant to live for you.

You made the whole world light up.

You made cherry blossom trees blossom even when it was winter.

You made the raging seas cuddle up in your arms.

You made the bed warm.

You made me press the toothpaste from the bottom.

You made me overcooked pancake breakfasts that tasted disgusting.

You made me call you even when I only had 50 cents of left of credit.

You made my eyes light up everytime we met .

You made me appreciate the gift of life again.

You, are not real. Sigh.

Ever watched Hereos?

Ever wished you had an ability?

Well, I finally discovered mine.

I have the ability to see the worst of things and screw the best memories and moments in my life and of the lives of the people around me.

Incredible? Its a gift, thank you.

-jOhN "screws you" LiM-

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Allow these pictures express the thousand words I have to say.

Hope. Singing in the rain. Wee small hours of the morning. What a difference a day makes. Put the blame on me. Apologize. I'll stand by You [recommended listening].

Taking baby steps back. H m. J s y h m. I a s. R s. B i g t w n t b t. I L Y. F m? I w f m. Y w j u. A p.

The less words, the better. I hate blog/msn communicating.

-jOhN "away" LiM-

Not much words, but today was an interesting day. Had to sit for the SAT examination in the morning. Mind you, it was a 4 hour paper. Sigh. Hopefully all will turn out well :P

Got down to business in the evening when I got over to Dee's place for make-up for ADP HALLOWEEN.. Will just let the pics do the talkin. Had a good time TRYING to dress up. i was SOOO underdressed :P But good effort ADP-ians. I'm impressed :)

Oh.. Mind the new hair-do :) Change is good. Till then, let Love reign.

-jOhN "halloween" LiM-