This is really IT.

I won't be blogging for sometime now, because first of all, I won't be going down with a laptop, and secondly, due to the constrain of my contract, I am unable to blog about SIA or any of its happenings. Yes. But don't worry, I'll try my very best to include "sceneries" as much as I can when I start flying.

Again, I MUST apologize for the rush in leaving. Really, I didn't expect it to be so soon either. It was on such short notice, and before I know it, I had my finals and now I'm off. I'm so sorry to the people that I didn't have the chance to meet up or to even inform. But I am in open arms to welcome you if you ever come by the little isle of Singapore.

Now, let us see how life with unfold itself. With these little baby steps forward, I step into the world of reality and strife. With perserverence I shall succeed.

To the fearful, stand up!
To the meek, voice out!
To the shy, step up!
To the defeated, look up!
To the fallen, BELIEVE!

Farewell my fellow friends. My best wishes. May you keep your eyes on the GOAL you have set, may you stay focused and strong. May I be steadfast to stand the winds of change.

God, please bless my friends (=

-jOhN "fly away with me" LiM-

Yeah, the cats out of the bag...

Here's how the story goes, Yes, John Lim is leaving Malaysia for good this Monday.

First of all, I must say farewell to my fellow friends here in KL. Really, it is to my greatest regret that I am unable to meet a number of you due to time contrains. I just ended my finals today and I'm flying off this Monday. So, as you can count, I don't have much time to pack, get ready, and meet everyone. Forgive me. But on the lighter note, you can come down to Singapore and have a cup of tea with me!

Yes, Singapore. Why? Well, John Lim is going to be a Flight Steward with SIA for the next 2 years. Yes. You heard right, Flight steward, Flight attendant, Cabin Crew (coffee or tea sir?).

To keep it short and simple, due to financial contrains, I am putting my studies on hold to pursue this. Simple as that. But do not fear, cum 2 years from now, John will be over in the states continue what he has left. So in other words, it is a win-win situation. Travel + Study = Fun!

Well, I'm really looking forward to this experience. I shan't explain much, but if we have to opprtunity to speak personally to you, I would love to. But I shall leave this as it is now.

But hey, on the bright side, its JUST Singapore (dang it!) Hahahaha..

Farewell my dear Malaysianites!

Wherever life may take You,
It shall never break You.
Each precious stone,
Each growing experience will never fail You.
Grow from each,
And reach beyond the skies.

Cheers to the unconventional and unexpected.

-jOhN "bids farewell" LiM-

ps: sorry for the minor shock.

This is Good. Impressive. Stumbled across this site. Take a look, and probably even drop a prayer. ^^)

www.dear-god.net

at the same time, You'd have time to hear this... hahahahaha.. Sorry, I just have to...

Enjoy :)

-jOhN "somewhere over the rainbow" LiM-

If you thought his performance was phenomenal, this is beyond this world.
I'm split between the Davids.

The Davids are the Goliaths in this game. Don't play play ;)

A Must!... Pretty please? :) If you're familiar with the Mariah version, this is an absolute 756 degree turn.




^^)

American Idol is sure my marijuana.

-jOhN "high" LiM-

If I'd knew every word that could describe You,

I wouldn't dare to try to describe You,

Because You are beyond any word or adjective

You are just You

But the question is, where are YOU?

Howdy ghost readers :)

I hope the week is doing fine for ya. I'm trying to keep up with my mind. Its been messing with me, as usual. Finals is just around the corner, then I'm officially free from ADP. Yes dudes and dudettes, it is my final semester in Taylor's ADP and I'm moving on. To where you ask? To my next stage in Life. The future really seems unclear at this point of view however I do believe that things will sort themselves in due time.

You know, I need a sign man.. Like, am I the only one that thinks excessively? That over think things and scrutinize every part of life? Well, or should I just say am I the only one that sees the darkness I everything? I'm gonna lay rest these few words here tonight. Doesn't seem to give a right picture of me. But then again, this is a part of me. Urgh right back to confusion. That's me :)

-jOhN "<3">

Quotes worth the read, compliments of Juno

"Loving you when you're in a good mood, bad mood
Loving you when you're ugly, pretty, handsome
Loving you for exactly who You are
The right person is still gonna think the sunshine is out your ass"
-Juno's Dad-

"Your part time lover and a full time friend,

The monkey on the back is the latest trend,

Don't see what anyone can see,

In anyone else, But you

Here is a church and here is a steeple,

We sure are cute for two ugly people,

Don't see what anyone can see,

In anyone else, But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage,

I want more fans, you want more stage,

Don't see what anyone can see,

In anyone else, But you"

-Juno & Juno's Love-

"I think I'm in Love with You... For real..
Cause you're like the coolest person I've ever met and you don't even have to try..."
-Juno-

Being apart from You just breaks ever string in my soul.

You're the Last person I want to kiss goodnight and first person I want to see in the morning.

I will wait. For the day, I see eye to eye with You.

It is sure worth the wait. For You.

I miss you like shit.

-jOhN "JLL" LiM-

Castro leads the pack tonight. Extremely impressive. Everyone in the pack is so diversified and special in their own way (with the exception of Kristy Lee Cook of course!). Its gonna be hard letting go of them after Kristy leaves... Her time is up.

On another note, life has been, life. Exams are in 2 weeks then, life and it's mysteries will unvail itself. We'll wait and see for now.

Probably might lockdown this bloggy soon d. And start some mysterious blog somewhere else anonymously. It has been on my mind for sometime now. Just writting to thin air, expressing random thoughts and feelings. Its a good way of releasing hidden thoughts and the unconscious mind.

Till then, enjoy every crisp of John Lim you have now (though I'm sure you're not really loving it anymore). Toodles lovely people of the world.

-jOhN "dreaming" LiM-

Don't you try to wake me up.
I'm trying to dream out loud.
I really can't seem to see and feel it anymore.
I can't find a puzzle to fit a piece of me.

A piece to lend an ear to, Dreaming Out Loud - OneRepublic.
It makes so much sense.

-jOhN "dreamin out loud" LiM-

OMG. If you know me, I had never liked rock. Never.
But Mr. Cook sure knows how to cook something up.

Kudos, David Cook, kudos. Very impressive. Top gunner in the game.
Archuleta better pick it up before I throw him out the window~

"In everything you do, seek wise council."



Thank You. Really, thank you. Never would I have seen that part of the whole picture. You have opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at things.



At the end of the day, its not what I will do, but why. The reasons behind it, the motive, the primary objective, the driving force.



I have to get some things right. Time to face reality. Time to look deep into my intentions. Its time.



-jOhN "thinking, again" LiM-



its times like this, i'd wish you were beside me to guide me
its times like this, i'd wish you were here to be my wings
its times like this, i'd wish you were my sun to shine
its times like this, i'd wish you were my comfort to fall on
its times like this, i'd wish you were here to laugh with me and at me
its times like this, i'd wish you were my right decision.

I know, that all things will work out for the good. Soon, somehow, someday I will understand. Thank you.

A critical turn in a critical point of my life.

An interesting twist to my life's story.

A change I'd never expected.

But as I welcome change, I pray happiness and fulfillment will trail on.

My friends, soon, I shall bid farewell. Seriously.

I'm feeling sick and hopeless,

Down and depressed,

Lost and dumbfound,

At the end of the road.

When will I see the light again,

When will I see truth again,

It seems like life brings no meaning anymore,

No, life means nothing anymore,

Where has it all gone to,

Disappointed and dismayed,

Disturbed and destroyed,

Here I am tonight, at the brink of compulsion,

Here I am tonight in tears, crying out for what I don't understand,

Here I am tonight, shattered,

I am tired. Really tired. I need a negotiation.

I need a persuasion. I need affirmation.

I need a solution.

I need help.

I am drained as I wait. When will a ray of light seep into all these darkness around me? I need my weekly dosage of morphine again. Sigh. Need endophines. Need Happy placebos. Need cure to this sickness. Need solution to the problem. Need an end to it all.
Death seems so tempting right now~
-jOhN "drained" LiM-

A tribute? Naaaa.. This is R-E-S-P-E-C-T man!! Presenting David Archuleta, and yes, I DARE say the next American Idol.. Yeap. Hahahahaha!! I am SOOO impressed with this guy here. Really. I mean, I have to be honest that I wasn't all too hyped up about his OVER-exposure and Over-Ratings about him until I heard him for myself tonight. And yes, he's THAT good baby! That good till I am actually blogging about him! Hahahahaha. He has a few SUPERBLY IMPRESSIVE videos on YouTube. Well, I shall not put tooo high expectaions for you, but HE IS THAT GOOD! Cool down John, cool down.. hahahaha!! Check him our yourself ;)

Yes, he even sang for Kelly when he was 10!!! He'd probably bumped into the Season 1 contestants and just sang for them. Gawd, he blew me away too! Hahaha. Thats him when he was 10 dudes! Its American Idol 7 now!! Like 7 man!. hahahahaha.

Oh well, American Idol is every Wed n Thurs n results on Fri, soon, it'll be Wed n reuslts on Thurs. yes, Hardcore american idol fan here! Hahahaha.. Woohoo! Cheers to more!.. Updates on Perth trip soon.. Till then, I've been really tryin to catch up with work i missed when I was in perth. But it has been good ;) Mum says Morphine makes people happy. Hahaha.. I'm misquoting her, but, I'm looking for someone or something to be my morphine now. And yes, American Idol has given me my weekly dosage ;P

-jOhN "Archuleta!!!" LiM-

This was from Tonight!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~

I'd never imagine in my life to have met another person like You.

Forever, shall You stay deep rooted in my memories.

Its people like You that make the world seem like a place worth living.

Farewell my friend, my Friend.

-jOhN "bids" LiM-

Tonight. 4. Good.

Leavin on a jet plane. Ciaozos. Summer breeze, here I come. Osi Osi Osi, Ooi Ooi Ooi.

-jOhN "leaves" LiM-

PS: I've not left to study in Perth la, I'm just here for a holiday. HAHA.

I pray as life attracts more questions, may I see them not as "Why?!" but as "Why not?"

[= Peace be with each of you as life takes us on new journeys with each passing day.

Farewell to kids leaving for the land down under. May life have mercy on you :P
I shall rest my head now for I leave for Perth in 2 days.

-jOhN "kisses goodbye" LiM-

Moments from the past.

One too many times I have thought of the times I could have lash out all I felt on this insignificant little site, and one too many times have I harmed myself in that way.

With John's little birthday behind him and with chinese new year celebrations, it has grown to prove that love does still exist in the air. Pain blinds us with almost the darkest of time, just almost, but if you dare look into the beeming light that seeps through, then you are sure to find the joy you have been seeking.

With more observations done throughout the days, human kind has remained ever disgusting. But hope lives. At least I choose to see it. Believing in the good that is vaguely disguised in hatred and betrayal. Have you ever wondered how'd it be like to live a life of another? So many times, so many times.

Questions then raised, would it really be all we want? Peace with all humanity? Is it what we really wish for? Good in every soul and kindness that bleaks with every helping hand? Would it be perfect? Call it Nirvana, heaven, bliss, moksha... Is that all we seek for?

I hate. Yes, I dislike. Yes, we all face displeasure. But at what level does it change? Why does discomfort disturb us? Why is discomfort discomfort? Is it a choice? Or do we just place ourselves in such positions?

Our mind is one powerful tool. Known psychoanalyst, Sigmund Freud made known to the world in his "Iceberg" theory that the human mind was essentially likea iceber, with four-fifths of it below the surface. It was then said that we are only aware of a small part of our mind and that most important psychological processes which motivate our behavior that drive our emotions were unconscious in nautre. I wonder what lays beneath my mind.

Our mind, rational in its nature is a very dangerous "object" to trust. Ok, well, I shouldn't proclaim such a statement but I shall suggest as such. Our mind in it's nature comes to interpret as it likes. Hard to put down in words, but in simple terms, our mind plays tricks with us. Blinding us from certain "truths". But then again, what is the MIND? If what you are thinking now is pointing at your head, you're wrong, thats your brain my dear. Where is your MIND? Intangible. Unable to grasp. Makes me think of intangible assets~ Hahaha.. Brand? Patent? Or character? :P The Hindus somehow discovered early that all is Maya, or a dream. I ask again, Are we dreaming of the Butterfly or does the Butterfly that dreams of us? Senseless senses.

Where did all began? If only man could get to the core source. What is beyond that nucleon? Is there anything more simple? Is that the way man discover? With chemistry, we dugged into the atoms, with physics, we dugged into matter, with biology, we dugged into cells..... With the meaning to life, where do we look into? Ourselves? Do we hold the answer to that question?

I like this particular quote by Einstein, "GOD DOES NOT PLAY DICE WITH THE UNIVERSE". So tell me God, got my number already?

On a lighter note, Birthday was simple, Chinese New Year was good, still going on strong, and leaving for Perth in a few days to only be back errr.. in... errr... many days time? Gone la, cannot attend class.. >.<>

Rest well my most appreciated friends. Look forward to the games the world have for you ahead =P Cheers!

-jOhN "vague" LiM"

"Tears Dry On Their Own"

All I can ever be to you,

Is a darkness that we knew,

And this regret I had to get accustomed to,

Once it was so right,

When we were at our high,

Waiting for you in the hotel at night,

I knew I hadn't met my match,

But every moment we could snatch,

I don't know why I got so attached,

It's my responsibility,

And you don't owe nothing to me,

But to walk away I have no capacity

He walks away,

The sun goes down,

He takes the day but I'm grown,

And in this grey,

in this blue shade

My tears dry on their own,

I don't understand,

Why do I stress A man,

When there's so many better things at hand,

We could a never had it all,

We had to hit a wall,

So this is inevitable withdrawal,

Even if I stop wanting you,

A Perspective pushes through,

I'll be some next man's other woman soon,

I shouldn't play myself again,

I should just be my own best friend,

Not f*** myself in the head with stupid men,

So we are history,

YOUR shadow covers me

The sky above,

A blaze only that lovers see

I wish I could say no regrets,

And no emotional debts,

Cos' as we kiss goodbye the sun sets,

So we are history,

The shadow covers me,

The sky above a blaze that only lovers see,

He walks away,

The sun goes down,

He takes the day but I'm grown,

And in your grey,

My deep shade,

My tears dry

Now its Back to Black. Then from there, to Rehab with Me and Mr.Jones. To wonder if Will you still Love me Tomorrow. You go Amy. Beautiful pieces by the blonde lady now.

Life's adventures and it's turns. Tonight, tomorrow, the day after, the day ahead, the months ahead, the following year, the next leap year, the future. What can my little mind comprehand? I'm overwhelmed by feelings of distraught. Maybe. In the future.

On a lower note, I bid farewell to a very dear friend that had left without notice. Such little time but such joyous experiences. It may be our last time meeting till years ahead. As you carry out the dream that is steadfast in your heart, I pray that you carry along the same passion that I saw, day in and day out. Such lightness is much needed in the world today. You lifted my frowns whenever it turned sower, You didn't really light my path, but You walked along. You didn't carry my cross, but You cheered me on. You didn't shield me from the arrows, but You plucked them of me, each that hurt. I'm gonna keep they rest for the mailed letter which I was unable to handover at the apparent airport trip (gah~). Its to good times that we cheer at. Fare well my dear friend, farewell.

To this note, I conclude my whine. To Ms Winehouse I shall lend my ears to.

-jOhN "my tears dry on their own" LiM-

Blind the eyes that see only tears.
Close the ears that hears only curse.
Silence the lips that speak only of defeat.
Punish the mind that hovers over death.
But look only to the one that grants hope.
Hear only words of the wise.
Speak life to another.
And dream of great dreams and thoughts.

Cheers to the challenges ahead, and the acquaintances to be made.

Bless my choices, Lord.
Guide my hand and life to the way you had pathed it to be.

Ironically enough, last year, I was "noble" enough to tell God, "Dude [God], I'm gonna include you in my plans" but somehow or rather, a few things just messed up, bad.
But this year, spirit-led, John is compelled to announce his new resolution, "Dude [God], this year, You're gonna include me in Your plan ;)". To this, I toast to a interesting year ahead. Plans may not be as I want it, but at least I know, I've given someone with great wisdom, the key to my life.

Now, allow the gentle sound of music and tapping of piano keys strike the chords of life as sadness and sorrow flow away as each tune perfectly pitched to the sound of harps and violas play. May it heal your soul.

Lighten up and see, that you are only but a speck, insignificant, but extremely significant only to His eyes. To You, all things be perfect.

-jOhN "embarks" LiM-