Of Hardwork!..

Boo!!

Whoa, its been long since I wrote down here. Here goes.. First week of school after the hols is over. Time really fly when you are busy. Back to routines. Results are all back. Ok, to say I didn't do too well is not fair cause my percentage certainly improved but everyone improved tremendously too. Seriously. Mad class. One thing I am so glad about is like my classmates are so determined to do well with an exception of some, e.g. Sarak. Wahaha!.. Jk Jk. But you can certainly feel the vibes of hardwork and determination even as SPM creeps towards us. I can certainly say the quality of students in Bunga Raya is phenomenal. I really thought the students in Wendy's year were fantastic but now I can say the students in MY year is so much better. Wahahahah!!... Ish, anyway, hahaha.. I'm glad for my class la. You rock!!! :P Will try to post some pics of them here when I can.

Meanwhile, everything is alright with me. Still the same John that is struggling to juggle with his time and commitments. Oh by the way, DID YOU KNOW, Ms. Haruka Yamashita is staying over from the 11th August till19th August!!.. YES, you got it right, an exchange JAPANESE FEMALE student! Wakakakaka.. I'm so excited! I can't wait for my turn! I'm really looking forward to spending my December, Christmas and New Year's there!Its gonna be an experience of a lifetime. Though I will miss prom and probably some year end outing with my friends, I guess Japan and probably a new iPod will cover the grief.

Enough of me, now how about You? ;)

-jOhN "mushi mushi" LiM-

Measure of a Man..

Ok, for you perverts out there, nope its not the measure of your manlihood. But what is the measure of a man? What is the measure when one turns into a Man. Times have changed and I have been really feeling certain pressures in my life. Yes, what so special? Everyone too has been feeling the same. But let's just put it this way that I'm not handling it too well. Of all years, it has to happen this year. Questions I have been asking myself, questions I have been asking God, questions I have been asked, questions I want to ask, answers I want to know.

I have been a lie, I have been a fake, I have been putting a mask, a mask of which no one has ever seen through. It hurts me to lie to everyone around me, to smile everyday knowing deep down a frown is rooted in my heart. How has this got to me you ask? SIN. Thats the only answer. Sin that is repeated over and over again. Sin that has been always creeping around the corners. Sin that has not been gotten rid of. Sometimes I ponder, is God really trying to help me at this stage I am. Probably He is gracious enough to allow me to choose my path at this point. He is allowing me to think back on all I have done, on all I have said and really make a choice, whether I am for Him or not. But you know what, I'm Not sure.

How is it possible for one as such as me to really be shaken? Yes, it is possible. I've said, I'm not what I appear to be. But we're barely scratching the surface. Butterflies are free to fly, but how'd I wished I'd be able to free myself and fly away now. Is there just some place far away, away from it all that I can run away from to get away from this mess. I've got myself in this situation where not only I compromised my faith, but all I believe in and my stands, my character is all being waivered. It has to stop. But I'm helpless. I feel as if God has turned His face away. But yet I know He wouldn't but somehow I can't believe it. Its funny I have all the answers and solutions but yet I refuse to act on it.

Do you believe the saying that You are what You are INSIDE? That is, if you are good inside you'll appear good outside and if your all rotten inside, you'll be vulgar outside? I totally disbelief that statement. Really, through the years I have somehow successfully hide the dark in me. And the effects are slowly surfacing, suffering from post-sin.

Hahaha.. Sorry for such a crazy post. One of John's mood swings. Its funny how human kind behave. Well, allow me some time to just soak in this and hopefully I might get out of it. I feel so weak and helpless right now in this. Oh where should I turn to?..... I turn my eyes to the hills and there my help comes from................

-jOhN-

After it all.. ermz.. actually got another boal the other side wan.. Alot of food la.. 

Our steamboat 

Aunty Ee Jin 

Of Katharine, Exams and Outing!..

Wassup faithful readers!!!

First, forgive me for neglecting my site.. It has certainly been some time since I wrote something. Well, exams for a start has just ended today and I'm so glad on one hand but on the other hand, the results are nothing to be rejoiced for.

Let me start first with my discussion on Katharine McPhee. Simply gorgeous, sexy, stunning, superb, and fantastic. She has been so consistant with her performances and she just has a wonderful voice. I have to admit I really expected Chris and Katharine to battle it out at the finals. It was really unexpected. But well, Taylor.. I really can't say much. Its either you Really Love him and just fully impressed by his performances or you just can't stand him and one for me, I CAN'T stand him. But he has a higher possibility of winning this. We will just wait and see during the finals. Katharine will not and cannot screw this up. Gonna get my God-Bro at US to vote for me.. Hahaha.. I was just sucked into space when she sang Somewhere Over the Rainbow last Wednesday. It was perfect. Never ever heard someone sang that perfectly with full of feeling and expression. Love her totally. Another thing I was really moved by was the number of supporters that turned up for Taylor and Elliot during their visit back at their homes. Crazy! The thousands just "worshiping" them. Just magnificent. I also want like dat!!.. Hahaha.. Can't wait for American Idol on Wednesday!

Alright, now back to the serious stuff. Exams. Gosh, this has been the worst ever in my life. Things just weren't going well all through out my exams. Really, I couldn't sleep the first and second week. My nose gave me problems on the third week. But those were just excuses. The real reason I guess why I totally really seriously WON'T do well this term is the LACK OF PREPARATION and PROCRASTINATION! Really, I just feel like I'm having a emotional, physical and spiritual meltdown. Somehow its all intertwined. Having emotional and physical meltdowns will somehow cause the lack of communication and devotion to God, thus affecting myself spiritually. Really, sometimes I just feel so down, lost, sad, disappointed, like a failure, losing hope, giving up my dreams and the list goes on. I can choose to dwell on these feelings or not. But somehow its so easy to fall into these feelings. Really, for this week, I got back my Physics and Sejarah results. Ok, everyone has their own standards and goals and for me, I should get an A1 for my physics but I screwed up my Paper 1 and ended up coming out with an A2. For History? Gosh~~~ Everyone in my class is gonna get an A1 or A2 but my hopes for a B3 might not evern be there. I really should retain and get back my B3 at least. Crazy people. My add math? ARGH!!!!!!! I've always scored A1 for my Add math for the past year.. But this term?... A B3 seems impossible. Probably some of you right now might be shaking your head in disbelief how ungrateful and pethetic I am, but everyone has their standards and goals and these were my goals, CRUSHED. Really, I am planning to apply for a scholarship with HELP with the results this term but considering my marks.... "dot dot dot".... I really wanna rely on God, but I really don't know how to!?! Help me!?!! Need stress management classes!!!

Alrighty, as I was saying, today was the last day of my exams. My parents had left this morning at 5 am to Vietnam for a Mission's Trip. So I have the privilege to drive to school to school everyday and to tuition for the whole week. So I drove to school in the morning and we left after school for lunch with a few friends. After I got back I decided to go out to 1Utama with Ee Jin, Chupsy, Xue Rou, Sarny, Jinny, Jo Lin, Eric and Wei Wen. It was a CRAZY 7 HOURS!.. We did not watch any movies although we planned to watch Da Vinci but it was too full. So we just ate dinner some Korean Barbeque place la(correct me if I'm wrong). It was just a crazy whacko role playing crap talking, laughin and foreign stares time. Really enjoyed it dudes ;). After that we hanged around shopped a bit here and there and soon after we left for Ee Jin's place and had another whacko crazy role playing session there amidst the house tour we got. All in all, I really want to write in detailed but I'm too tired la. Need my rest now.

So you take care ya people. Wil write on something a little more thought provocating one of these days. Love ya'll!!

-jOhN "Mun Onn" LiM-

Of The Da Vinci's Code..

Wassup ya'll!!

Well, as you've all found out, I've bought myself some books to read recently and I had included the Da Vinci's Code in my library. I bought it on Saturday night and guess what, I'm done reading it already! Weee.. I cannot deny it is a good book. Really, the thrills and adventure really sends your pulse beating faster and faster as each page turns. On the other hand I have to warn that this book is not for the faint of faith. Christians with no strong foundation will question their own faith and non-Christians will definately be convinced that Christianity is a fraud. Well, as the world now is heated up with this debate, I really do caution everyone who is interested and curious of what this whole thing is about. Not all facts are factual. Not everything you see or read is believable, so really, if you don't read with this in mind, you'd be shakened.

I was so hooked on the book. Its crazy. The adrenaline rush and mind boggling mysteries. I actually put my studies on hold despite my mid-term exams starting this Thursday(GOSH!). I really can't wait for the movie and how cleverly they would stitch it all together. There are many twist to the stories and Brown has ingeniously infuse historical legends/myths to come out with such genuine questions. You have to read it for yourself to be surprised. But likewise again I warn that you need not believe it all. Really, if it was all true, he wouldn't have catogorize it as Fiction. Though many statements may bring you to some conclusion of profanity, keep in mind that its all just a story after all. But I really am lookin forward to visiting the Museums he had mentioned in France and London. This book has really gotten me in touch with Art History and some philosophy. Its intriguing and just captivates my night with fantasies. I would read it till the wee hours in the morning and wake up the next day to find myself on my sofa reading to the sound of Jazz Channel 111 on Astro.

Well, I still have 2 more books to go, Laughing as they Chased Us - Sarah Jackman and The Known World - Edward P. Jones (as recommended on Oprah). Wakakakaka.. But I forbid myself from reading these literature until my papers are over. Let's just pray now I'll have as much interest to read my Malaysian history book as I have to the Da Vinci. All the best to ya'll too in your exams. Signing off now. Back to study :(

Yours in love,
-jOhN "praying" LiM-

Now with my license... Here I come baby!!!.. Be My Wife!!! (BMW)... 

Weee... I finally got MY share of books!!.... 

By far, we've already went out together 4 times for drinks at night and stil counting bros... love ya'll!.. FR-L: Jinny , Me, Isuck, Benjoz 

Random Pic from our daily mischiefs 

Liang in action.. 

Camouflage? :P 

Serena C all over me.. 

Adam C & I 

Of Hitz.Fm's and its Mad-Crazy-Whacko DJs

Inspite of me not singing for this gig with Liang, I went over with my bro and Amanda to just chill and support Liang. As soon as we went there they were giving away some T-Shirts and we had to give hugs to some of their DJs. Everyone was there, Rudy, JJ, Serena C, Adam C, Jason Lo, Ean, Jakeman, wateva whoever did I miss out. They are one mad bunch of people. I got to hug Jason Lo for a XL T-Shirt, Hahaha.. So through out the thing I just chilled with the dancers and Liang and afterwards went for lunch at Chilli's. Groovy weekend man. Enjoy the pics. How do you put You Tube video's here? Probably I could share with you guys some of last night's gigs like Jaclyn practicing and today's show too :) Keep rocking on peeps and support your local music industry!!! ;)

Truly yours,
-jOhN LiM-

Of Gigs and a Entertainer's Life

Probably some of you had knew that I was doing a gig with Jaclyn, Juwita and Liang tonight at Maranatha. It was small stuff for me, just backed-up and just experience being involved in these kinda gigs. It was really fun with all the dancers, singing, lauging with the band. I really got to experience a day in a star's life. Other than wasting alot of time waiting and practicing, I really liked it. Jac was superb la. Head bows to her man, her range is just limitless. She ain't too bad a person la. Got to know some really nice people from Urban Groove. If you didn't know who are they, they are Hip-Hop-Breakdancing group that is recently breaking through. They have a studio over at Subang and offer many classes. Me very interested ler. But looking at my tight schedule, doubt I can take any classes this year. I like dancing, singing, acting... Me entertainer? Do you honestly see me as an entertainer/singer? Hmmmm... I mean, I wouldn't mind breaking into the Music Scene for a few years in college but probably not as a career la. Still looking at the prospects for career paths and future education now. We will see how it goes. However the let down was that I'm not backing up for Liang tomorrow at 1 Utama anymore :(. Sadly Ps. Julie doesn't me to miss church. Well, I'm sure there are more to come la. Boohoo, so much for the hype.

So, can you imagine John Lim, singing in your TV Box, hearing him on the radio, and probably reading him on the cover page of Star 2? All in the hands of God, Amen.

Humming,
-jOhN "Singing" LiM-

A snapshot before we went out.. Show me watcha got.. 

Sexy or not.. One of Urban Groove's instructors.. :D 

How can I not post Jaclyn's picture.. Me & her backstage before the gig