God's Direction Via Decision for 2006

It was a blast!.. I have to say Youth Camp 2005 was terrific! Water City was beautiful, room was comfy, worship sessions were power-packed, sessions were life transforming, ministry time was spectacular, group was crazy, skit was madness, and the company was absolutely fantastic. Youth Camp is definately something I wouldn't wanna miss out every year. Its such a lifting feeling after camp. Left for Melaka on the 26th. Met up at church in the morning and soon boarded the bus. It is funny how God stretches someone he wants to use. During the whole camp duration, I was bus leader, group leader, room leader and worship leader. What more can you ask?! But I must say, this camp long I've reached the stage where it has been ministry all through out. I didn't really receive much but I know it was awesome. I was serving more already. But its good. My receiving season is over. I still remember where at some camps I'll be at the alter crying my heart out. But in this camp was different. God is really bringing GTYC into a different level, whether it be ministry level, worship, and commitment. Its really great to know young ones really rising up and taking the position God wants them to take. A change is taking place and I definately see a good change in 2006. After we arrived at Water City we went to the hall immediately. Got into our groups and rooms and soon prepared for the first session. Led worship and definately God's presence was felt. First night wasn't too bad. Powerful word spoken that got me and Benedict conversing on our bed till 3am. Brought up so many issues and topics which were really interesting.

Got up the next morning and had to take over Joann's place in her worship session coz she wasn't feeling too good. Led worship again and enjoyed morning session. Afternoon was games time. Gosh we had fun. Before games we prepared for cheer and skit. Fuh~ stressing!.. Go SPORTS MANIA! Had a blast too!.. Really enjoyed the balloon game on the suspended bridge. Bleks. I just wanna shout out to all my GROUPIES which were totally awesome! Love ya'll! Expecially to my great, sexy, cool, wannabe, Ass-cum-Assistant Leader, Vincent Tan Zic Wae! I have to tell ya, during our human bingo he had to proove he could do 30 push ups within 40 secs and he did it in 20 secs. *Girls Screaming*. But thanx dude. All this while you've been an awesome friend, supporter, brother, teacher, mentor, girlfriend, entertainer, wateva! Its gonna be an eventful 2006. Can't imagine seing you leave for the States~ Ah.. Don't even wanna think about it.

Anyway, next morning was stressing! Woke up at 7.30am and got to the hall to prepare for skit prac at 8am. No one was there yet. So I had sat down and prayed for first place (ngek ngek ngek). It was a productive practice and soon was rushing for worship session with Delaine. Loved the fast songs. Everyday, This is How we Overcome and Reflector. Con-ned Vincent into singing too. Fast forward to afternoon. During lunch we were discussing on how to dress me up. In our skit I had to dress up as Oprah Winfrey. I was turning into Joprah Limfrey. Miss Woo Wei Wen was brilliant enough to suggest me wearing her BRA?!! Gosh I was freaking out by then. So I challenged her to ask Pastor Julie about it because I was confident enough that Pastor wouldn't allow such a thing. But Wei Wen immediately asked Pastor and she was like "if the guy doesn't mind, i don't have a problem with it". After MUCH convincing, we left for Wei Wen's room to get dressed up and GAWD IT WAS THE EXPERIENCE OF A LIFE TIME~~~~~. She got her padded push up bras for me and a yellow baby-T, a denim jacket, and a TUBE TOP~~ Tried the yellow baby-T but it was UGHH.. bad!!!!... SO WRONG!.. Vinz was going all crazy over the HOT GIRL he was looking at! We decided at last that I was to wear the Bra, Tube and jacket. You have no idea how I fit into those. Am I that small? :(. Will include pics soon. Got on with our skit and we did AWESOME! Damn lame la. Had a good laugh. Every other team did good. I particularly liked Suspense. Because they had the choir which was really special. But as soon it was over I was SOO relieve! Had a good break time and soon after had fun at the night session. It was all great!

During the whole camp I've learn so much. A special shout to my God-Bro Victor, thanx for being there for me! Hehehe..

2006... This is it. I'm beginning my last day of the year online. It has definately been an awesome year. A year of growth, new possibilities, challenges, experience, humbling year, and defiantely I've met new and awesome people. I am definately looking forward to 2006. With SPM ahead and new hurdles, I'm gonna face it head on with my Lord. Here I go 2006! *CrAsH*

Running after You, Lord!
-jOhN "jOpRah" LiM-

As the days go by...

Time ticks away as you read and as I type. Its a countdown till the end of this wonderful, tragic, eventful, and beautiful year. Well, I must say this has to be a good year. Got to know so many wonderful ppl. Got to strengthen relationships. Its wonderful when God places so many different kinds of people in your path. I'm thankful for that, really am.

Well, to go on bout this week. Benedict kidnapped me and we left to Kajang to stay a night at Lionel's mansion. At arrival we had dinner and soon after messed his room. Lionel is some 17 year old dude that is studying in London. He's a really nice fair guy. I have to say he has this really boy band kinda personality. He's really into his music. After hanging around with his hot sis Racheal(14) and elder sis whos name i forgot(20) I'd kinda felt I was in H.K. Racheal had this REALLY strong American accent and elder sis was SOOO Hong Kong girl. If you've not guessed, they were brought up on the upper class and attends an international school in Kajang. After a lil debate, we all agreed to watch Into the Blue featuring JESSICA ALBA. Soon after his neighbours joined us in his mini-theater at home. It was GOLD CLASS wei~ Wif cool surround sound and lounge chairs, blankets and pillows. We were in heaven with Jessica Alba and Gawd did she save the movie. Without her, it'll be a flop. By this time it was already 2am. We actually planned to swim in his pool outside (he has a REALLY nice pool at home.. now can u imagine how huge his house is? :P). However we'd unanimously agreed it'll be freezing if we did. So we left for Lionels room once again. Played some Tony Hawk and Fifa Street, and not to mention some PSP too. We just played around with the gadgets and guitar till late and got to bed at around 5am that morning.

Woke up the next morning at about some 11am. Hahaha. Benedict was some realy gay ass in bed. Shall not go into details. But anyway, maid prepared Lo Mai Kai and Tong Sui for us. Ain't too bad considering it isnt SS2. Got into swim attire and swam the morning away considering there wasn't much or morning to enjoy anymore. Once again, accidents do happen. Benedict was so pandai and did a backflip without looking and hit Shaun on his head (ouch). Both were injured. It was lame. Took a shower and soon enough, driver was around to send us back liou. Boohoo. Really had fun at Lionel's. Well, Cheers to another Sleep over soon! Weee....

The past few nights has been terrific. Church had prepared for a musical, Wondrous Gift. I must sallute them for this production. It was rather memorable. Of all in house production, this i would have to say is the best. Janice and Hazel had really wrote quite some bit. Was there both nights to enjoy it ;P

Its Christmas Day! The birth of Christ! Gifts too!!.. Ngek ngek ngek. Left for church first thing in the morning to celebrate Christmas. Wasn't too bad. Highlight of it was Sue Vern and Daph just HAD to be angels and got me TENNIS BALLS. Wait!!.. LIMITED EDITION TENNIS BALLS! They had written lovely messages on it. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. Thanx girls. Owe you girls kisses ya! Remind me on the bus. After church went to 1U with Vincent, Charisse, Grace and Yi Theng. And guess wat! I watched Perhaps Love, AGAIN! Unfortunately, they hated it. But the more I watch it the more I love it. Awwww. Listening to the Soundtrack RIGHT NOW! Weeeeeee..

Alrighty dude and du-dez, I've to go pack right now. Gonna be at Melaka the next 4 days for YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!! Thats gonna wrap up my year. And gosh have I not done BIO HOMEWORK!!! SAVE ME SANTA!

Emmanuel,
-jOhN LiM BoOn OoN-

Nike Cortez Deluxe 

Perhaps Love Soundtrack 

Ru Guo Ai <3

Perhaps Love is the key to life? Perhaps it doesn't mean a thing? Love... Why is it always clearer after looking back, even with pain and tears, But such is Love. Little snippets from the Movie Perhaps Love. WARNING: I'm over-rating it, but I LOVE IT! Just went over to 1U to buy the original soundtrack. Playing over my Com now. Had my cousin who is with me right now to help me get the han yi ping yi for the song. Ngek ngek. So totally gonna remember the song Perhaps Love now. If you ever need a copy of the han yi ping yi lyrics, drop me a message. I shall not spoil the movie for you if you'd not watch the movie yet but all I can say is that Perhaps Love really deplicts love at a certain degree. Pure true Love. Yet again and again I've been posting about Love. What is it with Love? Gosh~

I've been blog jumping and came a cross a few blogs and I've realised youth these days only blog about their ups and downs and gossips, how predictable. But then again, what else can we blog about? But then again, I am not about to judge any post out there, whether it be real substance or just pure crap, hey, they're just expressing what their thoughts are correct? Can't blame them if they're so full of crap. Hahaha.

So, back to life, weeee.. Christmas around the block and I've not gotten Christmas gifts (except Emelia, Melinda, Melissa P, Ee Jin and Chups which already gotten their shinny gifts). What does Christmas mean to you all out there? For some of you it might just be about gifts or decorations or just another holiday. Christmas means a whole lot than that. It was one that day they it was destined the world would come to a change. Christ the Saviour was born in a manger. Its rather ironic that such a King had only to be born at such a place but yet in all humbleness and humility He has never despised His life and what He was meant to do; to die for us all. Christmas, a celebration so special but have some of us only experienced Winter all our lives till we forget to see the Season that is to be celebrated.

It was our last Youth Service of the Year and it did end with a bang. Worship this morning was particularly enjoyable. Did Tell the World, What the World would never take, All for Love and Forever with a dash of some carols. Love singing. I'm just thankful God is gracious and merciful enough to allow and bless me with the privilege to be able to sing His praises with talent. It sure is something to be thankful of. But hey, to ya'll that isn't bless in such a way, you have yet to discover your area of talent and speciality that you are capable of that may just turn the world upside down. Seriously. Everyone is Talented and Capable in different areas that sometimes may just take time to discover but don't be dismay or discouraged if you are yet to find out. Sometimes it might just be in front of your eyes but you fail to recognise. You'll find it soon.

Ahhh... Lovely night. Wished I was watching Perhaps Love again. HAHAHA.. jk jk. Anyway, gonna leave now and drop a pic of my new beloved shoes that my parents just got for me from Melbourne back from their sweet Second Honeymoon. THAXN MOM & DAD! They got me a whole bunch of gifts I really love, Shoes especially. Love it! Enjoy! Love ya'll. Countdown, Few days to Christmas, Few days to Youth Camp 2005 (weee!!!!)!!!, Few weeks to School re-Opens (****). Miss ya'll!!!...

Ru Guo Ai Ching shi Zhen,
-jOhN LiM-

Genting Crew '05 

Me & Wei Yen 

Emeeelliaa.. :D 

Graduation Ceremony for Cam-whores in Dinasaur Land, Genting 

With Family at Dinner in Eastin 

One Day..... :P

Greetings to everyone once again! Once again forgive thou for not updating. Don't have the precious time to do so, however I shall update now. Lets talk about last week!..

Weeeee... last week on Sunday went for Undang with some gang. There were bout some 15 of us. Mostly DJ girls.. lolz.. It was dumb boring. Seriously. I was dying to get out of there. Although it was boring I still listened and did learn a few key things. At last got home safe and sound.

Next I was off to Genting with Jinny, Benny, Arvinny, Emeliany, Ee Jinny, Melindany, Melissa Pongy, Wei Yenny and Chupsy. Took the late bus from Sentral to Genting with Jinny at 7pm coz I had Jam Session at church and he had some gathering. Relaxing bus ride with Jinny's music in my left ear while it rained outside. Soon after we had arrived we took a cable car up to the Highland Hotel. We had shared a cable car with some guy who was smoking and boy, it felt we were clouded by smoke and not fog. Anyway, didn't really enjoy my cable car ride coz I didn't get to see the cute animal characters on the way (boohoo). All the way up I kept telling Jinny, where's the elephant and tigers and so on :D. Got out of the cable car and made our way to Starbucks where we grabbed a drink or two and met up with Arvin and Ben. Soon after we were on our way to the arcade to meet up with the girls. Outside = Cold, Inside = Hot! The place was just stuffed up but we still played a few racing games, some Ghost Squad thingi and our favourite, Picture Spot? Some game where you had to spot the difference in the pictures. You all know it don't you? After we had done those, we had stuffed ourselves in one of those kareoke boxes and screamed our lungs out. Had too much fun there and almost got my fingers slices by the vantilation fan. After our night of screaming and shouting we got back to the room all ready to HAVE MORE FUN. No no no, we didn't do anything illegal. We just drank sprite and ate green apples. Thats all. The night went on by us playing Taboo. The unforgettable discription was Vibrate. Ee Jin immediately went, "When girls want to satisfy themselves what do they use?!" We all went, VIBRATOR! "Ok ok cancel a bit get wat?!" VIBRATE! Correct! HAHAHAH.. Gosh, we were damn horny wei~~ Gross. Anyways I'd still never forget my abominable snowman. Mua was tired and took some rest while the rest wondered around the hotel at 4am. ZzzzzzzzZZzzz...

The next morning we woke up REALLY late and thus was too late for any games in the morning. Got washed up and left for theme park. Me and Melissa got the tickets while the rest cam-whored without us :(. During our que there were a number of people who wanted to budge in and cut the line. Ughh.. Pethetic low-lifes~ One malay UNCLE got infront of me, immediately I tapped his shouder and asked him to BUZZ OF. HAHAHA. He acted as though he didn't know anything and was ignorant bout the line. Shut the tuut up la. HAHAHA.. jk jk. Anyway, got the tickets and went lunch before our theme park trip. Weeeeee!... Melissa's HOT mom brought us to THE OLIVE which was EXCELLENTe! Gosh, LOVED the soft shell crabs and pizza. The restaurant was very classy and elegant with cute chairs and sofa and a bar. As we waited we got hold of Kebaya books and Ripley's collection of "unbelievables". After filling ourselves with terrific food, we left for the theme park. I shall not go into details at the theme park but we were jynx la. When we went out it rained. When we were in, it didn't. Didn't really make our RM34-6=28 worth it actually. But we had ride the Spinner some 3 times. It was superbly cool. Love the feeling of flying and kicking Leg Juice around. Hahaha.. :P After that we went for KARAOKE SESSION at "Be A Star". HAHAH.. They had some super cheap offer where you only paid RM10 and get a fried rice with a drink for TWO hours! Freaking Cheap!!! Got hold off a room and yet again we sang our voice boxes off!

Continueation...
After our lovely Karaoke session we left for our room. Supposingly to play Taboo or so but as we passed the carpark we had an awesome idea. HIDE AND SEEK! Remember those days when you'd play hide and seek but now we were playing hide and seek in the cold dark of night at the Hihgland Hotel Carpark. My first hide with Emelia was a disaster. Emelia's ass stucked out so Benjoz spotted us. Don't worry Emelia, you still have a cute ass. I can so imagine Emelia *sweating/bleeding* now (internal joke). Anyways we had so much fun running around. We have all these weird encounters with passer-bys. First it was Ee Jin behind a small tree where she had raised her hands to resemble the tree. You know, Indian style? Suddenly an auntie came by. Hahaha.. She was devastated. Emelia too had funny weird encounters. One was which she was very close a car or was it a tree. It was as though she was a theft or something. Same thing with me. I was hiding SOOO close a 4WD a lady passed by and stopped to look at what i was doing. I immediately started picking rubbish. HAHAHAHA.. The security guard at the Hotel realised that we were playing the game and soon after we were done and as we passed them by, the guards were laughing at us. Lame asses. Anyway the next day wasn't too pleasent. First, we were leaving (boohoo) secondly was our damn bus driver. Gosh, was he having PMS. But anyway, don't wanna complain too much, everyone has their bad days horr? :)

Next highlight of the week was Dad & Mom's Surprise anniversary on Saturday. Dad had plan this without mom's knowledge the past months. It was sooo secretive and major. Dad had single handedly called each person on the invitation list which were bout some 200 people. It was their Silver Jubilee of marrige and in Full-time ministry. It is really amazing how they really love each other. Let me tell you something, I have some cool parents. They go for midnight movies and watch the latest movies BEFORE me. Dad is such a cool person. Dad had a moustache all this while. For my entrire life, I'd never seen dad shave it. But when he got married to Mom to prove his love, he had shaved it and grown it since till that day. Thus it was gone. 25 years of moustache hair. HAHAHAHA. Mom is Wonderwomen. She's just this superbly blur women with sooo much wisdom and perserverance in her. She never fails to nail every person that comes to her for advice. Once again for the reason to prove his love. They renewed their vowes and they had funny testimonies about them from different people and so on. Sang them a nice slow song before they moved into their dancing session. Boy, they are in love. Amazing. Love ya too Mom & Dad. Muaxxx

Well, cousin is down from Alor Setar. He's just this cute 13 year old kid who loves the PS2. Hahahaha. Life has been cool. Still in love with tennis and friends. Victor came back! Victor is my God-Brother that left for the USA in 2001. I'd still remember when he left. I cried like shit. He's such an awesome friend, brother and companion. He's the one person that only knows everything about me at that point. I'd confided with him so many things and time and time again he was always there for me although not here physically. But yet through the years I had taken forgranted of his care and love. Didn't really talk much to him the past year. But when I saw him on Sunday something just clicked and we started talkin and laughin again. The moment I saw him again I suddenly realised how much I missed this dear brother of mine. Thanx for everything you've done for me Kor. Love ya loads.

Went out today with the Genting Gang again. Watched Perhaps Love and Gawd it was just to SPECIAL. Its those kinda movies I wanna watch alone when it's raining. What more can you ask from this movie? Ok, maybe a more pretty female-lead la but other than that, Jacky Cheongs voice was terrific, Takeshi, what can I say. This movie speaks more love than errrr, see I can't even find anything worth comparing to it. I'm sooo gonna buy the soundtrack. Waiting for Dad & Mom to come back. They left for Melbourne the day after the dinner at Eastin. Second Honeymoon they claim~ But this time they're gonna come back with my new Nike Cortez! Weee..

Ahhh.. Just had read Victor's Blog just now. It is so full with substance and meaning. But somehow I feel mine is so, Empty. Filled with empty words. Well, especially now in this holiday, somehow, I've not been producing as much as I do. I've been a slacker and been more hypocritical about issues and pure lazy. Life this holiday in a way has brought not much meaning. Created as a human I should produce (not sexually) results and at least accomplish something in this season but have I? Should I continue lying to myself about how much I've done for my life? Definately I have been lying to myself about many things and issues in my life. Denial is the word. Brothers and sisters, I'm afraid of facing my truth. But will you be there with me? I'd sometimes wonder how will things turn out if life wasn't with sin or lies. How perfect would life actually turn out? Yet again I have all the answers to life. I have all the solutions and methods. But something in me just refuses to act upon it. Am I weak? I beg to differ, or is it just my pride? Life isn't gonna get any easier from now. Its time I look to God and depend on Him. Its time to cut that crap and start living the life and live the destiny that is pathed for me. In Him, all is Beautiful. Thank You, Lord.

Comforted?
-jOhN LiM-

My new Tennis Bagggg

Pleeding Guilty

Forgive thee for thee hath not been successful in updating thy Bloggy. But I'm back again Oh Good and Faithful readers! Weeee!!!.. Life is great!.. Back in time now.

After getting the all beloved tennis bag as seen below, I had paraded it everytime i brought it to my tennis lessons. It is the Very Funnn lerrz. Ok anyway, forgive me if I go on with Tennis Talk but I just have to. After Vincent's Championship with Pringles I followed along to Kelana Jaya's courts for the Selangor Open (thats where I train!!). He finally got Runner Up which he isn't happy about I think.

Days have been just passing and Gosh it's already December. It just goes to show how faithful God is each day till this day. Definately I would have to say He has been faithful through out this year. This year I would have to say passed the Fastest. Things just seem to be going and growing. But even as we turn back and look at those days it does bring a sense of fulfillment. I can't imagine that Leo/ PBSM Install is over, I'm in the Prefect BOD, I've worship lead soo many times now, I've picked up tennis, met WONDERFUL people, retain my results, achieved a few year 2005 resolutions and so on. But it has been a good year I have to say.

Next up on list is Genting trip.. Weee... Totally gonna have a blast next Tuesday!.. Looking forward to it ya'll!

Hmmm.. I realise one thing. Don't force yourself to write a post if you're just fulfilling your duty. There ain't much I can bring up tonight. Weird?... I've learnt a lesson. Write only if You WANT to write. Hahaha.. Aiks... Lost.... Peace Out people.. Catch up soon k ;) missing each friend out there!

-jOhN LiMz-

When will I find thee...

It has been some interesting past few days. I have been going to Jalan Duta's National Tennis courts quite often to watch Vincent kick some asses. It has been really cool and fun. You'd get to see really good players smashing balls and playing with determination. Looking at them, I longed to be of one of those down there one day. Next year? I'd hope. Who knows?

On Wednesday I joined a small group of LEOs for a trip to University Hospital for a visit to the Geriatric & Pediatric Ward and the Dialysis Centre. The doctors and nurses there we're really friendly and nice. They had brought us around and explained to us different things about the wards and so on. I had the privilege to converse with an Old malay lady and a family of a patient. Surprisingly both ladies had 9 children and both had Kencing Manis and both husbands died because of Kencing Manis too. Hrmmmzz... But I'm glad at least I made her day. She teared after we left. It was a satisfying feeling to have helped and accompanied a senior citizen. The trip that morning had really inspired me to take up medical but yet there are a few setbacks but hey, I have another year to experience and plan. You could see loads of Botak Kids too at the Pediatric Ward. They were cute but somehow you'd know things ain't going too well with them. Let's pray along for them k? ;)

Yesterday morning had to wake up at 6:30 AM to prepare for tennis and soon was on my way for tennis lesson with Jean Yi and Melissa. Weeeeee! Had another awesome 2 hours of really good tennis. You can really see our improvement. Jean Yi is turning into Maria Jeanyipova. She has it man!.. Melissa has her signature Leg Up-Forehand and ballet stunts. Seriously cool... Hahaha.. I always enjoy my tennis lessons. The one decision in life that I'll never regret!.. Brought so much fun and laughter to my life. Thanx Vincent!!! Rigth after that rushed over to Jalan Duta again to watch Vincent in his finals. And yet again another Victory 6-2 6-4 if i was not wrong? His coach had said that at his level he should win his opponents 6-0, 6-1, or 6-2.

You know those nights when You feel all lonely and depressed. I'd felt that last night. Something deep in me just longed for someone to talk to. Have you ever felt lonely one night and just longed for someone on your phonebook that you'd be able to call and just laugh it out? For those of You who already has that kinda friend, I envy You. Its such a privilege to have such a friend. Somehow deep within me is still emptyness and a longing for a true friend. Sometimes I'd wonder when will that friend of mine like me as much as I like them. It kinda feels akward sometimes when you'd really like this person but somehow You know he/she isn't liking you as much as you do to him/her. Wherever You are out there Best Friend, I'd hope I find you soon.....

Maybe because this week ain't an easy one. Loads of hinderances putting the Worship Team together for this Sunday. I'd feel that there is more to it than just them pulling out but something spiritual. I'd to also pull together cell for tonight. Irwin and Daphnie ain't gonna be around so less help around. Praying all will go well tonight, Saturday's Practice and Sunday's Service. Please pray along....... sigh~~~

With this heavy thoughts in my mind I'd leave for Megamall today to get a Nike tennis bag. But somehow don't feel to good bout it. Arghh... Better get all this trouble off my shoulders soon. ITS GONNA BE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!! Believing it!

Pushing towards the goal,
-jOhN LiM-

Towards the Dreams of our Life

Good Evening faithful readers,

Just got back from Bangsar Seafood tonight with Uncle Yeoh and family. Not too say they serve extraordinary food la, but it wasn't too bad la. I'd like the fish though. Some Garupa I think. I shan't mention the price of the fish itself. Had a walk down Bangsar with Elaine, Sharine and my Sis. They really had great Itallian, Mediteranean, Thai, Japanese, Northern Indian Cuisines and Gourmet. It was all in that stretch. They had beautiful architecture and landscape, a rel great serene feeeling with water running, small streams of water that flowed. Back at the dinner table, Mom & Dad was giving Elaine a review on Counselling, Psychology, mind sicknesses, Child Psychology and so on. It was an insight. Elaine took CPU after her O-Levels at Garden International. She had all distinctions and got a scholarship at CPU. According to her it is easy. I believe so. Sis says CPU students have to most fun compared to the SAM or A-Level students. While my sis was doing SAM last time they used to admire the students doing CPU. They even had some "Egg-Care-Taking" event for a week where they had to "adopt" the egg for a week and make sure its well taken care of and no cracks form. I'm still evaluating. But there's a 0% chance I'm going for STPM. A big NO NO. Was thinking about S'pore with Junior College, or A-Levels in Melbourne or maybe just doing a foundation study at Sunway/Taylors. But will it all be worth it?............

But tonight got me thinking about my future. Was just conversing with Vincent and Jo Lin on Life and our Dreams and Goals. Everyone has a desire deep hidden in our heart. Whether it be building a house by the beach one day, meeting Britney Spears, building a Sex Academy, filming an award winning thrilogy of the Lord of the EarRings, winning the US Open, or just plain building a family of 3 and having sex with your wife every night. I guess most of us just wanna live a life of luxury and wealth at the end. But somehow thats not what I yearn. Somehow I seek a life of fulfillment and satisfaction. But that ain't easy to come by. Tell me when are you ever going to be satisfied with what you have. I guess true fulfillment only comes when one is thankful and grateful and I've not reach that state of contentment. Life is not going to get any easier from now onwards. With more knowledge pouring in, I guess more problems and complications will catch up too. SPM is around the corner, just a year away, cell is growing and the people aren't getting any easier, future is more blur than it seems and soon I'll be working.

Well, all I can do now is live to the fullest of life and appreciate the times I will have with my friends now. Its funny that everytime when our paths differ, friends tend to go missing too. I want to make a consious effort to keep my close friends close to my heart. Soon, Vincent will be leaving for Texas, Benedict for Melbourne, and the rest to different colleges. Again and again I keep saying, I really do treasure You all. Although we may grow to our different paths, may our roots aways remain the same my dear beloved Brothers and Sisters.

A little I've editted for my various friends, hope you enjoy it.

I hate the way you talk to me
And I hate the way you cut your hair;
I hate the way you hit my butt
I hate it when you stare;
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind;
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme;
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie;
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worst when you make me cry;
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact you didn't call;
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, Not even a little bit, Not even at all.

Ain't Perfect Boi,
-jOhN "aH Boi" LiM-

Family First

Its funny that actually that everything in our life is somehow affected by the outbringing of our childhood and family. For sometime I did question why was I born to my family, but soon time slowly revealed that it wasn't bad at all. As we all know, each family is built of different backgrounds and combination of characters and personalities. But all families do go through turbulance and disturbance once in awhile. But as they say "air dicincang tidak akan putus juga". I've grown to appreciate my family each day by the bits. You should too. Though you may feel unfair sometimes, but God has a plan when he landed you in that family of yours. Just feel like appreciating my family. No matter at times if i had been the spoiled young baby, I'm gonna love each and everyone of You till my last breath. Much love and support.

I just wanted to bring up my family because I started to realise that almost every blog I've read never touched on their family ever. Hmmm.. weird.. Will let you guys have some insight on my family members one day ;P. Alrighty, its been sometime again since I've wrote. Life has been great. Productive in my eyes?.. haha.. Parents came back from a 10 Day trip to Fiji and brought back a few Tennis gear for me (weee!). Mom didn't stop describing the details of every corner and event that happened in Fiji all the way from the time she entered the car in KLIA back to the dining table at home. She can really talk. Imagine how much she can nag?. HAHA.. Hey, but I'm not complaining. Love her soooo dearly. She's the coolest. The one thing I love her for is her Blurness. Its just so adorable yet I can't comprehand at times. Once, she was rushing for a dinner with dad. Dad was honking outside already. Soon she quickly grabbed a sparking pair of red shoes and ran outside. She was all frustrated and complaisent by this time. She had forgotten to take the keys along. So I went outside to pass them the keys. Dad had used his auto-controlled buttons to pull down Mom's side of window. Yet, Mom opened the door to get the keys from me. So i passed the key to her NOT from the window. SOMEHOW, she took the key and pulled the door at the same time. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!.. She had slammed the door on her finger. Fuh drama man that night. HAHAH.. :p Love you loads mom. (She's arranging some papers beside me now n yet doesnt know i'm writting bout her :P).

Ok, back to my week. So Fiji. Tennis. While they were at Fiji me & dear sis, Julie cooked almost every meal (yummy). I already capable of cooking a decent chinese meal. Its yummy. Trust me. Lolz :P. Caught up on my Final Fantasy X-2 during the past few days too. Yuna rocks :P. Irritated by LeBlanc's Boobs (for FFX2 players :P). Her outfit is like, uhhh disgusting. Anyway, had 2 hour tennis session with Jean yi and Melissa again. Totally In love with tennis. Alas I've understood the feeling of some FOOTBALL fanatics. Bro is included. Gosh, he is like naming every player on the field. It can get really pissing irritating at times when he watches his football matches and play his football games on the PS2. Urghh~ Hogger!.. Watched The Perfect Man just now in the afternoon with Mom, Sis n Bro. Cute Romance movie.

Well, I guess I don't really have much to say tonight. Sleep well people. Really appreciate you taking time to read my post. Now you know me a little better ;P. Love ya'll ppl. Redbox soon?

-jOhN LiM-

Appearance of Fullness and yet empty inside..

Some of you might be wondering of how such a title of my post tonight appears. I guess it needs no explaination. But allow me to bring you back to the past few days and of course my experiences and thoughts.

10th November!..
Weeeee!!! Partaaayyy timeee... Shiok shiok... Let me skip to the afternoon.. had a nap n woke up at aproxx 6++... I'm suppose to be at Kelly's party at 7++ before she comes back at 8++.. Rush rush rush... Actually dreamt bout tennis while was sleeping (muahaha)... Took a warm bath.. It was raining shit outside.. oh sorry i mean, raining rain.. lolz.. K k.. better get back to prooper english and vocabulary. Thus because of such chills that I felt by the rain I decided to take a warm bath under the shower. Of course I had one of those Toilet Concerts again~. I'm quite sure almost everyone of you do not know that one my passions in life is to have concerts in my toilet almost every evening. My family has gotten really pissed with me and voice from the day the "tour" started. But trust me in this, the concerts Really does help in building confidence and voice ability. Now I am confident of singing in the nude next time (oopss!.. jk jk). Back to the shower. Got out of it after finally realising that time was running out. Took some time to get the smile that I wanted in front of the mirror and took off for the Party. Reached Kelly's place and was greated by a plethora of shoesssss... Woah.. The first thing I thought was this is the not the way it should go. Kelly might just get an idea when she steps in. Immediately I got hold of her father and soon after we formed a line of workers passing out shoes to the boot of the Proton Waja.

It was a moment yet after BEGGGINNGGG Jo Lin to quickly get Kelly back before 9pm. We had ANOTHER HAPPENING party across the neighbourhood and I didn't want to be late to give a hug to Jinny before the night was over. Kelly came home and I was quite sure she teared? Or did her red eyes deceive me yet again? Anyhow, grabbed a few pizza's and was thrown with a few insults here and there by Jo Lin and Mechell. And I have to mention, Mel Win had STYLING CREAM done on his hair. Fuh~ When did Mel Win ever care about his looks? Wait, before you think this is an insult, Mel Win, You need not dress up like a girl, or have make-up on, or have STYLING CREAM, or touch me to feel loved and wanted. You will forever be a cute in Jessica's eyes (I hope). Had a few laughters and LAME LAME pictures taken and bid farewell to the gang and left for Jinny's. The night ain't over BABY!... HERE WE COME... ROAD TRIP!!...

Had my bro drop us at Jinny's. I know this is gonna be weird but he needs SOME appreciation sometimes. Thank You Kor.. ;).. Anyway, got hold of the bell and rang it well. Low and behold we were greeted by a banner that read "Happy Birthday Jinny" and a bald kid below it with his cute fitting red shirt which in Jo Lin's words, made him look gay. It was Jinny!!!... Welcomed us and I quickly got a seat with Jun Wei in the circle of horror. Chengz was just in the midst of sharing with us a "horrifying" Langkawi kid story which turned out to be more of a "let down hair-scare the shit outta ya Scream". Appreciate it Chengz. My inspiration to keep LONG hair next time, I MIGHT just be able to do so too. By this time, Miss Gan and Miss Lee refused to step in for god-knows-what reason. After the story just hang around laughin and catching up with a old friend in which I missssss SOOOOO MUCHHH. It just felt right when the conversation started. Missed those times girl ;) ahh.. and I will remember now!.. 16th January!!.. I couldn't believe my ears when she still could remember mine! How sweet of you. Felt appreciated after a very long time. People left one by one till the 5 of us were left playing Bullshit. Its really called Bullshit/Bluff.. :P. Left Jinny's house at 2am that night because of FORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES THAT COULD BE AVOIDED but SOME people is just plain stubborn. Hahahahahahahahaha...

Most definately I had a great night that day. For the next few days I sent Miew San and Jinny their burfday song copyright of John Lim's voice *shy-nya*. Product of Toilet Concerts again. Another thing I must mention of was my tennis lesson on Saturday morning with Jean Yi, Melissa and Ang Yee!.. Weeeee.. I love Tennis with all my heart! Played a great game that morning and had LOUD laughs. We ended up playing baseball and I even tried imporsinating Maria in her Ad. Remember the one that said "MARIA WAS HERE". We tried stamping "JOHN ROCKS" but failed. Although it rained half way we had a good time laughin with my tennis coach, Mr Pongkarpan. Did I mention he was Thai? A really nice and open minded guy. Another thing I must say is that I never realised that Misbun and Rashid Sidek also trained near by like some 30 steps away. Coach knew them and he had a chat with them. All 4 of us were too shy but Melissa was mesmorized by some Shirtless Ang Moh playing badminton.

Ahh.. Memories. I'm enjoying everyday of my life and yet sometimes I still feel unfulfilled. I just know that there IS something greater that God has instored for me but what is it Lord?

Dear Lord, May you path my ways to your likeness. That one day I may experience your Love so great, greater than no other. That one day I may feel fulfilled and sathisfied. Leave lessons for me each day to grow more and more in your likeness. Though I may fail almost everyday, I know you are there to guide me, pick me and forgive me even as I make mistakes. I want to be full in You. Amen.

Good night my faithful readers. My deepest appreciation and gratitute for visiting my page effortlessly. Much love and hugs. Kisses included at request.

Searching Endlessly,
-jOhN LiM-

Burfday Boiii...

Sweeeeett... ;P Missin ya loads...

Ahhhhh... EeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeMelia..