1 cent if you can guess what I was studying..
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Monday, December 04, 2006
To Old Closures and New Beginnings..
Shalom fellow acquaintances,
It has been a long or should I say short and fast month of grueling papers. Something to be thankful for, I'm done, I'm over it, I'm settled, I'm Finish! Yeah, like how the saying goes, there is a season for everything, a season to sow and reap, a season for toils and disaster, and a season for rejoicing and joy. As one season passes, then comes another. I close the one chapter of life right this moment. I'm filled with mixed feelings. Truly, no one would ever forsee how things would turn out. Firstly, TUN BERAIM BAPA, secondly, K-EKONOMI, thirdly, KESEIMBANGAN DAYA, fourtly, HALIA, and last but not least, DNA!?!?!... SPM candidates would SURELY relate with the certain topics mentioned. But what is pass HAS PAST. Held my head up high, glimmed a smile and I shashayed my way out the open doors. Dewan Berjaya never seemed so airry during Leo events but during the SPM, it was blowing with winds up to a 1000 miles and hour.
I took some time to look at the stage during a paper. I couldn't believe that I had actually performed several times on that stage. A privilege and a priceless experience. I don't want to sound all "studious" and "nerdy" now, but I'm seriously wondering what I would be doing every night now. Sharp at 2000 Hours I would make my way upstairs to my bed and grab a book or two and start doing my stuff till late, like really late. But anyway, honestly, the results, I'm surrendering it all to God. I've done my part, a very small part and now I'm totally surrendering it all to him no matter what the outcome.
Time has it's funny ways of teaching us lessons.
GROWING in time has always been a drag for some people. The moment some people touch their 20's they start complaining each year going on to describe how many strands of snow white hair has popped out from their scalps. Honestly, I hate those comments. HATE it. Hahaha. Being dead honest. I don't see the horror of growing old or maybe just not yet. But for all I remember I had always wanted to be old. Ok, maybe the factor of humans being unthankful is played in here. When they are young, they want to be old, when they are old, they want to be young. Like, WAT THE HELL?!..But the process of GROWING in time has been, a bliss. Ok, maybe not, but you can't really put your finger to it when you really mature if you get what I mean? Before you know it, you've grown, you know? Yeah, you know.
WAITING in time has been the worst. Think back on those times where you've learned lessons through waiting. Waiting in silence. Waiting in darkness and fear. Humans have always been insecure from the brink of time. Adam and Eve were ashamed of their nakedness and confusion kicked in. We've always wanted to know the way, the plans, and the ultimate goal but never realising that we might have missed out the important lessons in life through the process of waiting. It kills to wait right? I've seen many IMPATIENT ones leaving the hall SO frequently that it irritated a few of us. But the worst is waiting for a time to pass. Waiting for an answer, for an uncertainty to be certified. We always look for the right answer. When we're waiting for the bus, we wait for the time the bus will arrive. When we're waiting for the TV Programme Desire:Table for Three, we wait for the right time it starts. Get my point here? Na, me neither, but point is, WE WAIT. (Duh~~)
RISING in time has been the ultimate goal. We fail in time don't we. Excuse is, we needed more time. But time is a fragment, a piece, a link, and probably the most priceless possesion one can ever have. So the time you pour into what ever you are absorbed in is where your heart's possesion lay. Whether it be your friends, studies, TV, porn or playing tennis, if you spend TIME there, well, may I say that there is your priority. Point is, WITH the time we spend in our priorities, are we RISING in it? Are we benefitting in it? Are we growing through it? Are we finding direction and purpose in it? I still remember extremely clearly about 2/3 years back, when I was still assisting Angeline Teh in the SS2 Secondary Cell then, she more or less repremanded me for i-can't-remember-what. But the thing that spoke to me till today from that verse she used was something I live to do now. "Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial". You bet, EVERYTHING IS PERMISSIBLE, like hell-yeah EVERYTHING..... BUT... BUT.. BUT.. BUT.. is EVERYTHING beneficial?
I guess the course of time has thought me tons. I would like to claim that I have came out victoriously from each experience but unfortunately I can't. I have made TONS and TONS of mistakes. But we can fail a 1,000,000,000 times but only succeed Once, isn't it? It aint over, I'm only at Fail no-21872349. Teach me. Teach me. Thats all I require. Teach me, Time.
Fact is, it is so easy to point out the failures in life, my regrets, my pain and scar but why? Why look at those when I can look forward. Don't like this philosophy? Live with it sucker! If you ain't looking forward, you can only be looking backwards. Boy, I can count with one hand how many of you would actually read till this line.
Here it is again. A crossroad. Probably the first of the many huge crossroads in life now. I'm faced with a dilemma for college. Help me with this. There are 2 scenarios. Choose the best.
Scenario A - Programme
Choice 1 : American Degree Programme (ADP)
Pros : Yeap, college. ADP. Why ADP? ADP allows me to take a diversified variety of subjects at a time. I will be able to do Drama, Psychology and even Biology while pursuing a business course with Communications, Specialist Mathematics and Economics. Get the picture? HUGE variety all at one point.
Cons : The ADP is a very FREEEE programme and I hate it! I hate living without direction or purpose everyday. I will have too much free time at hand and I hate it. (Sorry for sounding so errr hardworking?). Anothing this is that very few Australian Unis or UK Unis recognise the ADP except the USA. That would mean, I would HAVE to go the the States.
Choice 2 : South Australian Matriculation (SAM)
Pros : I won't have much free time conpared to ADP. Though I think it would waive on me through time, but for now, being free isn't an option. SAM is also WIDELY recognise in Australia and especially when I'm vying for Melbourne U.
Cons : Apparently, it can get quite hectic and academic. Constant hardwork and effort must be added to the pot to score well. Note: Entry for most Degree courses in Melbourne U requires an average of >80. Medical at Melbourne U is 99!!! A whopping 99!
Scenario B - Time of Entry
Choice A : January
Pros : I wont waste anytime. I would touch down from Japan on the 6th of January and for ADP it starts on the 8th and 3rd for SAM both at Taylors. School would start immediately.
Cons : It might be a bit heavy for my body right after the month long trip in Japan. I would also be late for SAM for the first few days which are crucial for new friendships and cliques to form.
Choice B March
Pros : I can join Benjo after his NS. We would go in college together though he has no idea what he wants to do. During the mean time, I was thinking of following my youth pastor, Ps. Julie on her hospital trips and even a missions trip to Indonesia in January. I would have time on my hand and I could even work in February to earn some bucks.
Cons : I would be on express class for SAM and a rush programme la. I would be late 1 whole term for ADP. In short, I'll be slow for no apparent reason just for missing the January intake.
So hows? Help me decide? I have got 11 days to decide. I will have to apply for college like, NOW if I want to go for January.
So yet again, John has loads of worries and thoughts on the back of his mind, but I can manage it. Life is full of decision making. Weeeeee... Seriously, anyone having a course on Decision Making in Life? I want to attend! But then again, we have sermons all through out the year.
Boy boy, one long post. Before I leave, I must say something. To all my friends, especially the ones in Form 5 and leaving, Au Revoir, Bon Voyage, Sayonara, Take care. My prayers are with you. Truly, I wish all the best to all my friends. I hold each and everyone of you dearly and closely to my heart. As we go our separate ways, I do hope our roots will always remain the same. So spread your wings and fly now. Fly high and touch the sky and stop not at the clouds but aim for the sun. Loving you all. Special shoutout to Poh Lynn who will be leaving soon, I've always like you as a person. You've steadfast on your principles and that is what is gonna bring you far in life. Cheers to you.
Ahh, how relieve after the long break. Watch out for more updates! Weee.. till then, I leave you with more pics. Oh and my first host will be in Himegi, Hyogo which is near Osaka. Map enclosed. Love ya'll!!!
With Love,
-jOhN "enjoying" LiM-
It has been a long or should I say short and fast month of grueling papers. Something to be thankful for, I'm done, I'm over it, I'm settled, I'm Finish! Yeah, like how the saying goes, there is a season for everything, a season to sow and reap, a season for toils and disaster, and a season for rejoicing and joy. As one season passes, then comes another. I close the one chapter of life right this moment. I'm filled with mixed feelings. Truly, no one would ever forsee how things would turn out. Firstly, TUN BERAIM BAPA, secondly, K-EKONOMI, thirdly, KESEIMBANGAN DAYA, fourtly, HALIA, and last but not least, DNA!?!?!... SPM candidates would SURELY relate with the certain topics mentioned. But what is pass HAS PAST. Held my head up high, glimmed a smile and I shashayed my way out the open doors. Dewan Berjaya never seemed so airry during Leo events but during the SPM, it was blowing with winds up to a 1000 miles and hour.
I took some time to look at the stage during a paper. I couldn't believe that I had actually performed several times on that stage. A privilege and a priceless experience. I don't want to sound all "studious" and "nerdy" now, but I'm seriously wondering what I would be doing every night now. Sharp at 2000 Hours I would make my way upstairs to my bed and grab a book or two and start doing my stuff till late, like really late. But anyway, honestly, the results, I'm surrendering it all to God. I've done my part, a very small part and now I'm totally surrendering it all to him no matter what the outcome.
Time has it's funny ways of teaching us lessons.
GROWING in time has always been a drag for some people. The moment some people touch their 20's they start complaining each year going on to describe how many strands of snow white hair has popped out from their scalps. Honestly, I hate those comments. HATE it. Hahaha. Being dead honest. I don't see the horror of growing old or maybe just not yet. But for all I remember I had always wanted to be old. Ok, maybe the factor of humans being unthankful is played in here. When they are young, they want to be old, when they are old, they want to be young. Like, WAT THE HELL?!..But the process of GROWING in time has been, a bliss. Ok, maybe not, but you can't really put your finger to it when you really mature if you get what I mean? Before you know it, you've grown, you know? Yeah, you know.
WAITING in time has been the worst. Think back on those times where you've learned lessons through waiting. Waiting in silence. Waiting in darkness and fear. Humans have always been insecure from the brink of time. Adam and Eve were ashamed of their nakedness and confusion kicked in. We've always wanted to know the way, the plans, and the ultimate goal but never realising that we might have missed out the important lessons in life through the process of waiting. It kills to wait right? I've seen many IMPATIENT ones leaving the hall SO frequently that it irritated a few of us. But the worst is waiting for a time to pass. Waiting for an answer, for an uncertainty to be certified. We always look for the right answer. When we're waiting for the bus, we wait for the time the bus will arrive. When we're waiting for the TV Programme Desire:Table for Three, we wait for the right time it starts. Get my point here? Na, me neither, but point is, WE WAIT. (Duh~~)
RISING in time has been the ultimate goal. We fail in time don't we. Excuse is, we needed more time. But time is a fragment, a piece, a link, and probably the most priceless possesion one can ever have. So the time you pour into what ever you are absorbed in is where your heart's possesion lay. Whether it be your friends, studies, TV, porn or playing tennis, if you spend TIME there, well, may I say that there is your priority. Point is, WITH the time we spend in our priorities, are we RISING in it? Are we benefitting in it? Are we growing through it? Are we finding direction and purpose in it? I still remember extremely clearly about 2/3 years back, when I was still assisting Angeline Teh in the SS2 Secondary Cell then, she more or less repremanded me for i-can't-remember-what. But the thing that spoke to me till today from that verse she used was something I live to do now. "Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial". You bet, EVERYTHING IS PERMISSIBLE, like hell-yeah EVERYTHING..... BUT... BUT.. BUT.. BUT.. is EVERYTHING beneficial?
I guess the course of time has thought me tons. I would like to claim that I have came out victoriously from each experience but unfortunately I can't. I have made TONS and TONS of mistakes. But we can fail a 1,000,000,000 times but only succeed Once, isn't it? It aint over, I'm only at Fail no-21872349. Teach me. Teach me. Thats all I require. Teach me, Time.
Fact is, it is so easy to point out the failures in life, my regrets, my pain and scar but why? Why look at those when I can look forward. Don't like this philosophy? Live with it sucker! If you ain't looking forward, you can only be looking backwards. Boy, I can count with one hand how many of you would actually read till this line.
Here it is again. A crossroad. Probably the first of the many huge crossroads in life now. I'm faced with a dilemma for college. Help me with this. There are 2 scenarios. Choose the best.
Scenario A - Programme
Choice 1 : American Degree Programme (ADP)
Pros : Yeap, college. ADP. Why ADP? ADP allows me to take a diversified variety of subjects at a time. I will be able to do Drama, Psychology and even Biology while pursuing a business course with Communications, Specialist Mathematics and Economics. Get the picture? HUGE variety all at one point.
Cons : The ADP is a very FREEEE programme and I hate it! I hate living without direction or purpose everyday. I will have too much free time at hand and I hate it. (Sorry for sounding so errr hardworking?). Anothing this is that very few Australian Unis or UK Unis recognise the ADP except the USA. That would mean, I would HAVE to go the the States.
Choice 2 : South Australian Matriculation (SAM)
Pros : I won't have much free time conpared to ADP. Though I think it would waive on me through time, but for now, being free isn't an option. SAM is also WIDELY recognise in Australia and especially when I'm vying for Melbourne U.
Cons : Apparently, it can get quite hectic and academic. Constant hardwork and effort must be added to the pot to score well. Note: Entry for most Degree courses in Melbourne U requires an average of >80. Medical at Melbourne U is 99!!! A whopping 99!
Scenario B - Time of Entry
Choice A : January
Pros : I wont waste anytime. I would touch down from Japan on the 6th of January and for ADP it starts on the 8th and 3rd for SAM both at Taylors. School would start immediately.
Cons : It might be a bit heavy for my body right after the month long trip in Japan. I would also be late for SAM for the first few days which are crucial for new friendships and cliques to form.
Choice B March
Pros : I can join Benjo after his NS. We would go in college together though he has no idea what he wants to do. During the mean time, I was thinking of following my youth pastor, Ps. Julie on her hospital trips and even a missions trip to Indonesia in January. I would have time on my hand and I could even work in February to earn some bucks.
Cons : I would be on express class for SAM and a rush programme la. I would be late 1 whole term for ADP. In short, I'll be slow for no apparent reason just for missing the January intake.
So hows? Help me decide? I have got 11 days to decide. I will have to apply for college like, NOW if I want to go for January.
So yet again, John has loads of worries and thoughts on the back of his mind, but I can manage it. Life is full of decision making. Weeeeee... Seriously, anyone having a course on Decision Making in Life? I want to attend! But then again, we have sermons all through out the year.
Boy boy, one long post. Before I leave, I must say something. To all my friends, especially the ones in Form 5 and leaving, Au Revoir, Bon Voyage, Sayonara, Take care. My prayers are with you. Truly, I wish all the best to all my friends. I hold each and everyone of you dearly and closely to my heart. As we go our separate ways, I do hope our roots will always remain the same. So spread your wings and fly now. Fly high and touch the sky and stop not at the clouds but aim for the sun. Loving you all. Special shoutout to Poh Lynn who will be leaving soon, I've always like you as a person. You've steadfast on your principles and that is what is gonna bring you far in life. Cheers to you.
Ahh, how relieve after the long break. Watch out for more updates! Weee.. till then, I leave you with more pics. Oh and my first host will be in Himegi, Hyogo which is near Osaka. Map enclosed. Love ya'll!!!
With Love,
-jOhN "enjoying" LiM-
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Farewell, for now..
psss.. i sit behind.. wahahahah!Alas the moment hath arrive, to bid bitter farewells and blow goodbye kisses. The feeling didn't kick in to me that it was the last day of school until everyone was leaving. I won't look back now, not just yet.. Year 2006 is one - Undescribable year -. Wait for summary after Japan la. But for now, its farewell to dear Bloggy till after SPM. Loads has been happening in my mind, good and bad (mostly bad), but the hell you care.. Till SPM, here is a poem of thoughts..
My yesterdays are all boxed up,
Deeply put away,
Ending everything in abrupt,
Distancing thoughts of torns, Wishing it was the end of the darkened day
Loneliness has new meanings day by day,
But only to be granted to the weak, to one that knows no dirrection,
One that only seeks cover, protection and prayer,
Slowly diminishing every other person, only to be found trapped in one's own fears
Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
I end it here, wondering to regret or to forget?
To move on or be pushed on?
To carry through or to be dragged by a bull?
To choose life or death?
To scurry through memories that long should be forgotten,
To only be reminded I am always facing disappointment,
And that I am, a great Disappointment
ALL THE BEST MY FELLOW FRIENDS, MY HEARTIEST WISHES TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU SITTING FOR THE SPM!! GAMBATE!!
- random pics...sigh.. should have taken more pics :( sorry peeps -
Caryn, I know you read my blog, and yes, you do look good in this pic.. LOLz..
Jean Yi, on the other hand, doesn't read my blog, but you look good here too.. LoLz
-jOhN "pleeding" LiM-
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Hey excuse me
Hi my name is Bob and I work at my job
I make forty-some dollars a day
I used to be the man in my hometown
'til I started to lose my way
It all goes back to when I dropped out at school
Having fun, I was living the life
But now I got a problem with that little white rock
See I can put down the pipe
And...
And it's breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While my dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?
It is breaking me down
No more friend around...
And my dreams fall down...
Is anybody out there?
Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself...
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself
Losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way...
Can you help me find my way?
Oh my god please forgive me (father hear my pray)
'Cause I know I've done some wrong in this life
If I could do it all again
Have just one more chance
To take all those wrongs and make them right
Courtesy of Justin Timberlake - Losing My Way
Boo Ya! Nice song.. Love Justin Timberlake's music.. All of 'em!.. Must get FutureSex/LoveSounds liou... Wakakaka...
O M Gosh, the hols have been so................. o.O-ness.... ughh.... Can't describe it at all man.. sigh.. Anyway, did alot-alot of cycling and not to mention walking too.. Hehehe.. Been loving the moody weather.. Damn.. Hehehe.. Sigh, don't wanna type la.. Be good ya people ;) Love ya'll and appreciating each and everyone of you.. Sorry
-watashiwa "jOhN LiM" san-
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Read between the lines,
Now, you are wise to allign your eyes here,
You might understand just fine,
Or is it because of one's fate?
As the course of time shapes cultures and societies,
But allow me to share the secrets of my heart,
So may it shape the path of man and formalities,
Like how a father may care for a son,
May traditions and rules be broken,
Like how a mother may die for the family,
May ideas and mindsets be challenged,
That is how I care for you,
Let the matters of the heart be revealed,
I do not want to retrograde things further,
Let Lovers be plagued by troubles and worries,
I am never good at sophism,
So that Love may be shown through concern and merry,
So let me bring forth my point,
So that Love should not be bought by patronage and scurry,
I am clueless to what has been happening,
Thus let Love run free, Belittling space and matter,
So open my eyes, let me see, free me from these shackles,
Let not this paradox be dismayed or despised,
Baby, if I could, I would be your slave,
Because beneath it, lay true meaning and feeling
Forgive me, because of you, I would go down the grave..
OH This is Fun.. lolz.. Copyright ok!
-John Lim-
You may be surprise what people do out of boredom.. Take care comrades ;)
Fight the Good fight and Win it.. You never really lose until you give up..
Emmanuel,
-jOhN LiM-
Now, you are wise to allign your eyes here,
You might understand just fine,
Or is it because of one's fate?
As the course of time shapes cultures and societies,
But allow me to share the secrets of my heart,
So may it shape the path of man and formalities,
Like how a father may care for a son,
May traditions and rules be broken,
Like how a mother may die for the family,
May ideas and mindsets be challenged,
That is how I care for you,
Let the matters of the heart be revealed,
I do not want to retrograde things further,
Let Lovers be plagued by troubles and worries,
I am never good at sophism,
So that Love may be shown through concern and merry,
So let me bring forth my point,
So that Love should not be bought by patronage and scurry,
I am clueless to what has been happening,
Thus let Love run free, Belittling space and matter,
So open my eyes, let me see, free me from these shackles,
Let not this paradox be dismayed or despised,
Baby, if I could, I would be your slave,
Because beneath it, lay true meaning and feeling
Forgive me, because of you, I would go down the grave..
OH This is Fun.. lolz.. Copyright ok!
-John Lim-
You may be surprise what people do out of boredom.. Take care comrades ;)
Fight the Good fight and Win it.. You never really lose until you give up..
Emmanuel,
-jOhN LiM-
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Of God's Timing
You have no idea how God has been surprising me.
As you guys have been reading or just talking to me, you know I have been through some tough times, just discovering myself, worrying and so on. But point is, God has been perfect in His timing.
I have been really depending so much on my own strength so many times. I have relied on my own strength in the exams, friendships, work, on handling cell, my future, studies, plans and everything. I "calculate" so much on my next move that I get soooooo cooked up over everything that happens and because of that I worry so so so much. I worry about college, I worry about results... And worrying is a HUGE sign that I ain't putting my trust and faith in God.
Benjo always scold me and shout at me to stop calculating what will happn next, and its true. Had a good talk with my Youth Pastor this morning about where I am right now. She had call me up earlier during the week that she had just wanted to talk to see how I am doing. I was really confused then but now it is all coming clear. There were some things in my life I had to get rid of immediately and God was speaking so clearly, but I was blinded by my pride.
Two things that have been highlighted the past weeks:
1. My Pride
2. My lack of Trust in God
There are so many incidents I can mention that God was trying to humble me, but i never got the hint. So he brought forth a huge hammer to nail me down. As some of you might know, I recently applied for a scholarship with HELP Uni for my Pre-U. I got shortlisted for the interviews but however at the interview I was turned down. It was an extremely painful humbling process. Well, some of you might think its really nothing, but I was really counting on it. Firstly, of course I want to help my parents but lightening the burden. Secondly, SO many of us from my school went for it and I THOUGHT that if I didn't get it it would be extremely humiliating. Yes, some of you might think it is dumb now, but yeah, pride, you see? The other lesson I've learned from this experience is to totally rely on God. See, I depend so much on my own strength that I didn't surrender it to God. And if I had made it through the interview, I would have thought I made it on my own. And that is not what God intends. He has plans for my future, as well as yours, but the only things He wants is my trust and whole reliance on Him.
See, even by that small lesson I've learned so much. Its waking up time. Its only the first lesson to be learnt and if I don't, it is bound to repeat itself in a bigger way. All these time, I was thinking that I was walking alone, but I always had God by my side, my family, and my friends, Benjo, En En, Vinz, Xiangz, Jo Jo, Vickz, and soooo many more that have been there by my side.
God just has His way in speaking to you through people, angels. Benjoz was just self professing that he was an Angelic Benjo :P Aren't you glad sometimes that you can be there for people when they are in need?
I was just so tired of feeling so down and sick these past few nights and went to my Dad's Personal Library and grabbed any book that looked appealing. My hands went straight for the book that said "Be a People Person" - John C. Maxwell. I've always like being a people person. But I had just been telling my friends, I have recently develop a characteristc that is not too good. I've grown to be a people pleaser. It may sound as if it is a good thing, but in actual fact, it isn't. At one point, I craved to pleasseee people so much that I neglect my own needs. I want to be "in" and "hip" that I change to be.... Weird?... But it didn't work out man. So I decided to be become a People Person instead. Let me not write the whole book now, but it really did encourage me. Let me just highlight that highlights that spoke to me.
"The golden rule is putting yourself in someone else's place instead of putting them in their place" - Relate to them
"Treat others like how you want to be treated"
"Determine not to be a reactor but an initiator... You need not react to circumstances but turn it around"
"Appreciate, Forgive and Listen to others.." Something I am still learning..
"Charisma = Concern, Help, Action, Results, Influence, Sensitivity, Motivation, Affirmation"
"You can't always control what happens to you, but you can control what happens in you"
Lessons well learned......... I'm learning, so teach me, please....
Good night,
-jOhN "learning" LiM-
As you guys have been reading or just talking to me, you know I have been through some tough times, just discovering myself, worrying and so on. But point is, God has been perfect in His timing.
I have been really depending so much on my own strength so many times. I have relied on my own strength in the exams, friendships, work, on handling cell, my future, studies, plans and everything. I "calculate" so much on my next move that I get soooooo cooked up over everything that happens and because of that I worry so so so much. I worry about college, I worry about results... And worrying is a HUGE sign that I ain't putting my trust and faith in God.
Benjo always scold me and shout at me to stop calculating what will happn next, and its true. Had a good talk with my Youth Pastor this morning about where I am right now. She had call me up earlier during the week that she had just wanted to talk to see how I am doing. I was really confused then but now it is all coming clear. There were some things in my life I had to get rid of immediately and God was speaking so clearly, but I was blinded by my pride.
Two things that have been highlighted the past weeks:
1. My Pride
2. My lack of Trust in God
There are so many incidents I can mention that God was trying to humble me, but i never got the hint. So he brought forth a huge hammer to nail me down. As some of you might know, I recently applied for a scholarship with HELP Uni for my Pre-U. I got shortlisted for the interviews but however at the interview I was turned down. It was an extremely painful humbling process. Well, some of you might think its really nothing, but I was really counting on it. Firstly, of course I want to help my parents but lightening the burden. Secondly, SO many of us from my school went for it and I THOUGHT that if I didn't get it it would be extremely humiliating. Yes, some of you might think it is dumb now, but yeah, pride, you see? The other lesson I've learned from this experience is to totally rely on God. See, I depend so much on my own strength that I didn't surrender it to God. And if I had made it through the interview, I would have thought I made it on my own. And that is not what God intends. He has plans for my future, as well as yours, but the only things He wants is my trust and whole reliance on Him.
See, even by that small lesson I've learned so much. Its waking up time. Its only the first lesson to be learnt and if I don't, it is bound to repeat itself in a bigger way. All these time, I was thinking that I was walking alone, but I always had God by my side, my family, and my friends, Benjo, En En, Vinz, Xiangz, Jo Jo, Vickz, and soooo many more that have been there by my side.
God just has His way in speaking to you through people, angels. Benjoz was just self professing that he was an Angelic Benjo :P Aren't you glad sometimes that you can be there for people when they are in need?
I was just so tired of feeling so down and sick these past few nights and went to my Dad's Personal Library and grabbed any book that looked appealing. My hands went straight for the book that said "Be a People Person" - John C. Maxwell. I've always like being a people person. But I had just been telling my friends, I have recently develop a characteristc that is not too good. I've grown to be a people pleaser. It may sound as if it is a good thing, but in actual fact, it isn't. At one point, I craved to pleasseee people so much that I neglect my own needs. I want to be "in" and "hip" that I change to be.... Weird?... But it didn't work out man. So I decided to be become a People Person instead. Let me not write the whole book now, but it really did encourage me. Let me just highlight that highlights that spoke to me.
"The golden rule is putting yourself in someone else's place instead of putting them in their place" - Relate to them
"Treat others like how you want to be treated"
"Determine not to be a reactor but an initiator... You need not react to circumstances but turn it around"
"Appreciate, Forgive and Listen to others.." Something I am still learning..
"Charisma = Concern, Help, Action, Results, Influence, Sensitivity, Motivation, Affirmation"
"You can't always control what happens to you, but you can control what happens in you"
Lessons well learned......... I'm learning, so teach me, please....
Good night,
-jOhN "learning" LiM-
Friday, October 13, 2006
Dear Readers,
Wassuup Hommiess... How ya Uncle n Aunties doin~? A lil shoutout for those sitting for the SPM in a month's time, ALL THE BEST PEEPS!!.. KEEP IT COMING, PUSH IT TO THE LIMITS, CHALLENGE YOURSELF, and BEAT THOSE SUCKAs! Wooops.. HAHAHHA.. Anyway, well, life is as it is.
I guess you guys are smart enough to know that I ain't doing too well coping with everything around me lately. Pressures, studies, time, friendship, and everything... But I guess its time i step up to it, accept whatever the circumstances and MOVE ON! Really... I had a good conversation with my sis in Perth one night. Shoutout: I LOVE YOU!
She was totally at my position at her age, ok well maybe later. But point is, she totally understood me. You know, humans are just weird. We just want to be accepted, understood, supported, loved, cared for, given attention and praised. I'm not ashamed to admit, yes, I do at a certain extend want to be accepted as well. Its just so natural. Everyone needs it, acceptance and just not to be ridiculed. Even Mr. Amara needs some sort of encouragement man. C'mon. Thats why I'm planning to get really nice small cute stuff for ALL my teachers from Form 1 to Form 5 from Japan to give them when I get back in January. They deserve it. I was just telling Isaac, even the lousiest of teachers need some kind of encouragement. It would have been unfortunate that I have not benefitted from some of these sucky teachers but who knows, maybe because of these small gift of appreciation, their future students might just benefit from it. ANYWAY, point is, we as humans, want to love and vice versa. Quote from the Moulin Rouge which by the way is an excellent show "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return"... Oh boy, I can go on about how I feel about that statement...
But Point is, if you haven't realised, John has certainly change and I do acknowledge that some of you have even came up to me and told me so. I do realise the change in me as well. Time has really taken a toll on me and I have been really, different, in the way I view things, express myself, feel about myself, and how I just behave. But see, the point I'm writting all these down is to record my progress. Don't forget, the point of this blog was to just simply jot down the little baby steps that I have been taking. It is really different. I was just browsing my previous post one night I realised how Iv've changed, first physically from the pictures, mentally, from my view and thoughts, and even my writting. But yes, to just simply record down my development. I want to help others. I want to be honest here so that any of you that browse through the post and feel the way I am will be encouraged that, you are not alone.
I face challenges too. Temptations. Compromise. Hurts. Rejection. Defamation. Failure. Loneliness. And boy oh boy I had a tough time getting out of all these pot holes. But I guess life is all about these lessons. Getting up and standing tall once again to really just pull yourself out from the failure. We can NEVER run away from problems, so why still run. Face it, and hit it hard. Hit it hard that it will never come back again. I'm still learning. It will never be easy. But like the old saying goes, what don't kill you will only make you stronger. I guess God has a purpose for me to feel these way. The only thing I can tell myself now is that if I can't handle these things now, I'll crumble in the waves of the world.
My God-Bro mentioned the other day that if it was not because of all his challenges that he faced when things were tough, he wouldn't be standing strong and even encouraging me today. He understood me when I said that God is just silent. He felt the same way at a point. He felt as though God had just abandon him. I've thought of things like these before, that God is deaf, He doesn't care, and so on. My sis even felt that way. But now when I look a little back into time, I realised that I just ain't relying on God. I just ain't doing the right thing. We say it too often that I'm gonna Trust God, I'm gonna rely on Him, but we ain't Trusting him fully with all we got, nope, we ain't trusting God with all our heart. And until I do that, I will never truly understand His riches.
I really don't know where this whole post came from but it sure is fresh air from the previous emo posts. Don't you just get sick sometimes sinking in the shit you're in? I got sick of it, just dwelling on the dark side. Starting over, Getting up, Moving on............ John now molded by the phase of time..........
Not denying that there are still things that are not resolved, but everything is going on hold now, my emotions, my thoughts...... because SPM IS IN A MONTHS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaha.. well... But the greatest thing about all these is always having a Best Friend by your side. Someone to always be by your side. Someone that will "swt" at your dumb messages. Someone to sneak out with you late night. Someone to have makan with when you're all alone and hungry. When you're feeling all emo. These past few weeks when I was really really emo like probably every night, Ben sticked with me. Haha, and boy I was blind not to realise. Its weird that people really don't know how to appreciate things only when they are shaken. He has always been there. Always. And how stupid was I to still complain and whine when all attention was given to me. Every single attention was given to me but I was so blinded with my selfishness that I fail to see how much the people around me actually truly cared for me. You know, sometimes, when we are so blinded in our selfishness, we really dunno how to appreciate how much people care for us. How much our loved ones really love us and care for us. We get so uptide and cooked up with only OURSELVES that we really ignore others. How much love and concern they've shown. Boy oh boy, just how different are we people. Just by expressing ourselves. Expressing love, care and concern. So many different ways.
Oh how comlpex we are as human beings. Just the way we think, the way we speak and express ourselves. Its all in the mind. The Battlefield of the Mind. I'm getting so interested in the behaviour of people.. Hmmm... I'm discovering my love for psychology now.. hahah... good night people..
Bon Voyage,
-jOhN "changed" LiM-
PS: Thanx Benjo~ :)
Wassuup Hommiess... How ya Uncle n Aunties doin~? A lil shoutout for those sitting for the SPM in a month's time, ALL THE BEST PEEPS!!.. KEEP IT COMING, PUSH IT TO THE LIMITS, CHALLENGE YOURSELF, and BEAT THOSE SUCKAs! Wooops.. HAHAHHA.. Anyway, well, life is as it is.
I guess you guys are smart enough to know that I ain't doing too well coping with everything around me lately. Pressures, studies, time, friendship, and everything... But I guess its time i step up to it, accept whatever the circumstances and MOVE ON! Really... I had a good conversation with my sis in Perth one night. Shoutout: I LOVE YOU!
She was totally at my position at her age, ok well maybe later. But point is, she totally understood me. You know, humans are just weird. We just want to be accepted, understood, supported, loved, cared for, given attention and praised. I'm not ashamed to admit, yes, I do at a certain extend want to be accepted as well. Its just so natural. Everyone needs it, acceptance and just not to be ridiculed. Even Mr. Amara needs some sort of encouragement man. C'mon. Thats why I'm planning to get really nice small cute stuff for ALL my teachers from Form 1 to Form 5 from Japan to give them when I get back in January. They deserve it. I was just telling Isaac, even the lousiest of teachers need some kind of encouragement. It would have been unfortunate that I have not benefitted from some of these sucky teachers but who knows, maybe because of these small gift of appreciation, their future students might just benefit from it. ANYWAY, point is, we as humans, want to love and vice versa. Quote from the Moulin Rouge which by the way is an excellent show "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return"... Oh boy, I can go on about how I feel about that statement...
But Point is, if you haven't realised, John has certainly change and I do acknowledge that some of you have even came up to me and told me so. I do realise the change in me as well. Time has really taken a toll on me and I have been really, different, in the way I view things, express myself, feel about myself, and how I just behave. But see, the point I'm writting all these down is to record my progress. Don't forget, the point of this blog was to just simply jot down the little baby steps that I have been taking. It is really different. I was just browsing my previous post one night I realised how Iv've changed, first physically from the pictures, mentally, from my view and thoughts, and even my writting. But yes, to just simply record down my development. I want to help others. I want to be honest here so that any of you that browse through the post and feel the way I am will be encouraged that, you are not alone.
I face challenges too. Temptations. Compromise. Hurts. Rejection. Defamation. Failure. Loneliness. And boy oh boy I had a tough time getting out of all these pot holes. But I guess life is all about these lessons. Getting up and standing tall once again to really just pull yourself out from the failure. We can NEVER run away from problems, so why still run. Face it, and hit it hard. Hit it hard that it will never come back again. I'm still learning. It will never be easy. But like the old saying goes, what don't kill you will only make you stronger. I guess God has a purpose for me to feel these way. The only thing I can tell myself now is that if I can't handle these things now, I'll crumble in the waves of the world.
My God-Bro mentioned the other day that if it was not because of all his challenges that he faced when things were tough, he wouldn't be standing strong and even encouraging me today. He understood me when I said that God is just silent. He felt the same way at a point. He felt as though God had just abandon him. I've thought of things like these before, that God is deaf, He doesn't care, and so on. My sis even felt that way. But now when I look a little back into time, I realised that I just ain't relying on God. I just ain't doing the right thing. We say it too often that I'm gonna Trust God, I'm gonna rely on Him, but we ain't Trusting him fully with all we got, nope, we ain't trusting God with all our heart. And until I do that, I will never truly understand His riches.
I really don't know where this whole post came from but it sure is fresh air from the previous emo posts. Don't you just get sick sometimes sinking in the shit you're in? I got sick of it, just dwelling on the dark side. Starting over, Getting up, Moving on............ John now molded by the phase of time..........
Not denying that there are still things that are not resolved, but everything is going on hold now, my emotions, my thoughts...... because SPM IS IN A MONTHS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaha.. well... But the greatest thing about all these is always having a Best Friend by your side. Someone to always be by your side. Someone that will "swt" at your dumb messages. Someone to sneak out with you late night. Someone to have makan with when you're all alone and hungry. When you're feeling all emo. These past few weeks when I was really really emo like probably every night, Ben sticked with me. Haha, and boy I was blind not to realise. Its weird that people really don't know how to appreciate things only when they are shaken. He has always been there. Always. And how stupid was I to still complain and whine when all attention was given to me. Every single attention was given to me but I was so blinded with my selfishness that I fail to see how much the people around me actually truly cared for me. You know, sometimes, when we are so blinded in our selfishness, we really dunno how to appreciate how much people care for us. How much our loved ones really love us and care for us. We get so uptide and cooked up with only OURSELVES that we really ignore others. How much love and concern they've shown. Boy oh boy, just how different are we people. Just by expressing ourselves. Expressing love, care and concern. So many different ways.
Oh how comlpex we are as human beings. Just the way we think, the way we speak and express ourselves. Its all in the mind. The Battlefield of the Mind. I'm getting so interested in the behaviour of people.. Hmmm... I'm discovering my love for psychology now.. hahah... good night people..
Bon Voyage,
-jOhN "changed" LiM-
PS: Thanx Benjo~ :)
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Of a Dumbass Prank..
Greetings once again. How ya'll? Hope everyone is doing better than me. LOLz. Anyways, regarding the heading, well, this was what happened.
So, yet again after being FFK-ed by Xiang and Isaac, Ernie, Benjoz and I was left to go drink by ourselves. After picking those 2 assholes, we went for a drink at Ming Tien. Surprisingly, I met my tennis coach there with a few chiqs at his side. I was extremely reluctant to say hi considering the fact I avoid his phone calls so often. It is unfortunate that the exams have waived me down till I have to abandon tennis. I promise after getting back from Japan I will resume my lessons. Till then, sayonara. Anyway, so Ernie wanted to drive my car back home. Me being a push-over allowed him to take the wheel. Alright, so I happily sat behind to let Benjoz enjoy himself in the front seat. However Benjoz refuse to sit in front and demanded I sat in front before he walked home. At that moment my ass felt heavy, so, I didnt budge. Benjoz then stormed off. I was happily getting comfortable with my seat while Ern adjusted his seat. So, after some time, Ben had left for some time now. Ern took his sweet time driving around. Soon after we decided to look for Benjo. Fine, we went straight to SS2 area. We looked around for a moment before we decided to turn back into Megah area. As you can read, we fail to find that rascal. Ok, fine. Ern didn't really want to care anymore and wanted to test the abilities of my CLK (Cute Little Kelisa). So we "fei che" (fly car) on the LDP probably reaching at least 110 km/h. He had no doubts that it is a good car. Ngek ngekz, just like the driver ;). Anyway, we decided to wait outside Ben's house for him to come back.
We quietly parked the car and offed the lights and observed the surroundings. We noticed that the doors were open and Benjoz hadn't reached home. So we continued waiting. After a little while Ern had to go back. But we took a last round before leaving. But by the second time we came around, the doors were closed and the slippers were all over. We KNEW Ben was home. So we decided to message him. The twist was, I was to say that I had already sent Ernnie home and I was searching for Ben all alone all these while. Benjoz reacted back asking if I was sure that Ern was really back home. And yes, I lied that Ern was already home. So, like the typical Ben, he just had to hit back on me. Ok, Fine. After settling in my heart that Ben was safely home, we left for Ern's home. We stopped outside Ern's house and chatted for some time. Was really good time getting to know Ern a lil more, NOT in the physical way :P, but it wouldn't be a problem if I could (Hahaha). My bladder was darn full in the car. Anyway, I decided to go into his house and use his toilet. Got carried away and soon enough we were online. Met Benjoz online and this was where the drama began.
Immediately when Ern went online first Ben alarmed him that his phone got stolen. Yes, we knew it was bullshit. But soon after Xiang came messaging saying that Benjoz had just got his phone stolen. So were like, WTH? Benjoz started being pissed and told us what had happened. I was really unsure at that time whether it was true. After much deliberation between Ern and I, Ern decided to call him. Little that I know, it was going to be a big hoax. Fine, so Ern called and told me that he had really lost his phone! This was where I went, SHIT HEAD!... Ben's complaints and sigh-ing became more real and convincing. At this moment, I was..... SHITTY. I was frozen like SHOCKED, STUNNED, REGRETFUL. Story has it that as soon as Ern and I left his home, Benjoz got to his gate and suddenly a robber came and took his phone and 50 bucks. Mind you, Benjoz and I just got our new phone together a week ago. Yes, and it is darn expensive and new. So I was freaking out in Ern's house while he was, errr.. somehow pretty occupied. Hmmm... I wonder why~ Anyway, my heart was pounding like a locomotive train, beating to the song of a thousand screams. I was darn scared. My mind was running, that if he had lost his phone, what could have happened, his mom would blame me cause i allowed him to walk back, his aunty would be darn pissed cause she got him the new phone, and I was even thinkin of giving mine to him. My mind was going wild. But I was darn thankful that Ben was safe. Ok, fine. I was freaking out.
SUDDENLY, Benjoz said there was someone outside his house. Well, APPARENTLY, the robber had been insaf and came to return the ****ing phone and his 50 bucks. Boy oh boy, at that moment, MY MIND WENT, KAPAU?!??!?!! WTH?!! At that moment I knew it was all fake. Ern burst in laughter, Ben finally admitted it was fake. I went into a frenzy. I felt, so lost, didn't know how to react, my emotions were soooooooo mixed when he told me that his phone got stolen and now he's telling me he got it back and it was all fake. I went crazy. Benjoz started thanking Ern and Xiang for sticking with the plan. WHAT FISHING PLAN?!?!?!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I started raping Ern at that moment. Felt so cheated man. A part of me was sooo relieved that it wasn't true.
And the rest is history. Boy, they sure know how to fool John. I'm just so dumb, naive, useless, stupid and then list goes on.
Well, tonight had a small gathering for the Mid-Autumn Festival, or in other words, we went out to play lantern ;) Haze was terrible but we had good fun ;) Cheers to you people!
Take care everyone, hope you aren't facing what I am right now. Life still a mess, but well, MOVE ALONG MAN~
-jOhN "freak" LiM-
So, yet again after being FFK-ed by Xiang and Isaac, Ernie, Benjoz and I was left to go drink by ourselves. After picking those 2 assholes, we went for a drink at Ming Tien. Surprisingly, I met my tennis coach there with a few chiqs at his side. I was extremely reluctant to say hi considering the fact I avoid his phone calls so often. It is unfortunate that the exams have waived me down till I have to abandon tennis. I promise after getting back from Japan I will resume my lessons. Till then, sayonara. Anyway, so Ernie wanted to drive my car back home. Me being a push-over allowed him to take the wheel. Alright, so I happily sat behind to let Benjoz enjoy himself in the front seat. However Benjoz refuse to sit in front and demanded I sat in front before he walked home. At that moment my ass felt heavy, so, I didnt budge. Benjoz then stormed off. I was happily getting comfortable with my seat while Ern adjusted his seat. So, after some time, Ben had left for some time now. Ern took his sweet time driving around. Soon after we decided to look for Benjo. Fine, we went straight to SS2 area. We looked around for a moment before we decided to turn back into Megah area. As you can read, we fail to find that rascal. Ok, fine. Ern didn't really want to care anymore and wanted to test the abilities of my CLK (Cute Little Kelisa). So we "fei che" (fly car) on the LDP probably reaching at least 110 km/h. He had no doubts that it is a good car. Ngek ngekz, just like the driver ;). Anyway, we decided to wait outside Ben's house for him to come back.
We quietly parked the car and offed the lights and observed the surroundings. We noticed that the doors were open and Benjoz hadn't reached home. So we continued waiting. After a little while Ern had to go back. But we took a last round before leaving. But by the second time we came around, the doors were closed and the slippers were all over. We KNEW Ben was home. So we decided to message him. The twist was, I was to say that I had already sent Ernnie home and I was searching for Ben all alone all these while. Benjoz reacted back asking if I was sure that Ern was really back home. And yes, I lied that Ern was already home. So, like the typical Ben, he just had to hit back on me. Ok, Fine. After settling in my heart that Ben was safely home, we left for Ern's home. We stopped outside Ern's house and chatted for some time. Was really good time getting to know Ern a lil more, NOT in the physical way :P, but it wouldn't be a problem if I could (Hahaha). My bladder was darn full in the car. Anyway, I decided to go into his house and use his toilet. Got carried away and soon enough we were online. Met Benjoz online and this was where the drama began.
Immediately when Ern went online first Ben alarmed him that his phone got stolen. Yes, we knew it was bullshit. But soon after Xiang came messaging saying that Benjoz had just got his phone stolen. So were like, WTH? Benjoz started being pissed and told us what had happened. I was really unsure at that time whether it was true. After much deliberation between Ern and I, Ern decided to call him. Little that I know, it was going to be a big hoax. Fine, so Ern called and told me that he had really lost his phone! This was where I went, SHIT HEAD!... Ben's complaints and sigh-ing became more real and convincing. At this moment, I was..... SHITTY. I was frozen like SHOCKED, STUNNED, REGRETFUL. Story has it that as soon as Ern and I left his home, Benjoz got to his gate and suddenly a robber came and took his phone and 50 bucks. Mind you, Benjoz and I just got our new phone together a week ago. Yes, and it is darn expensive and new. So I was freaking out in Ern's house while he was, errr.. somehow pretty occupied. Hmmm... I wonder why~ Anyway, my heart was pounding like a locomotive train, beating to the song of a thousand screams. I was darn scared. My mind was running, that if he had lost his phone, what could have happened, his mom would blame me cause i allowed him to walk back, his aunty would be darn pissed cause she got him the new phone, and I was even thinkin of giving mine to him. My mind was going wild. But I was darn thankful that Ben was safe. Ok, fine. I was freaking out.
SUDDENLY, Benjoz said there was someone outside his house. Well, APPARENTLY, the robber had been insaf and came to return the ****ing phone and his 50 bucks. Boy oh boy, at that moment, MY MIND WENT, KAPAU?!??!?!! WTH?!! At that moment I knew it was all fake. Ern burst in laughter, Ben finally admitted it was fake. I went into a frenzy. I felt, so lost, didn't know how to react, my emotions were soooooooo mixed when he told me that his phone got stolen and now he's telling me he got it back and it was all fake. I went crazy. Benjoz started thanking Ern and Xiang for sticking with the plan. WHAT FISHING PLAN?!?!?!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I started raping Ern at that moment. Felt so cheated man. A part of me was sooo relieved that it wasn't true.
And the rest is history. Boy, they sure know how to fool John. I'm just so dumb, naive, useless, stupid and then list goes on.
Well, tonight had a small gathering for the Mid-Autumn Festival, or in other words, we went out to play lantern ;) Haze was terrible but we had good fun ;) Cheers to you people!
Take care everyone, hope you aren't facing what I am right now. Life still a mess, but well, MOVE ALONG MAN~
-jOhN "freak" LiM-
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Of Earthly Bonds..
Greetings to all readers,
First, I have to pour cold water over your kettle because Paul Moss has NOT replied. It is disappointing. But well, his reply ain't everything. To update you guys a lil on what has been going on, allow me to begin with my exams. Exams started last last Monday and is coming to an end this Monday. To my joy it has been extremely quick that it has ended in a blink of an eye, however it has been a disaster that I had screwed up my Chemistry paper. Chemistry has been a disappointment. Last year I was doing extremely well for Chemistry. I have been getting above 80 last year but this year, I GOT A F***IN C for my Chemistry! Yes, it was the few C's in my life I have every gotten other than DUMBASS ART~. ANYHOW, I screwed up my Chemistry AGAIN, and ironicly, of all sciences, I ENJOY Chemistry the BEST. I least enjoy Physics, but I score the best at it. WTH~. Dunno la. But seriously, I am NOT here to condamn anyone. If you feel insulted that I am frustrated I got a C, please, don't. Its just everyone has different standards and I know I can do better for my chemistry and I have a certain standard I have to live up to especially not to disppoint MYSELF and maybe Pn. Liew (my tuition teacher).
But enough of complaining, other than that, exam has been so much of a relief compared to the Mid Term.
OK, enough of EXAMS, cut the crap and I'm going to the cheesy details on John's Life now.
First, I have to pour cold water over your kettle because Paul Moss has NOT replied. It is disappointing. But well, his reply ain't everything. To update you guys a lil on what has been going on, allow me to begin with my exams. Exams started last last Monday and is coming to an end this Monday. To my joy it has been extremely quick that it has ended in a blink of an eye, however it has been a disaster that I had screwed up my Chemistry paper. Chemistry has been a disappointment. Last year I was doing extremely well for Chemistry. I have been getting above 80 last year but this year, I GOT A F***IN C for my Chemistry! Yes, it was the few C's in my life I have every gotten other than DUMBASS ART~. ANYHOW, I screwed up my Chemistry AGAIN, and ironicly, of all sciences, I ENJOY Chemistry the BEST. I least enjoy Physics, but I score the best at it. WTH~. Dunno la. But seriously, I am NOT here to condamn anyone. If you feel insulted that I am frustrated I got a C, please, don't. Its just everyone has different standards and I know I can do better for my chemistry and I have a certain standard I have to live up to especially not to disppoint MYSELF and maybe Pn. Liew (my tuition teacher).
But enough of complaining, other than that, exam has been so much of a relief compared to the Mid Term.
OK, enough of EXAMS, cut the crap and I'm going to the cheesy details on John's Life now.
WARNING! EMO Post ahead!
Went for the movies tonight with Dear Benjoz and Ernie. Picked them up and left for 1U to catch You, Me and Dupree. I have to say it is an especially entertaining movie. I shall not spoil the movie for you here, but I'm just highlighting the gist of the movie. Unlike any other movies that promote sex, violence, horror and romance, this one was particularly special. What stood out to me most was Friendship.
Yeap, You bet it, Friendship. How many out there can say now that "You have a Real Best Friend". The way Carl and Dupree placed friendship in their life was such an envy to me. I really don't know why. I think I have been through this before previously on other posts. But such a loneliness shadowed my heart as we journied back.I just felt all alone in this big world.
I'm going to be very honest right now. I warn you, some of my remarks might be selfish, rude, childish, senseless, brave, ironic and silly but I am who I am.
I don't know about you, but I don't think I ever had someone that liked me as much as I liked that person. Note: All "like" words used from now on is not related to romantic likes but friendship "likes" ok? I dunno. Its like everything I note someone that probably things might go well with the both of us, somehow it always seem I'd be the one pushing for the friendship. It always feels like I am clapping my own hands and the other person is just not getting the hint that I'm interested to go forth with our friendship. Friendship requires trust, faith and honesty. It is selfish of me to say that sometimes I just want a return of the care and concern I pour out for the person but am I wrong? Am I wrong to say that everytime I share a secret of mine I quietly want you to share yours along with me? Am I wrong to say that everytime I cycle to your house, quietly, I would love you to surprise me as well? Am I wrong to say that everytime I "manja" with you, I secretly want you to "manja" back with me? I don't know if you're getting me here but, I just want something back in return. I just want acceptance, love, care and concern not in an extravagent way, but just in a still small ways, I see through it. I really do. I see through the small deeds, short messages, sincere smiles, corky teasing, light taps,wink of an eye. I see all these actions. Call me Homo or sensitive, I LIKE THE WAY I AM. I read people's actions and the slightest gestures and expressions will be analysed and evaluated by my neurons. I just can't help it. From the dinasaur days that I can remember, I have been evaluating the people around me. Weird? Well, I like it.
Ever wonder if anyone thinks about you? For my side, I think alot about people. I think alot about the people around me and especially the friends I like. I just wonder how they are doing or what they are doing sometimes. But somehow, I always feel, or know that maybe just no one does the same for me. I don't know why. Its dumb la, its like I "want" people to think about me like that, but when you just like someone, you will just naturally think about the person and I do think about the people I like. But somehow I just feel no one like me like I how I like them. Strong remark here but its true. Thats how I feel SOMETIMES.
I have been rather transparent tonight. I just like people to know the real me. No fakes, no lies. Just Me, John Lim Boon Oon. So now, whad'ya feel? I just feel like getting feedback. Are you like me? Or do you despise this post? Tag them on the Tag Board ;)
It has rather been an Emo night but well, we all go through our ups and downs right? ;) Its just my night. Leave ya with the lyrics of a song that I can relate to right now. 2 cents for those that can identify the song ;)
I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?'
Cause nothing's going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I...
I'm with youI'm with you
So anyone wants to be John's BestFriend now? :P
Signing off,
-jOhN "thinking" LiM-
Friday, September 01, 2006
Of One In A Million and My mail to Paul Moss..
Hey avid readers!
Considering how close my trials are, I was still watching One In A Million on Friday night. I had to take time off since tonight there was no cell so I had to see how was its progress and the standard of Malaysia. I was pleasently surprise by the determination I see. Though the quality ain't up to expectation but you have to admit, Malaysia is nuts to Americaphant. Anyway, I have to say Suki is an excellent singer. Really. Do take notice of her ;) Mark my words. I have ears (oh, so do You :P). Anyway, I was rather, how do I put it, errrr offended by Paul's remarks tonight. He was rather strong and frustrated by his remarks to the contestants. Almost all of them got slammed hard on the face. Really, he just threw rotten pizza at each contestant one after another and it got worst with smelly cheese on it. Well, anyway, it was entertaining seing Syafinaz fight with Paul. Really, I don't know what is his problem. He was ok last year with Malaysian Idol. But he got worst this year with OIAM. Probably he can't spend his precious Friday's at Zouk or so. But he was rude. And thats why i came up with a brilliant idea of writting Mr Paul a mail ;) Berikutnya adalah isi isi yang saya kupas daripadanya. Happy reading :-
Dear Paul Moss,
First of all I must thank you for making time to read this mail. My name is John Lim and I am a 17 year old guy from PJ. To cut the crap, I had tune in to 8TV just last night to see how One In A Million(OIAM) was progressing. It was interesting to see how the contestants have grown through each week. I have to admit I am not an avid view of OIAM every week because of circumstances however I have to say the contestants have certainly show determination and effort in their singing and performances each progressing week.
However, my main point of this mail is to politely highlight what I see as what is coming through in my screen regarding YOUR comments. It is rather transparent to see that you have shown much frustration in their performances. However I feel that it is taking a toll on the contestants. Yes, they ARE suppose to take the pressure and it is not an excuse and so on so forth because the industry is as such but your critiques have somehow come across as a Projection of Your frustration and anger. That is however, MY opinion of your comments. Probably it maybe be caused by stress, or personal reasons but if for any reason what I say is correct to a certain degree, I really do hope for your criticism to be more of Positive and Constructive criticism. Really, they do need encouragement and support too and especially from someone as such as You with some air-time included.
I honestly do not want to come across as correcting you or what-so-ever in any way because I am in no position but somehow I felt compelled to write this mail to you to address this issue. I respect you as a person and do agree with most of your comments however it need not come across as anger or such but encouragement and guidance from someone as experienced as you.
I do hope I have not offended you in anyway but at least caused you to ponder for a moment on my comments. I really do just want to help :) Please to address you, sir ;)
Yours Truly,
John Lim
(this mail is TOO modest :P)
That was my mail to him ;). I WILL POST the reply, IF he ever reads it~ I bet he gets at least 50 hate mails a week~ Hahahaha... Oh, and all the best for trials SPMers!!!...
A little update, Trials from 4th to 18th ;) Wish me all the best? HAHAHHA.. Muaxy people! Now back to the books!!
Emmanuel,
-jOhN "studying" LiM-
Considering how close my trials are, I was still watching One In A Million on Friday night. I had to take time off since tonight there was no cell so I had to see how was its progress and the standard of Malaysia. I was pleasently surprise by the determination I see. Though the quality ain't up to expectation but you have to admit, Malaysia is nuts to Americaphant. Anyway, I have to say Suki is an excellent singer. Really. Do take notice of her ;) Mark my words. I have ears (oh, so do You :P). Anyway, I was rather, how do I put it, errrr offended by Paul's remarks tonight. He was rather strong and frustrated by his remarks to the contestants. Almost all of them got slammed hard on the face. Really, he just threw rotten pizza at each contestant one after another and it got worst with smelly cheese on it. Well, anyway, it was entertaining seing Syafinaz fight with Paul. Really, I don't know what is his problem. He was ok last year with Malaysian Idol. But he got worst this year with OIAM. Probably he can't spend his precious Friday's at Zouk or so. But he was rude. And thats why i came up with a brilliant idea of writting Mr Paul a mail ;) Berikutnya adalah isi isi yang saya kupas daripadanya. Happy reading :-
Dear Paul Moss,
First of all I must thank you for making time to read this mail. My name is John Lim and I am a 17 year old guy from PJ. To cut the crap, I had tune in to 8TV just last night to see how One In A Million(OIAM) was progressing. It was interesting to see how the contestants have grown through each week. I have to admit I am not an avid view of OIAM every week because of circumstances however I have to say the contestants have certainly show determination and effort in their singing and performances each progressing week.
However, my main point of this mail is to politely highlight what I see as what is coming through in my screen regarding YOUR comments. It is rather transparent to see that you have shown much frustration in their performances. However I feel that it is taking a toll on the contestants. Yes, they ARE suppose to take the pressure and it is not an excuse and so on so forth because the industry is as such but your critiques have somehow come across as a Projection of Your frustration and anger. That is however, MY opinion of your comments. Probably it maybe be caused by stress, or personal reasons but if for any reason what I say is correct to a certain degree, I really do hope for your criticism to be more of Positive and Constructive criticism. Really, they do need encouragement and support too and especially from someone as such as You with some air-time included.
I honestly do not want to come across as correcting you or what-so-ever in any way because I am in no position but somehow I felt compelled to write this mail to you to address this issue. I respect you as a person and do agree with most of your comments however it need not come across as anger or such but encouragement and guidance from someone as experienced as you.
I do hope I have not offended you in anyway but at least caused you to ponder for a moment on my comments. I really do just want to help :) Please to address you, sir ;)
Yours Truly,
John Lim
(this mail is TOO modest :P)
That was my mail to him ;). I WILL POST the reply, IF he ever reads it~ I bet he gets at least 50 hate mails a week~ Hahahaha... Oh, and all the best for trials SPMers!!!...
A little update, Trials from 4th to 18th ;) Wish me all the best? HAHAHHA.. Muaxy people! Now back to the books!!
Emmanuel,
-jOhN "studying" LiM-
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Of Japan and its Wonders!
Woah, about a month now since Johnny has dropped by. Here goes..
Well the past week or so has been filed with soooooo many sweet memories of the most wonderful people from one of the most wonderful country! ;P Mind me, I'm totally, madly in Love with Japan!!!! Ahhh.. Anyway, so, Haruka arrived in Malaysia on the 2nd but only came over to my place on the 11th. The first place I brought her was a... erm... not-so-normal place to bring a foreigner plus when I barely knew her since she just stepped in my house. But anyway, guess what, I brought her to a funeral! Wahahaha.. I shouldn't be so happy about it la, but the Lions did mention we could bring them to our festivals and so I did. Err I didn't really know the guy that passed away, some 16 year old boy that died of brain cancer. Sad yes I know but this post isn't about him. Anyway, Haruka was extremely quiet but she was alright. Just getting use to my company.
The next day we got up for a Indian breakfast. The waiter at Kayu himself was intrigued by this Japanese girl. Anyway, after having ate good Roti Telur, I bumped into Jessica Lim, you know, the one that left for America? Did You know; somewhere in Primary our teachers mistaken our names John Lim Xi Ca and Jessica Lim Boon Oon :P Anyway, back to Haruka. Mum brought her to Curve in the afternoon while I studied. Got home and had a good night just talking about Japan. She gave us some gifts from the Lions Club from Japan and a map of Japan. So now I know where the bombs landed ;). Sunday was church day and hope she enjoyed it :P. Next, AT LAST I GOT TO GO AQUARIA! Met up with Kay Tze and Huan Nian and their Youth Exchangees (YE), Kasumi and Kimihito respectively. Had a good time looking at MERMAIDS! Yes, they do have mermaids. It was so funny. The highlight of the place was mermaids. I was passing a remark to Kay Tze, "People suppose to come here see fish, now everyone looking at human only". EVERYONE was snapping pictures with the mermaids, leaving the sharks to devour each other. Anyway, we were all so worn out by the end of the day. Had a good time getting the know Kasumi and Kimihito there :P
Well, I'm sure you're getting bored listening to every single detail here. I'll just highlight the highlights. Well for those that didn't have the opportunity to get to know Haruka, she is one pleasent girl. Really. SHE LOOKS LIKE GAN JO LIN! TWINS. She loves to laugh at me. She loves to tease me. She loves to bully me. She hates my driving. She likes Benjo. She likes Shoji. She can draw well. She likes man's perfume. She gave me RM70 for a bottle of man's perfume. She can't ice skate. She has big ****s. She brought RM700+ and a few thousand Yen to Malaysia. Her bag is FREAKING light. She plays Digimon well. She won Jo Lin in racing. She laughs really loud. She can be shy but deep inside she's a monster. Her headbutts are o.0" . She hates Malaysian rice. She doesn't like drinking water. She is the only child. The family picture that she sent was actually taken when she was 10 -.-". She is one mysterious girl. She brushes her teeth after every meal, yes, even breakfast. She walks slow and eat slow, GOSH, I can't stand that.
Hahaha.. well, I bet you know Haruka so much more now right? She is one nice girl. Will miss her la. Though I didn't shed a tear at the airport. Haruka was the first to cry and she cried damn loud and drama man. Hahahaha.. It just proved how nice a host i was ;P I was nice ok?! I skipped 4 days of school in a week for her!.. Hahaha.. Ok now, let your eyes rest. Oh, By the Way, I'M GOING JAPAN IN DECEMBER!!! ITS CONFIRMED!!! YES!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! AHHHHH DAISUKI JAPAN!!!!!!! SUGOII!!!!! MECHA SUGOII!!!!! I can't wait!!!.. Claim your Christmas presents :P Will spend my Christmas and New Years there. Leaving December 15 comin back Jan 6 ;) If you're gonna ask I have to confirm my participation before they allocate me to a host family. Till then, my hopes are Nagoya, Tokyo or Hokkaido!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee.... Cious people!! Oyasumi!! ;)
Sayonara,
-jOhN "hEnTai" LiM-
*you may be wondering why hentai is there, apparently Haruka gave me that nickname and all the Japanese YE's know me as Hentai. :P
Well the past week or so has been filed with soooooo many sweet memories of the most wonderful people from one of the most wonderful country! ;P Mind me, I'm totally, madly in Love with Japan!!!! Ahhh.. Anyway, so, Haruka arrived in Malaysia on the 2nd but only came over to my place on the 11th. The first place I brought her was a... erm... not-so-normal place to bring a foreigner plus when I barely knew her since she just stepped in my house. But anyway, guess what, I brought her to a funeral! Wahahaha.. I shouldn't be so happy about it la, but the Lions did mention we could bring them to our festivals and so I did. Err I didn't really know the guy that passed away, some 16 year old boy that died of brain cancer. Sad yes I know but this post isn't about him. Anyway, Haruka was extremely quiet but she was alright. Just getting use to my company.
The next day we got up for a Indian breakfast. The waiter at Kayu himself was intrigued by this Japanese girl. Anyway, after having ate good Roti Telur, I bumped into Jessica Lim, you know, the one that left for America? Did You know; somewhere in Primary our teachers mistaken our names John Lim Xi Ca and Jessica Lim Boon Oon :P Anyway, back to Haruka. Mum brought her to Curve in the afternoon while I studied. Got home and had a good night just talking about Japan. She gave us some gifts from the Lions Club from Japan and a map of Japan. So now I know where the bombs landed ;). Sunday was church day and hope she enjoyed it :P. Next, AT LAST I GOT TO GO AQUARIA! Met up with Kay Tze and Huan Nian and their Youth Exchangees (YE), Kasumi and Kimihito respectively. Had a good time looking at MERMAIDS! Yes, they do have mermaids. It was so funny. The highlight of the place was mermaids. I was passing a remark to Kay Tze, "People suppose to come here see fish, now everyone looking at human only". EVERYONE was snapping pictures with the mermaids, leaving the sharks to devour each other. Anyway, we were all so worn out by the end of the day. Had a good time getting the know Kasumi and Kimihito there :P
Well, I'm sure you're getting bored listening to every single detail here. I'll just highlight the highlights. Well for those that didn't have the opportunity to get to know Haruka, she is one pleasent girl. Really. SHE LOOKS LIKE GAN JO LIN! TWINS. She loves to laugh at me. She loves to tease me. She loves to bully me. She hates my driving. She likes Benjo. She likes Shoji. She can draw well. She likes man's perfume. She gave me RM70 for a bottle of man's perfume. She can't ice skate. She has big ****s. She brought RM700+ and a few thousand Yen to Malaysia. Her bag is FREAKING light. She plays Digimon well. She won Jo Lin in racing. She laughs really loud. She can be shy but deep inside she's a monster. Her headbutts are o.0" . She hates Malaysian rice. She doesn't like drinking water. She is the only child. The family picture that she sent was actually taken when she was 10 -.-". She is one mysterious girl. She brushes her teeth after every meal, yes, even breakfast. She walks slow and eat slow, GOSH, I can't stand that.
Hahaha.. well, I bet you know Haruka so much more now right? She is one nice girl. Will miss her la. Though I didn't shed a tear at the airport. Haruka was the first to cry and she cried damn loud and drama man. Hahahaha.. It just proved how nice a host i was ;P I was nice ok?! I skipped 4 days of school in a week for her!.. Hahaha.. Ok now, let your eyes rest. Oh, By the Way, I'M GOING JAPAN IN DECEMBER!!! ITS CONFIRMED!!! YES!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! AHHHHH DAISUKI JAPAN!!!!!!! SUGOII!!!!! MECHA SUGOII!!!!! I can't wait!!!.. Claim your Christmas presents :P Will spend my Christmas and New Years there. Leaving December 15 comin back Jan 6 ;) If you're gonna ask I have to confirm my participation before they allocate me to a host family. Till then, my hopes are Nagoya, Tokyo or Hokkaido!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEee.... Cious people!! Oyasumi!! ;)
Sayonara,
-jOhN "hEnTai" LiM-
*you may be wondering why hentai is there, apparently Haruka gave me that nickname and all the Japanese YE's know me as Hentai. :P
Friday, July 28, 2006
Of My years and time in the Prefect Board
Woah..... Ages since I've updated my beloved bloggy. Missed ya people. Well, I just update you guys on my recent happenings. Prefect's Installation just ended today. Performed with my band, "5 Prefects and A Drummer".. Lolz.. It was awesome! Just awesome! Love it. Our performance today was way better than our audition. Though some may complain it was a bit loud, its normal for rockers. Got so used to the enclosed noise we had in Adam's Jamming room. A shoutout of thanx to Adam for availing his house and equipment for us! LOLz. I'm already missing the late practices we had and crazy stuff we do and late night mamaking. Prefect's Install this year went very smoothly I suppose. It ends here man. 5 @#$%##$%% years! I've been wearing my tie every #*#$@% day of the year since the second week of school in Form 1. But the Prefect board has sure been apart of my adolescent life. I've truly learned so much from it. It has been the most beneficial club/society I have joined but it has also took up the most sacrifice and time. Cheers to the Prefect Board of SMK Taman SEA! From Gary Ee, Yung Tat, Ai Hsien, Huay Lian and now Ai Khim, the board has sure stepped up every year. I'm really glad I have been part of the EXCO of 2005/2006. Ah, damn, now I wished I had done more. Lolz.
Well, today's performance was weird. A highlight of my singing was when Caryn came up to give a flower and next for a dance. Though she didn't willingly come I'd really feel bad. Her Mom was there for God's sake with lil Xenneth. Caryn and I go a long way. No no, there was never anything between us, or well at least nothing could go on further between us (I'd wished). Had good chat with her on old times while practices for our installation was going on. Got to really know her in Form 2 when she was my faithful Treasurer. Yes, I did fall for her then. But I never had the guts to tell her. Why? Because she had Eric and Donovan by her side. Hahaha. This is the part where you go AWWWW... Hahaha.. We were laughing all about it. Now she knows I did like her before. We were saying also that if should anyone ask me whether am I gay, I am about to blame it on Caryn because she broke my heart. Really, even while talking to her bout it I was telling her how much I could remember those feelings I had for her. Gosh it seems to surreal. Ok, well she didn't break my heart on purpose but well, I was just let down la. But I'm treasuring my friendship I have with this sweet lady. If you ever read this girl, I must tell you, You will always have a special place in me Heart ;) (in a non-erotic/sexual/relationship-wise context). Have I mentioned that she has served as my "Ass" for the past year? Yes, My Faithful Assistant Director of Student Affairs Department. I had the opportunity to see her EVERY morning for the past year. (hmmm good thing or bad thing?). Well, time is gone now. Like they say, everything has its season and the season for Caryn is over (I guess? ).
Hmmmmm... Thinking about the Prefect Board, I guess most of my close friends are Prefects. Isaac, Jinny, Benjoz.... Sarah, Mary,Kean Sheng, Xi Voon... The prefect board is full of highly potential people that can rock the world man! Love ya'll Loads!! Damn... I thought I would never miss the prefect times, but now my feelings beg to differ. Oh well, Life has to go on...
After that Career Carnival in school the other day, I've been so confused of what am I to do in the future. Dad & Mom says would buy me car if I go Form 6 but I'm not going Form 6. They don't really mind me going college too la, but if given a choice of course they would love to save those extra bucks for a trip to the Maldives if not. Arghhhh... And even if I go college, what course should I do? ADP? A-Levels? SAM? CPU?... Sigh~~~
Oh, and last Thurdays I saved at least 3 lives! With what? With my BLOODY BLOOD! Yeap, you bet, I donated a pint of blood which could potentially save 3 people. It ain't a bad experience. It was fun instead. I really wanted to faint after that by getting up immediately. I rested for about 2 minutes before I stood up, earlier than the suggested time of 10 minutes in hopes I would feel dizzy and faint. I had never faint before and probably thought I could see the "light" if I spend a little time dozing off. The whole PBSM gang was with me the whole time to laugh along, Zhi Zhi, Caryn, Kel Vin, and Kar Chun. Hahaha. Great job guys! Weeee.. Can't wait to donate more blood soon. Teacher says guys should donate more often because guys don't have a "Automatic Flush System" like girls do every month ;P. So guys need to replenish clean blood. Hehehe.. Anyways, gotta go prepare for cell now. Hope to hear from ya'll soon! Muax!
Upcoming events :- CF Choir Prac, Leo Installation, Haruka's arrival, Farewell Dinner, TRIALS!
With Love,
-jOhN "mMmm" LiM-
Well, today's performance was weird. A highlight of my singing was when Caryn came up to give a flower and next for a dance. Though she didn't willingly come I'd really feel bad. Her Mom was there for God's sake with lil Xenneth. Caryn and I go a long way. No no, there was never anything between us, or well at least nothing could go on further between us (I'd wished). Had good chat with her on old times while practices for our installation was going on. Got to really know her in Form 2 when she was my faithful Treasurer. Yes, I did fall for her then. But I never had the guts to tell her. Why? Because she had Eric and Donovan by her side. Hahaha. This is the part where you go AWWWW... Hahaha.. We were laughing all about it. Now she knows I did like her before. We were saying also that if should anyone ask me whether am I gay, I am about to blame it on Caryn because she broke my heart. Really, even while talking to her bout it I was telling her how much I could remember those feelings I had for her. Gosh it seems to surreal. Ok, well she didn't break my heart on purpose but well, I was just let down la. But I'm treasuring my friendship I have with this sweet lady. If you ever read this girl, I must tell you, You will always have a special place in me Heart ;) (in a non-erotic/sexual/relationship-wise context). Have I mentioned that she has served as my "Ass" for the past year? Yes, My Faithful Assistant Director of Student Affairs Department. I had the opportunity to see her EVERY morning for the past year. (hmmm good thing or bad thing?). Well, time is gone now. Like they say, everything has its season and the season for Caryn is over (I guess? ).
Hmmmmm... Thinking about the Prefect Board, I guess most of my close friends are Prefects. Isaac, Jinny, Benjoz.... Sarah, Mary,Kean Sheng, Xi Voon... The prefect board is full of highly potential people that can rock the world man! Love ya'll Loads!! Damn... I thought I would never miss the prefect times, but now my feelings beg to differ. Oh well, Life has to go on...
After that Career Carnival in school the other day, I've been so confused of what am I to do in the future. Dad & Mom says would buy me car if I go Form 6 but I'm not going Form 6. They don't really mind me going college too la, but if given a choice of course they would love to save those extra bucks for a trip to the Maldives if not. Arghhhh... And even if I go college, what course should I do? ADP? A-Levels? SAM? CPU?... Sigh~~~
Oh, and last Thurdays I saved at least 3 lives! With what? With my BLOODY BLOOD! Yeap, you bet, I donated a pint of blood which could potentially save 3 people. It ain't a bad experience. It was fun instead. I really wanted to faint after that by getting up immediately. I rested for about 2 minutes before I stood up, earlier than the suggested time of 10 minutes in hopes I would feel dizzy and faint. I had never faint before and probably thought I could see the "light" if I spend a little time dozing off. The whole PBSM gang was with me the whole time to laugh along, Zhi Zhi, Caryn, Kel Vin, and Kar Chun. Hahaha. Great job guys! Weeee.. Can't wait to donate more blood soon. Teacher says guys should donate more often because guys don't have a "Automatic Flush System" like girls do every month ;P. So guys need to replenish clean blood. Hehehe.. Anyways, gotta go prepare for cell now. Hope to hear from ya'll soon! Muax!
Upcoming events :- CF Choir Prac, Leo Installation, Haruka's arrival, Farewell Dinner, TRIALS!
With Love,
-jOhN "mMmm" LiM-
Monday, July 17, 2006
Wazzzuuupsss Peeppsss of the Worlldd!..
LOLz.. woah.. its been some time now.. Hrmzzz.. Anyway update you a little on what has been happening. Well first of all, every Saturday of the month till August is taken up by something. First it was the Youth Exchange Interview and Leo High Tea last week, then Prefects High tea this week, then PBSM Install next week, then Leo Install the following week, then Bible Quiz at CHS the following week, then Japanese girl is at my place the next week, then Japanese girl is leaving the following week then the following week is the hols liou and after that is TRIALS!!! FISH!!.. So now how the HECK am I gonna study! You tell me?!... Arghhh.. Lolz.. But well, Have to live with it. Like what I said in my Scholarship Form that I applied for HELP, "I like pushing myself to the LIMITS"... I've reached ceiling high now. Banging my head each time my time is pulled to the maximum.
Other than that, I've been band practicing for the Prefect's Install with Mr. Mani, Isuck, Benjoz and Adam at his place. We've been rather productive. Not too bad. If you wanna know what songs we presenting, you have to come and see for yourself. Ngek ngek ngek. Hmmm.. PBSM Install is this weekend but I have yet to practice with Abigail on our song. AHH!! *Pulls pubic hair*... Hrmm..
With so many things on schedule again, I have to admit I have TOTALLY neglected my spiritual life. I've reached rock bottom man. You know they say that every part of your life is tied to your spiritual life so if it is not doing well, everything comes down along too. It is so true. I've been feeling rather lost and helpless with the circumstances around me. I'm trying to fight the feelings but its hard. God Help Me!.. Help me trust you again!...
Hmmm.. My post have been rather boring these days.. Will try la hor people..Will try to add some interesting pics and post sometime la.. ONE day~.. lolz..
jOhN
LOLz.. woah.. its been some time now.. Hrmzzz.. Anyway update you a little on what has been happening. Well first of all, every Saturday of the month till August is taken up by something. First it was the Youth Exchange Interview and Leo High Tea last week, then Prefects High tea this week, then PBSM Install next week, then Leo Install the following week, then Bible Quiz at CHS the following week, then Japanese girl is at my place the next week, then Japanese girl is leaving the following week then the following week is the hols liou and after that is TRIALS!!! FISH!!.. So now how the HECK am I gonna study! You tell me?!... Arghhh.. Lolz.. But well, Have to live with it. Like what I said in my Scholarship Form that I applied for HELP, "I like pushing myself to the LIMITS"... I've reached ceiling high now. Banging my head each time my time is pulled to the maximum.
Other than that, I've been band practicing for the Prefect's Install with Mr. Mani, Isuck, Benjoz and Adam at his place. We've been rather productive. Not too bad. If you wanna know what songs we presenting, you have to come and see for yourself. Ngek ngek ngek. Hmmm.. PBSM Install is this weekend but I have yet to practice with Abigail on our song. AHH!! *Pulls pubic hair*... Hrmm..
With so many things on schedule again, I have to admit I have TOTALLY neglected my spiritual life. I've reached rock bottom man. You know they say that every part of your life is tied to your spiritual life so if it is not doing well, everything comes down along too. It is so true. I've been feeling rather lost and helpless with the circumstances around me. I'm trying to fight the feelings but its hard. God Help Me!.. Help me trust you again!...
Hmmm.. My post have been rather boring these days.. Will try la hor people..Will try to add some interesting pics and post sometime la.. ONE day~.. lolz..
jOhN
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
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