Just a quick update here before I take rest for my flight to Zurich tomorrow.

Had a blast in Paris again. Went for more sightseing and SHOPPING this time ;) Muahaha. REAL shopping, in PARIS.. hahaha..

Got back from KL and headed straight to Swissohotel in Raffles City to celebrate beloved Lynn's birthday. They surprised her in the Fantastic hotel room. Spent the night there playing Taboo and having a great time.

Had a small dinner at home tonight. Cooked with my housemate Emily ;) Guess which dish I cooked? Hehehe. Hint: I cooked 2 of them :D *bangga*.. =.="" HAHAHAHAH..

Watched Quarantine with the rest after dinner and I DID NOT have a good time because the movie sucked so bad. Gosh, Don't even bother catching it. Urgh. Hahahaha

Thank God I got called up for Zurich tomorrow or else I'll just die at home on my 11 day standby. At least I'll earn something. Its snowing now in Zurich. The last time I checked the weather, it was -1 degrees. Time to put on my "pom-pom-puffed-up" winter jacket again ;) Hope the newbies on the flight would have some plan to sight see, or I'll just end up shopping in Zurich. Swiss Francs to the Singapore dollar isn't much difference anymore. Even the Euro went down. I love the Singapore Dollar. Its even stronger than the Aussie Dollar. And I multiply money like how Jesus multiplied the fish and bread if I convert back to the Malaysian Ringgit. Wahaha. Shit. I better get back down to earth.

Alrighty. Enjoy the pics while I cuddle myself up in my warm blanky in Zurich. Toodles ;) Gonna try to pick up some German while I'm there :)

-jOhN "auf weidersehen" LiM-

Good evening beautiful people!

It has certainly been a quiet day without my housemates around. Like how I was previously saying, I was on a 7 day standby and guess what, I was only called up for one pathetic flight, Colombo. I guess I won't be activated for my standby tomorrow as well. After that I have a KL turn where I fly to KL and DON'T get down from the plane and to Paris the day after that. Checked the weather recently and if I was not mistaken, it did say it was snowing for a day. Its gonna be freezing in Paris this time. The last time I went, I had a sunburn from walking too much and now, its gonna be freezing. Its already my second time to Paris and I'm thankful. Gonna get birthday gifts there for a few people. I'm prepared. Haha.

I'm worried now cause, right after my Paris,I'll be on another standby. This time, I'll be on a 11 day standby! Gosh. Don't know how I'll survive. The problem with standbys are that, its not certain if I'll get a flight and worst still, I won't be even sure WHEN I'll be called. So therefore, when we're on standby, we stay at home like good dogs. But due to the economic downturn, the company has cut flights and therefore I believe there has been an influx of crew. I hope it picks up by March next year.

On another hand, there hasn't been much drama on ground and on air. I have been picking up on Gossip Girl at home because of my standby. My housemate had bought the whole series from Shanghai. I recently went to Shanghai to get some DVDs too for another batchmate of mine but I didn't get any for myself though. I think Gossip Girl has been overrated. Its not really nice. I guess it just sells on the "good-looks" of their cast. Other than that, the drama just doesnt sustain the whole series. Don't see it as a lasting series.

Finally our Bitch-fest gang got to meet again recently in the airport. It has been some time since we really met as a WHOLE group. But you can really see the change in our conversation. We are now more versed with our work and we are actually having loads of fun in the air. It really does make a difference, your attitude you bring on board.

I have been thinking, if I really do like this line, after serving my bond here with the Cabin Crew division, I'm gonna do as plan and get my degree in New York and then probably come back here to SIA to try out to be a Pilot. I mean, why not? It wouldn't hurt since I already got a glimpse of it all. I have only one worry. Whenever we fly, and we're overseas, at least the cabin crew have each other to go out with but the captains, I feel, are always really lonely. For long flights, they have two Captains and two First Officers, so at least there are 4 of them. But on mid-flights, there are only 2 of them. It can get really lonely at times. I'm determined. If I ever got to become a Pilot, I'm gonna tell the cabin crew everytime we're overseas, that I was a cabin crew before and that they MUST call me out if they were going out. Hahaha! My housemate has been dating this First officer recently, and I've been talkin to him and its interesting. But he do share my concern about the lonely part thing. Haha. He agrees with my opinion on that part. Poor him. I'm gonna call him out if I ever fly with him again. Yup, I flew with him before. On my first solo flight to Brisbane. He's a pretty nice guy. I just hope he's as nice as he looks la. My housemate is just too fragile to be cheated with. Poor her.

Alrighty. Gonna sink myself in some jazz now. Yup, I stil LOVE jazz and I constantly get albums from everywhere I fly to :) For the Love of Jazz. Good night and sleep tight my fellow friends. You deserve all the Love out there!
Take care and hope to hear from all of you soon.

-jOhN "standbying" LiM-

Finally some pics from Sydney.. :P

Yes, managed to meet Ian though I had only informed him the day before becaused I was called up for the flight.

I will be on standby the next one week. Gosh. Gonna rot at home if they don't call me for a GOOOD LLLOONGGG flight... oh well..

Here goes! Fingers crossed...

-jOhN "You have NO new Msges" LiM-

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John is beginning a chant to moan the death of his good rosters. John is SUPER thankful for his roster!

Sigh. My new Dec roster is the worst I've seen. Though I will be heading to Cape Town, Perth and Dubai, those 3 will be my only flights. YES! I'll be going to Cape Town! I didn't know how BEAUTIFUL, MAGNIFICENT, and SPECTACULAR it was until I took a look at Ping's pictures on her cam! I know where to bring my parents d for a holiday! Seriously! Its that nice!! Ok la... Looking on the bright side, I'll be heading to Cape Town.. Hmmm.. There can dive with the Sharks.. Hehehe.. Hopefully the waters ain't too chilly.

Other than that, I just got back from a night in Bali. Accidentally woke up an hour early before my call time, so I decided to head down to the beach and have a look. Holiday-ish mood kinda hotel la (DUH~). Oh well. No pics of me coz I looked damn shagged that morning. Haha.

Oh well, nevermind. John is cheering up cause he is gonna get a SUPER DUPER FANTASTIC GLORIOUS roster in January for his Birthday. Wooo!

-jOhN "moaningg...(not in the wrong way)" LiM-

PS: Thanx Sab :) hehehe

^.^ I'm back i KL for a REALLY short trip again. Leavin on Thurs already till i leave for a night in Bali on Friday. Moscow - Houston was FANTASTIC... Talk about cold, Moscow was some -3*C (Dunno how to do the dot..) Cold sial.. But was very entertained by the people there.. I'll let the pictures speak for themselves. I shopped... LOADS in Houston.. Hahaha. Bought Coach bags for my mummy and sis. Oh well, pamper them once in awhile can la :P

Got to see the Red Square in Moscow and went to NASA in Houston. Will upload pics on Facebook soon but Facebook isn't letting me do it now. So, I'll just post some up here now :) Much Loves.

PS: I'm going back to Paris end of this month again. Wee or Boo? :P

Lalalala
-jOhN "frozed" LiM-

Ola!

Just got back from Sydney. Was called up for this flight. Rushed to make arrangements to meet Ian up for a good city tour. Wasn't disappointed with Sydney cause I met really nice people on my flight. Though my flight on the 744 wasn't very comfy, I appreciated the fact I paxed up as a passenger and only worked my way down on the 777. Overall, Sydney was nice. Sleek city, with nice views. But I guess the company was of most importance. Cheers to good friendships. Will include pics when I get them from the girls.

Not much drama updates here other than the fact that you're STILL silent. But I guess its a sign that you aren't interested la hor? (= just pack my bags, and move on hor? :) I must stop giving excuses for you. I don't deserve such treatments. I know I'm more than all these shit. I don't want to move, but I guess you've forced me to move on.

Spoke to a lovely friend on the phone recently and I expressed my desire to find a love soon. And the asked me why? What for? And I answer, "To share my Happiness". Then she goes, "What Happiness?" Shit. Yes! WHAT HAPPINESS!? What bullshit story are you lying to yourself my dear John. What Happiness? Hahahaha..

But thing is, why am I being such a sceptic to my own life? Why did I choose to see darkness when I am actualy so blessed! So, conclusion, I HAVE happiness to share ok? Hahahahahaha!

Next up, Adelaide. Sien le Aussie stations. All identical wan. Oh well. Money is good...... :P Hahahaha.

Ok, time for another confusing part of my post.

Will You still Love me for who I am if you actually got to know me deep inside

Will You still Love me for who I am if you actually get to see ME

Will You still Love me for who I am if you acutally got to dig into my dirty laundry

Will You?

Eyes. You've caused me pain. Great pain.

-jOhN "haPpY" LiM-

Woo!

Konnichiwa! I'm back from Osaka! But it was the shortest trip EVER!

Flew after midnight, so i was awake the whole night! Reached early in the morning, checked in the hotel. Took half an hour to bath and get ready and left for Kobe. Thank God for Akiko who showed me the right train to take. Took a train ton Sannomiya in Kobe to meet my Jap and boy it was a joy to see them again!

Had good buffet lunch with them till we went for a lil shopping. By the time I got back to my hotel it was 10pm! I was awake for more than 24hours~~ I was a zombie in Osaka. Had to leave the next morning d. Hate this Osaka pattern. Damn short. Oh well, at least I got to go and meet them anyway. Heheheh..

I'm on standby for most of the week now. Hope they'll call me for a GOOOOOD flight. Hehehe... Next up to look forward to is MOSCOW - HOUSTAN.. WOooOoOoOo....

-jOhN "sayonara" LiM-

Does anyone have a cure for my achey-breaky heart?

Gosh, how long do I have to wait till I learn my lesson well?

Gonna let loose tomorrow night before I leave for Osaka on Saturday.
Yes~! Gonna meet my Jap family in Japan finally! Wooooo.. AT LEAST there is something to look forward to~ Gosh....

On another note, I am sumhow addicted to PussyCat Doll's When I Grow Up. Hahahha! Check it out ;)

Loves

-jOhN "sighness" LiM-

PS: Video of us in LA.... Crazy ride.... Thats us swinging... Gosh~

I'm finally back!
Of course not just back from LA, but back here to blog. Yes, it has been some time. After coming back from LA, I hurried down back to KL to breathe a lil for a quick 3 days. I guess this time back for a bit more fruitful than the last time I popped back. That was a rush.

Taipei-LA was terrific. Met wonderful people on board. Very nice set of crew. Had loads of fun. Won't go into details, but yes again, pics on Facebook. This time too lazy to put up any pics here, next time I hope.

Popping by Osaka this Sunday. Gonna meet my Japanese family there! Excited for that. Then end of the month, i'm going to Moscow-Houstan! Woo. Shiok.

Life theses days on board has been smooth sailing. i'm picking up on my work now. Now is learning to ways to sharpen and smoothen my work, thats all. Its been good seing how my batchmates and I have grown at the same pace. I always look forward to flying, though I do have that before-flight syndrome where I sigh for a bit. Haha.

I'm trying to keep myself occupied. My mind and all. Just the other day my batchmates and I went over to East Coast Park to rollerblade and cycle. Its been some time since I've done some outdoor activity. Can't wait for the next outing. Brought my tennis racquet over from KL as well to play over here in Spore. Hoping to find buddies to play with soon, or my racquet will just rot here.

I been feeling pretty lost again. Yeah, AGAIN (Here John goes~ *roll eyes*). I don't mean to say anything, but in the working world, if you know wat I mean, you have to "behave" a certain way to the people you work with. I was just tlakin to my batchmates the other day and realised I'm the only one behaving this way. But thing is, am I doing it sincerely? I mean, I'm the only one that can answer this question, but I believe the answer is Yes. But somehow, I still feel distrubed by it. I feel that I may appear fake. But then, my mind chooses to rationalise with everyone that I am merely doing it all out of goodwill. If you're lost here, don't bother. This posting is also for history purposes when I look back next time.

I really want to find my true self. What I really want in life. What I really want to be. I want to find my direction. Not that I am THAT lost, but at least know who I am. I want to discover my true nature and the angel that is hidden in me, or at least the devil that is lurking inside. I want to know Me, John. Just John.

You made me confused you know. You did. Yes.... And as each tear strem down my cheek, I understood what you have been doing. Manipulation of my fragile heart. I guess, Life points us in all the directions, but it is only by our choice that we choose. I chose wrong. I chose You. However, regardless, I still choose You. I want to believe that it will work. I want to believe that its not just a mere silence, but a testing, a trial in time where time sits still, amidst all the happening to calm my heart. Though it has caused a stir, I know, that somewhere, and literally, you are OUT there. But you will never hear my cry, will you?

Why do You keep silent when I need an answer?

The whispers of the wind is in my ear as I gaze up on the skies to see you there. I want to know that you are there. Tangible to my senses, soft to my touch. You stole a part of me that will never be returned. But I do. I really do.

On another note, I'm also starting to feel allienated. Yes, from Us. I somehow feel that you guys despise me. But I am only me with you. Sigh. Where else can I be me. Gosh, I am such a people pleaser. Die John, Die to yourself!

-jOhN "tears" LiM-

Greetings Blogders!

Due to a certain friend's request to add more WORDs to my blog rather than pics, here is one WORDY post. Gonna touch on anything that comes to my mind. So, don't bother my wondering mind. It runs everywhere (=

I guess, its only natural to talk about life thus far, being away from all comfort and familiar faces. It has it's privileges and disadvantages at the same time. I guess being all alone, the first thing that comes to mind is "YES! Scandals ignite!". I guess we all have our fair share of dirty laundry, but it all stands down to how matured you are to handle or to manage your dirty little mind. Fine, if you don't agree with me on this, then I stand alone (: Hehehe. Well, but I guess I've never been able to shake off that Good-dy Good-dy boy looks till this day. It has its good and bad too. Being on board with this kind of face means PROBLEMS cease to be attracted to me. Even in life, I tend to be on the good books of people, "John? Ah, he's JUST that 'nice' guy". Thats it. JUST that 'nice' guy. Yeah, thats the down side of having this good-dy looks. John is just this nice guy, boring, Hey-I-Need-Help guy. Don't blame people for doing that. I've always had this impression on myself, that kinda like Hate-Missing-Class attitude, and yes, till this day, I've never slept in a single class before. Shocked? I dunno why either. I guess I just don't like missing class, except my Add Math class back in Form 5. Amarasingam. Remember him anybody? Gosh! I can remember how to spell his name. Hahaha. Oh well.

Now, back to the ups and down of being alone in this foreign country. Well, disadvantages? You have to start from scratch. All from the beginning. New friends, new room, new life. And if you're not outgoing enough or tend to cook yourself up in your room, you'll just just die of loneliness. I do admit it can get rather lonely sometimes but you have to put effort into everything you do. Building relationships, friends, life.

Talking about effort, I've always believed that Your life is all for your taking. I've mentioned about this recently. I never believed in "money WILL drop from the sky" concept. Never. I always believed that if you want something you have to work for it. If you want good results, study hard. If you want to get to a certain Uni, WORK for it. If you want to chase someone, RUN after him/her. If you want happiness, BE happy. If you want a promotion, WORK hard! If you want to see failure, then just sit there and let life pass you by. Basic logic I guess. Its good motivation to get you moving in life. Very basic, too basic in fact. But its we just sometimes fail to see the basics. We sometimes just fail to get back to the roots of everything. Our roots. Our humble beginnings in life. Our friends that we trusted back then, our first. Our very first.

Life never fails to bring new and exciting surprises. One moment, I was deciding to go for SAM or ADP, the other moment, I was deciding to go off to the States in Aug08 or Jan09. The other moment I was choosing Uni's in the States and then the surprise SIA interview that brought me here. Who would have ever thought. But its all in the GRAND MASTER PLAN. Our little painting of Life. Can't wait to see it unfold as I take each step, closer and closer to our Creator.

Being away was always on my mind. I'd always knew my place was not in Malaysia. Well, I can say that FOR NOW. I try not to keep my options close but I knew it was time for me leave. Packed my bags, and to Singapore I came. Not even close to a second that I had ever regretted coming here. I'm not saying life here is a bed of roses. It has not been. I'm forced to grow up fast, beyond my years. Its people that teach you the most crucial lessons in life. Who'd ever knew I'd like flying this much. Yes, though it wont be something I'd do long term, it has been very rewarding. Who'd knew I got the "Best Trainee" award for my batch. Who'd knew I'd met "YOU". Who'd knew things turn out the way they are now.

But the one thing I hope is that I will always stay true to myself. Though I am still discovering each day who is this John that I know, but I do hope that I will not end up lying to myself about who this child is. This little John. I want to know. I want to know who am I behind every mask, behind closed doors, behind the tears in His eyes. I really hope I will turn out to be the person that God has intended me to be. Through all these experiences the past 19 years and 8 months of my life. Discovering is just a joy. To know and to experience. To feel and to express.

Still remember Your FIRST? I hope I've found You. I hope that was IT. I hope to know you More. I really don't want to be disappointed. I don't want to be let down. I want to Love. I want to let loose. I want to reveal my heart to the world.  I want to express my gratitute and affection. I just want to let you know how much I respect you. I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you thus far. I want to know whats it like to finally say "I Love You" to the person that I truly Love and in turn, be Loved.

John is mad. Hahahahahaha. My thoughts are just everywhere. Disorganized in my little mind.

So, what else do You wanna know about me? (: ooo Dangerous question. Hahaha.

I'm just this little confused boy in this crazy world. Searching for his Identity and place in this complicated world. Finding my place. Living in my little world.

Btw, I was just browsing through the blogs and all and came to realised how much I miss singing. Yes, I have officially abandoned the once lovely voice :P hahahhaa.. No la, I still sing the shower, OCCASIONALLY.. and me and my batchmates still go for KTV, but I've officially not SANG SANG le. Sad hor? I came by Janice's myspace page and remembered the time we performed in Alexis Ampang. Check out her music. Its lovely :) I miss! >.<

Too much words already? :P I've spoken yet so little. Hahaha.. More to come ok? Flying off to Hanoi tomorrow and then to Taipei-LA already. See you guys soon!

-jOhN "<3">

Wats up peeps!! A few snapshots from my recent trip to Beijing. I finally took time off to visit the Forbidden City and the Olympic's Bird's Nest. Yes... I was inside. Bought tickets to see the Paralympics that was going on. The stadium is impressive ;) More pics on my Facebook ;)

Take care!

-jOhN "ni hao" LiM-