One Last Chance - James Morrison

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before
Some people say that i'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never and
I'll try to remember who i used to be
I've got one last chance to get myself together
The time has come for me to change again

I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me.
Just give me the time and space to heal my head
I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good



This is sooo for me :P

This Boy

Dedicated to the Boy that has grown up.

- Officially Closing the Door to my Heart -

Call it Vow, Promise, whatever~ Its signed with the blood in my heart.
Goodbye, Heart. Its better left untouched then touched.

I'll see what I want to see

I'll be what I want to be

And I know, I can be.



-jOhN "this boy" LiM-

Yet again Life unfolds another Dark Chapter. Here goes.
Tell me now, is it human nature to move on to another when things get bad with the current one? Or is it just me?

I'm hurting inside. I need a cure.

Speak. Say. Tell.

When will I ever reach Moksha? Mum says I'm finding my identity. Internal conflicts.
Its like, I know who I am, but I'm rejecting it, but I'm accepting it.
I like who I am, but at the same time I'm hating it too.

They say peace is not the ultimate goal of mankind. There is always going to be a trade-off somewhere. Its impossible if Claire's blood is gonna heal all humanity. Man will take like and health forgranted. So what if the weapons of mass destruction were destroyed? So what if Israel gave up their land? So what if Bush waved the white flag? So what if Hindraf gets their RM1million per Indian their claiming? SO WHAT!

When will mankind ever be satisfied? And so what if you're satisfied with where you are? Then you'll never progress! You'll be stuck all useless and roting right at your shell. I've seen numerous people, with great attitudes but they lacked the hunger, the hunger to progress, and soon after get left behind. Donald Trump would have fired you a long time ago. Wait, I take that back. He wouldn't even have hired you.

Balance you say? I guess that will just cause dissatisfaction then. You'll never be at your highest potential of happiness. There needs to be some level of equilibrium or balance. But then again, we will always want to maximize our pie. But isn't the sky our limit? Wait, then there's no pie.

Have I lost you there? Identity. Thats what I need. A clear cut. But I know I will never get one. Have I just got tired of the masks? Or have I got confused with which mask to wear everytime I went out?

The human behaviour disgust me but intrigues me at the same time. Dissonance they call it.

Good/Evil, Hate/Love, Peaceful/Havoc, John/John.

-jOhN "yet another piece of his useless mind" LiM-

I've decided! I'll go with JAZZ!! Woohoo!

Was over at Bangkok Jazz tonight and was blown away. It was featuring some bass player that just came back from Berkeley with his Japanese gf on the keys. She was beyond awesome, nothing like I've heard before! Apparently she is Beyonce's keyboardist. Ahhh Heaven!

Was just enjoying myself listenin to the lead singer when someone walked passed me to go to the toilet. My friend went like, "Eh, thats Sheila Majid~".. Like wth man.. She was there to observe too. Ahhh.. Jazz my love, friend, baby, sweetheart! I'll never let you go! Don't ever let me go!

Desperately seeking for HUGE leap in improvement and inspiration. Gonna write some pieces after exam. I PROMISE! (=

For now, STUDYYYYY!! :'(

-jOhN "humming" LiM-

BlackMeOut

Woohooo. Britney's Blackout puts me in a trance man. Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttt.

Now going back and forth betwee getting Stacey Kent's new swing album, or Diana Krall's Greatest Jazz Hits or Britney's HEAD BANGING Blackout.

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Impermanent they say..

Yeah, Finals are drawing near, like a week plus away? Final speech is next week. Final World Religion presentation is next week too. Last Statistic test is next week. WTH! Oh boy. Drowning myself in college now. I would have to admit this semester has been a rather interesting one. I had made even more friends. Got to know a few people a little better. Got myself involved in the Buddy Program, tought PASS 093, business plan competition, and I'm even gonna MC for the graduation ceremony for ADP this Fall, though its an irony, it actually might be my last semester myself. Life just has its funny plans for us.

Yeah, I've not decided where I'll go for Uni. Not even sure when I'll leave. Not even sure what major I wanna stick to. Decisions. Taking it one step at a time.

Just waved goodbye to a new found Brunei friend recently.

I was inspired by him to go over to Brunei for a visit. And I might just, if this is my last semester in ADP. Pop by in January, and maybe even drop by Miri to visit Moses. Wait, Moses should have been back here in Subang. Damn. I'll still pop by Miri and then fly over to Mulu Caves! Its freaking awesome! And I'm getting excited over my plans. Travelling! Woohoo! Probably I can drag Sam (Brunei Boy) along on this adventure.

Counting down till holidays in December. Though its gonna be freaking short, I'm gonna make the most out of it and stay out of drama.

2007. I don't even know if I like ya or not. Gonna do some reflection post in some mid-Dec. Till then, I'll just live as I am. Cheers to better days. Looking forward to Huge House Party tomorrow at Sze Ming's place >.<>

-jOhN "needs to leave" LiM-

ps: Yee En, I read your blog =)

When I woke up,
It all became clear. What I really meant to you.

When I slept,
My dreams came true.

When I woke up,
It all became blur. The things you said to me.

When I slept,
My fears vanished.

When I woke up,
It all seemed to work out. The past and the future.

When I slept,
My insecurities proved to be a nuisance; again.

When I woke up,
I was dreaming.
When I slept,
I was awake.

Think. Think. And think again. Ignorance really is bliss.

-jOhN "flying" LiM-

You made me realise the meaning to life again.

You made me smile even when it was dark.

You made me laugh at every serious moment we had together.

You made me cry in joy.

You made rock music sound like sweet jazz.

You made love look like chocolate pies with peanut butter jelly all over it.

You made me feel like I was meant to live for you.

You made the whole world light up.

You made cherry blossom trees blossom even when it was winter.

You made the raging seas cuddle up in your arms.

You made the bed warm.

You made me press the toothpaste from the bottom.

You made me overcooked pancake breakfasts that tasted disgusting.

You made me call you even when I only had 50 cents of left of credit.

You made my eyes light up everytime we met .

You made me appreciate the gift of life again.

You, are not real. Sigh.

Ever watched Hereos?

Ever wished you had an ability?

Well, I finally discovered mine.

I have the ability to see the worst of things and screw the best memories and moments in my life and of the lives of the people around me.

Incredible? Its a gift, thank you.

-jOhN "screws you" LiM-

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Allow these pictures express the thousand words I have to say.

Hope. Singing in the rain. Wee small hours of the morning. What a difference a day makes. Put the blame on me. Apologize. I'll stand by You [recommended listening].

Taking baby steps back. H m. J s y h m. I a s. R s. B i g t w n t b t. I L Y. F m? I w f m. Y w j u. A p.

The less words, the better. I hate blog/msn communicating.

-jOhN "away" LiM-

Not much words, but today was an interesting day. Had to sit for the SAT examination in the morning. Mind you, it was a 4 hour paper. Sigh. Hopefully all will turn out well :P

Got down to business in the evening when I got over to Dee's place for make-up for ADP HALLOWEEN.. Will just let the pics do the talkin. Had a good time TRYING to dress up. i was SOOO underdressed :P But good effort ADP-ians. I'm impressed :)

Oh.. Mind the new hair-do :) Change is good. Till then, let Love reign.

-jOhN "halloween" LiM-

So is this how you "kick" someone out?

Don't get me wrong. I ain't blamming you guys for doing what you did, but I'd appreciate it that you'd ask me first. Yes, it is the Fishing LEAST you can do. Really. I'd thought too much of you. I honestly don't need anymore reasons to be disappointment with the likes of you. But I'm going to refuse to blame him.

Before you read anymore into my words, DON'T GET ME WRONG! I'm not pissed for what you did, I'm just pissed that you assumed. You thought. But if you would just come up to me just once more, and ASK, not even apoplogize, You don't even have to, I'd smile and forgive.

I get it. I really do now. Humans. The weakest of all species. I'm ashamed to be called one.

I tend to over blow and over think things, but how then can I highlight the urgency of the matter? If you don't understand simple english, I'M BEING RUDE FOR THE SAKE OF GETTING YOUR ATTENTION.

At least you don't know who you are. WTH~

"My gawd! What has happened to John?".... ;) I've just got ya where I want ya to be..

-jOhN "~.~" LiM-

And so it is...

From then, from now. I can't. I just don't know how to understand anymore. Pain? Ever heard of the line that goes, "I'm not in Denial". You get the picture. There is just no more essence in me. Is that all I can do? Reminiscent of the past or just blame it..

But is there anyone to blame or should there be anything to blame? I choose. I've chosen.

Look at me again, won't you? Just lay your eyes on my heart and hear it cry, won't you? Did you actually see me, or did I see you? Did you actually choose me before anything else? I'm just an epitome of disappointment and confusion..

In and out. Out and in. In and in. Out and out. You get it don't you? I've seen. And now, I will see..

How can you guys just look rom a far and scorn at me with disgust? I'm utterly speechless. At least warn me. But then again, you're just gonna do it to oblige to the teachings. I don't appreciate patronism. And I KNOW when you're real. Trust me. Its a gift. I hear, I see, I smell, I know. The only reason I am the way I am in front of you is all an act of negligence and isolationism. But I want your care, so much, but yet I want you to hate me at the same time. Love me, Hate me. Play me by my ear and cut it. Run your hand through my hair and burn it. Smile at me with disgust. Love me, Hate me..

I've lost it all together. Its beyond it all. Really. Its not as simple as you think it is, but yet, it is that simple. I just want you to accept me. It doesn't mean you have to approve of my actions or join me. All I need you for is You. Can't you just go beyond what appears to be and look into the hollow of my eyes. ..

Reject my actions but Accept my sanctions. Don't behave like me but Do bereave my darker side. I just can't stop thinking how'd You feel about me. After all I have done to you. I know you forgive me, I do, I honestly do. But I can't forgive myself. I just can't...

I don't blame you for what your side have done. But I blame myself. Its all me. Self pity? Self mutilation now sounds good. Suicidal? Kindling..

To you out there, don't worry. Destiny has its way to go about. The only thing I am wondering is how you'd work around it. You have one tough job to begin now. Or are you all the powerful?..

Working through my eskimo friend. Just like you said it would be. Life goes easy on me, mostly..

This is terrible writting. Forgive me? I won't..

-jOhN "( : )" LiM-

PS:Recommended hearing for such moods, DAMIEN RICE.

Woah..

So much to update but so little time. A brief one till I add some pictures to it.

Rushed down to Singapore for the Raya Holidays and had a BLAST there! I'm so going down there again in December with some mateys. Can't wait!

Till then, Hectic October is not over. Oh well.

Anyway, I'm leaving you with a clip of me singing at Alexis the other time ;) Hope you enjoy. Its not the full video :P

Love ya peeps.

Been so busy the past few weeks, need to breathe again.

But I'd prefer being busy than free. No shitty thoughts, no waste of time, no shit ass stupid childish dumb misunderstandings and being productive.

I'd probably have a full plan till the end of the year already. Woohoo?

Tentative plans

Prepare for the SAT which I will be seating on the 3rd of November.

Apply for the TOEFL which I will seat somewhere in November too.

Finals on the 4th-7th of December.

FUN with Aussie mates who will be back in December. Road trip a must

Choosing Uni's. Applying for Uni's.

Catch up will beloved people.

2007. This year, a year worth looking back. So many good and bad. So many.

Gosh, I'm already reflecting. Yes, if you've not caught up with time, the year is ending and the freaking end of the world is coming. So need to disattach myself with the world already.

Till the next time, Find Love my friends, let Love be the highest aim. It gives life. Truly. If your love ain't giving you life, it ain't the right love.

-jOhN "breathing" LiM-

Yes! I've finally got the time to update my bloggy...

Let's just let the pictures do the talking.. Will talk about happenings a little later next week.. Got a wedding this weekend and freaking loads of work to finish.. Catch up soon peeps ;)

Janice, doing her thing..
Me and the star for the night
Yi Yin :)
A corner of the place after it was all over..
Our stage

Singing ma heart out..Da Pastor was there :P
Uncle Si Fu :P
Mua with Eddy Yap, Janice's younger bro.. Yes, Eddy, and you better not forget me anymore :P
:)

Driving to Alexis@Ampang
Alexis; featuring Janice Yap
Mua, with sis and Janice herself..
A pic before we began with Amanda Q
Sista support :)

ps:btw, janice is Joey Yap's younger sister.. Yes, Feng Shui Joey Yap :P

Till then... Have a great week ahead my dear friends!

-jOhN "pulling through" LiM-

Sorry I've not been updating people.

Have been so busy. But yeah, loads has happen since my last post. LOADS.

Putting that aside first, since I now have to time to pop by my blog, I need to upadte ya'll on my activities. Yes.

This coming Friday and Saturday I will be singing backup for Janice Yap, or JYMY, at Alexis, Jalan Ampang. Janice is the host for Trippin' on 8tv every Wednesday 9.30pm. And yes, you're cordially invited! Below are the details. Don't hesitate to drop me a msg about it ;) Looking forward to seing familiar faces there when we perform :P

Where? Alexis, Jalan Ampang@Great Eastern Mall
When? Friday and Saturday (21st & 22nd Sept 2007), 10.30pm to 1.00am
Who? Janice Yap and Band and of course with John backing her up on the vocals..
Why? Because you love music!
How? Transport not provided :P

COME PEEPS COME!! We;ve been practicing every night! And I'm excited!! :P

See ya!!