Farewell, for now..

psss.. i sit behind.. wahahahah!

Alas the moment hath arrive, to bid bitter farewells and blow goodbye kisses. The feeling didn't kick in to me that it was the last day of school until everyone was leaving. I won't look back now, not just yet.. Year 2006 is one - Undescribable year -. Wait for summary after Japan la. But for now, its farewell to dear Bloggy till after SPM. Loads has been happening in my mind, good and bad (mostly bad), but the hell you care.. Till SPM, here is a poem of thoughts..

My yesterdays are all boxed up,
Deeply put away,
Ending everything in abrupt,
Distancing thoughts of torns, Wishing it was the end of the darkened day

Loneliness has new meanings day by day,
But only to be granted to the weak, to one that knows no dirrection,
One that only seeks cover, protection and prayer,
Slowly diminishing every other person, only to be found trapped in one's own fears

Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

I end it here, wondering to regret or to forget?
To move on or be pushed on?
To carry through or to be dragged by a bull?
To choose life or death?
To scurry through memories that long should be forgotten,
To only be reminded I am always facing disappointment,
And that I am, a great Disappointment

ALL THE BEST MY FELLOW FRIENDS, MY HEARTIEST WISHES TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU SITTING FOR THE SPM!! GAMBATE!!

- random pics...sigh.. should have taken more pics :( sorry peeps -

Caryn, I know you read my blog, and yes, you do look good in this pic.. LOLz..

Jean Yi, on the other hand, doesn't read my blog, but you look good here too.. LoLz

-jOhN "pleeding" LiM-

Hey excuse me

Hi my name is Bob and I work at my job

I make forty-some dollars a day

I used to be the man in my hometown

'til I started to lose my way

It all goes back to when I dropped out at school

Having fun, I was living the life

But now I got a problem with that little white rock

See I can put down the pipe

And...

And it's breaking me down

Watching the world spin round

While my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down

No more friend around...

And my dreams fall down...

Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?

'Cause I can't seem to hear myself

Can anybody out there see me?

'Cause I can't seem to see myself...

There's gotta be a heaven somewhere

Can you save me from this hell?

Can anybody out there feel me?

'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way

Keep losing my way...

Keep losing my way...

Can you help me find my way?

Losing my way

Keep losing my way

Keep losing my way...

Can you help me find my way?

Oh my god please forgive me (father hear my pray)

'Cause I know I've done some wrong in this life

If I could do it all again

Have just one more chance

To take all those wrongs and make them right

Courtesy of Justin Timberlake - Losing My Way

Boo Ya! Nice song.. Love Justin Timberlake's music.. All of 'em!.. Must get FutureSex/LoveSounds liou... Wakakaka...

O M Gosh, the hols have been so................. o.O-ness.... ughh.... Can't describe it at all man.. sigh.. Anyway, did alot-alot of cycling and not to mention walking too.. Hehehe.. Been loving the moody weather.. Damn.. Hehehe.. Sigh, don't wanna type la.. Be good ya people ;) Love ya'll and appreciating each and everyone of you.. Sorry

-watashiwa "jOhN LiM" san-

Read between the lines,
Now, you are wise to allign your eyes here,
You might understand just fine,
Or is it because of one's fate?
As the course of time shapes cultures and societies,
But allow me to share the secrets of my heart,
So may it shape the path of man and formalities,
Like how a father may care for a son,
May traditions and rules be broken,
Like how a mother may die for the family,
May ideas and mindsets be challenged,
That is how I care for you,
Let the matters of the heart be revealed,
I do not want to retrograde things further,
Let Lovers be plagued by troubles and worries,
I am never good at sophism,
So that Love may be shown through concern and merry,
So let me bring forth my point,
So that Love should not be bought by patronage and scurry,
I am clueless to what has been happening,
Thus let Love run free, Belittling space and matter,
So open my eyes, let me see, free me from these shackles,
Let not this paradox be dismayed or despised,
Baby, if I could, I would be your slave,
Because beneath it, lay true meaning and feeling
Forgive me, because of you, I would go down the grave..
OH This is Fun.. lolz.. Copyright ok!
-John Lim-

You may be surprise what people do out of boredom.. Take care comrades ;)
Fight the Good fight and Win it.. You never really lose until you give up..

Emmanuel,
-jOhN LiM-

Of God's Timing

You have no idea how God has been surprising me.

As you guys have been reading or just talking to me, you know I have been through some tough times, just discovering myself, worrying and so on. But point is, God has been perfect in His timing.

I have been really depending so much on my own strength so many times. I have relied on my own strength in the exams, friendships, work, on handling cell, my future, studies, plans and everything. I "calculate" so much on my next move that I get soooooo cooked up over everything that happens and because of that I worry so so so much. I worry about college, I worry about results... And worrying is a HUGE sign that I ain't putting my trust and faith in God.

Benjo always scold me and shout at me to stop calculating what will happn next, and its true. Had a good talk with my Youth Pastor this morning about where I am right now. She had call me up earlier during the week that she had just wanted to talk to see how I am doing. I was really confused then but now it is all coming clear. There were some things in my life I had to get rid of immediately and God was speaking so clearly, but I was blinded by my pride.
Two things that have been highlighted the past weeks:
1. My Pride
2. My lack of Trust in God

There are so many incidents I can mention that God was trying to humble me, but i never got the hint. So he brought forth a huge hammer to nail me down. As some of you might know, I recently applied for a scholarship with HELP Uni for my Pre-U. I got shortlisted for the interviews but however at the interview I was turned down. It was an extremely painful humbling process. Well, some of you might think its really nothing, but I was really counting on it. Firstly, of course I want to help my parents but lightening the burden. Secondly, SO many of us from my school went for it and I THOUGHT that if I didn't get it it would be extremely humiliating. Yes, some of you might think it is dumb now, but yeah, pride, you see? The other lesson I've learned from this experience is to totally rely on God. See, I depend so much on my own strength that I didn't surrender it to God. And if I had made it through the interview, I would have thought I made it on my own. And that is not what God intends. He has plans for my future, as well as yours, but the only things He wants is my trust and whole reliance on Him.

See, even by that small lesson I've learned so much. Its waking up time. Its only the first lesson to be learnt and if I don't, it is bound to repeat itself in a bigger way. All these time, I was thinking that I was walking alone, but I always had God by my side, my family, and my friends, Benjo, En En, Vinz, Xiangz, Jo Jo, Vickz, and soooo many more that have been there by my side.

God just has His way in speaking to you through people, angels. Benjoz was just self professing that he was an Angelic Benjo :P Aren't you glad sometimes that you can be there for people when they are in need?

I was just so tired of feeling so down and sick these past few nights and went to my Dad's Personal Library and grabbed any book that looked appealing. My hands went straight for the book that said "Be a People Person" - John C. Maxwell. I've always like being a people person. But I had just been telling my friends, I have recently develop a characteristc that is not too good. I've grown to be a people pleaser. It may sound as if it is a good thing, but in actual fact, it isn't. At one point, I craved to pleasseee people so much that I neglect my own needs. I want to be "in" and "hip" that I change to be.... Weird?... But it didn't work out man. So I decided to be become a People Person instead. Let me not write the whole book now, but it really did encourage me. Let me just highlight that highlights that spoke to me.

"The golden rule is putting yourself in someone else's place instead of putting them in their place" - Relate to them

"Treat others like how you want to be treated"

"Determine not to be a reactor but an initiator... You need not react to circumstances but turn it around"

"Appreciate, Forgive and Listen to others.." Something I am still learning..

"Charisma = Concern, Help, Action, Results, Influence, Sensitivity, Motivation, Affirmation"

"You can't always control what happens to you, but you can control what happens in you"

Lessons well learned......... I'm learning, so teach me, please....

Good night,
-jOhN "learning" LiM-

Dear Readers,

Wassuup Hommiess... How ya Uncle n Aunties doin~? A lil shoutout for those sitting for the SPM in a month's time, ALL THE BEST PEEPS!!.. KEEP IT COMING, PUSH IT TO THE LIMITS, CHALLENGE YOURSELF, and BEAT THOSE SUCKAs! Wooops.. HAHAHHA.. Anyway, well, life is as it is.

I guess you guys are smart enough to know that I ain't doing too well coping with everything around me lately. Pressures, studies, time, friendship, and everything... But I guess its time i step up to it, accept whatever the circumstances and MOVE ON! Really... I had a good conversation with my sis in Perth one night. Shoutout: I LOVE YOU!

She was totally at my position at her age, ok well maybe later. But point is, she totally understood me. You know, humans are just weird. We just want to be accepted, understood, supported, loved, cared for, given attention and praised. I'm not ashamed to admit, yes, I do at a certain extend want to be accepted as well. Its just so natural. Everyone needs it, acceptance and just not to be ridiculed. Even Mr. Amara needs some sort of encouragement man. C'mon. Thats why I'm planning to get really nice small cute stuff for ALL my teachers from Form 1 to Form 5 from Japan to give them when I get back in January. They deserve it. I was just telling Isaac, even the lousiest of teachers need some kind of encouragement. It would have been unfortunate that I have not benefitted from some of these sucky teachers but who knows, maybe because of these small gift of appreciation, their future students might just benefit from it. ANYWAY, point is, we as humans, want to love and vice versa. Quote from the Moulin Rouge which by the way is an excellent show "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return"... Oh boy, I can go on about how I feel about that statement...

But Point is, if you haven't realised, John has certainly change and I do acknowledge that some of you have even came up to me and told me so. I do realise the change in me as well. Time has really taken a toll on me and I have been really, different, in the way I view things, express myself, feel about myself, and how I just behave. But see, the point I'm writting all these down is to record my progress. Don't forget, the point of this blog was to just simply jot down the little baby steps that I have been taking. It is really different. I was just browsing my previous post one night I realised how Iv've changed, first physically from the pictures, mentally, from my view and thoughts, and even my writting. But yes, to just simply record down my development. I want to help others. I want to be honest here so that any of you that browse through the post and feel the way I am will be encouraged that, you are not alone.

I face challenges too. Temptations. Compromise. Hurts. Rejection. Defamation. Failure. Loneliness. And boy oh boy I had a tough time getting out of all these pot holes. But I guess life is all about these lessons. Getting up and standing tall once again to really just pull yourself out from the failure. We can NEVER run away from problems, so why still run. Face it, and hit it hard. Hit it hard that it will never come back again. I'm still learning. It will never be easy. But like the old saying goes, what don't kill you will only make you stronger. I guess God has a purpose for me to feel these way. The only thing I can tell myself now is that if I can't handle these things now, I'll crumble in the waves of the world.

My God-Bro mentioned the other day that if it was not because of all his challenges that he faced when things were tough, he wouldn't be standing strong and even encouraging me today. He understood me when I said that God is just silent. He felt the same way at a point. He felt as though God had just abandon him. I've thought of things like these before, that God is deaf, He doesn't care, and so on. My sis even felt that way. But now when I look a little back into time, I realised that I just ain't relying on God. I just ain't doing the right thing. We say it too often that I'm gonna Trust God, I'm gonna rely on Him, but we ain't Trusting him fully with all we got, nope, we ain't trusting God with all our heart. And until I do that, I will never truly understand His riches.

I really don't know where this whole post came from but it sure is fresh air from the previous emo posts. Don't you just get sick sometimes sinking in the shit you're in? I got sick of it, just dwelling on the dark side. Starting over, Getting up, Moving on............ John now molded by the phase of time..........

Not denying that there are still things that are not resolved, but everything is going on hold now, my emotions, my thoughts...... because SPM IS IN A MONTHS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaha.. well... But the greatest thing about all these is always having a Best Friend by your side. Someone to always be by your side. Someone that will "swt" at your dumb messages. Someone to sneak out with you late night. Someone to have makan with when you're all alone and hungry. When you're feeling all emo. These past few weeks when I was really really emo like probably every night, Ben sticked with me. Haha, and boy I was blind not to realise. Its weird that people really don't know how to appreciate things only when they are shaken. He has always been there. Always. And how stupid was I to still complain and whine when all attention was given to me. Every single attention was given to me but I was so blinded with my selfishness that I fail to see how much the people around me actually truly cared for me. You know, sometimes, when we are so blinded in our selfishness, we really dunno how to appreciate how much people care for us. How much our loved ones really love us and care for us. We get so uptide and cooked up with only OURSELVES that we really ignore others. How much love and concern they've shown. Boy oh boy, just how different are we people. Just by expressing ourselves. Expressing love, care and concern. So many different ways.

Oh how comlpex we are as human beings. Just the way we think, the way we speak and express ourselves. Its all in the mind. The Battlefield of the Mind. I'm getting so interested in the behaviour of people.. Hmmm... I'm discovering my love for psychology now.. hahah... good night people..

Bon Voyage,
-jOhN "changed" LiM-


PS: Thanx Benjo~ :)

Isaac burn my lantern :( 

Lantern Festival :P 

At King's request ;) 

Of a Dumbass Prank..

Greetings once again. How ya'll? Hope everyone is doing better than me. LOLz. Anyways, regarding the heading, well, this was what happened.

So, yet again after being FFK-ed by Xiang and Isaac, Ernie, Benjoz and I was left to go drink by ourselves. After picking those 2 assholes, we went for a drink at Ming Tien. Surprisingly, I met my tennis coach there with a few chiqs at his side. I was extremely reluctant to say hi considering the fact I avoid his phone calls so often. It is unfortunate that the exams have waived me down till I have to abandon tennis. I promise after getting back from Japan I will resume my lessons. Till then, sayonara. Anyway, so Ernie wanted to drive my car back home. Me being a push-over allowed him to take the wheel. Alright, so I happily sat behind to let Benjoz enjoy himself in the front seat. However Benjoz refuse to sit in front and demanded I sat in front before he walked home. At that moment my ass felt heavy, so, I didnt budge. Benjoz then stormed off. I was happily getting comfortable with my seat while Ern adjusted his seat. So, after some time, Ben had left for some time now. Ern took his sweet time driving around. Soon after we decided to look for Benjo. Fine, we went straight to SS2 area. We looked around for a moment before we decided to turn back into Megah area. As you can read, we fail to find that rascal. Ok, fine. Ern didn't really want to care anymore and wanted to test the abilities of my CLK (Cute Little Kelisa). So we "fei che" (fly car) on the LDP probably reaching at least 110 km/h. He had no doubts that it is a good car. Ngek ngekz, just like the driver ;). Anyway, we decided to wait outside Ben's house for him to come back.

We quietly parked the car and offed the lights and observed the surroundings. We noticed that the doors were open and Benjoz hadn't reached home. So we continued waiting. After a little while Ern had to go back. But we took a last round before leaving. But by the second time we came around, the doors were closed and the slippers were all over. We KNEW Ben was home. So we decided to message him. The twist was, I was to say that I had already sent Ernnie home and I was searching for Ben all alone all these while. Benjoz reacted back asking if I was sure that Ern was really back home. And yes, I lied that Ern was already home. So, like the typical Ben, he just had to hit back on me. Ok, Fine. After settling in my heart that Ben was safely home, we left for Ern's home. We stopped outside Ern's house and chatted for some time. Was really good time getting to know Ern a lil more, NOT in the physical way :P, but it wouldn't be a problem if I could (Hahaha). My bladder was darn full in the car. Anyway, I decided to go into his house and use his toilet. Got carried away and soon enough we were online. Met Benjoz online and this was where the drama began.

Immediately when Ern went online first Ben alarmed him that his phone got stolen. Yes, we knew it was bullshit. But soon after Xiang came messaging saying that Benjoz had just got his phone stolen. So were like, WTH? Benjoz started being pissed and told us what had happened. I was really unsure at that time whether it was true. After much deliberation between Ern and I, Ern decided to call him. Little that I know, it was going to be a big hoax. Fine, so Ern called and told me that he had really lost his phone! This was where I went, SHIT HEAD!... Ben's complaints and sigh-ing became more real and convincing. At this moment, I was..... SHITTY. I was frozen like SHOCKED, STUNNED, REGRETFUL. Story has it that as soon as Ern and I left his home, Benjoz got to his gate and suddenly a robber came and took his phone and 50 bucks. Mind you, Benjoz and I just got our new phone together a week ago. Yes, and it is darn expensive and new. So I was freaking out in Ern's house while he was, errr.. somehow pretty occupied. Hmmm... I wonder why~ Anyway, my heart was pounding like a locomotive train, beating to the song of a thousand screams. I was darn scared. My mind was running, that if he had lost his phone, what could have happened, his mom would blame me cause i allowed him to walk back, his aunty would be darn pissed cause she got him the new phone, and I was even thinkin of giving mine to him. My mind was going wild. But I was darn thankful that Ben was safe. Ok, fine. I was freaking out.

SUDDENLY, Benjoz said there was someone outside his house. Well, APPARENTLY, the robber had been insaf and came to return the ****ing phone and his 50 bucks. Boy oh boy, at that moment, MY MIND WENT, KAPAU?!??!?!! WTH?!! At that moment I knew it was all fake. Ern burst in laughter, Ben finally admitted it was fake. I went into a frenzy. I felt, so lost, didn't know how to react, my emotions were soooooooo mixed when he told me that his phone got stolen and now he's telling me he got it back and it was all fake. I went crazy. Benjoz started thanking Ern and Xiang for sticking with the plan. WHAT FISHING PLAN?!?!?!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I started raping Ern at that moment. Felt so cheated man. A part of me was sooo relieved that it wasn't true.

And the rest is history. Boy, they sure know how to fool John. I'm just so dumb, naive, useless, stupid and then list goes on.

Well, tonight had a small gathering for the Mid-Autumn Festival, or in other words, we went out to play lantern ;) Haze was terrible but we had good fun ;) Cheers to you people!

Take care everyone, hope you aren't facing what I am right now. Life still a mess, but well, MOVE ALONG MAN~

-jOhN "freak" LiM-

Random Pic we shot from my car with our new k800i.. wakakaka 

Benjo will hate this pic.. lol 

Me Grace Charisse n Vinz 

Of Earthly Bonds..

Greetings to all readers,

First, I have to pour cold water over your kettle because Paul Moss has NOT replied. It is disappointing. But well, his reply ain't everything. To update you guys a lil on what has been going on, allow me to begin with my exams. Exams started last last Monday and is coming to an end this Monday. To my joy it has been extremely quick that it has ended in a blink of an eye, however it has been a disaster that I had screwed up my Chemistry paper. Chemistry has been a disappointment. Last year I was doing extremely well for Chemistry. I have been getting above 80 last year but this year, I GOT A F***IN C for my Chemistry! Yes, it was the few C's in my life I have every gotten other than DUMBASS ART~. ANYHOW, I screwed up my Chemistry AGAIN, and ironicly, of all sciences, I ENJOY Chemistry the BEST. I least enjoy Physics, but I score the best at it. WTH~. Dunno la. But seriously, I am NOT here to condamn anyone. If you feel insulted that I am frustrated I got a C, please, don't. Its just everyone has different standards and I know I can do better for my chemistry and I have a certain standard I have to live up to especially not to disppoint MYSELF and maybe Pn. Liew (my tuition teacher).
But enough of complaining, other than that, exam has been so much of a relief compared to the Mid Term.

OK, enough of EXAMS, cut the crap and I'm going to the cheesy details on John's Life now.

WARNING! EMO Post ahead!

Went for the movies tonight with Dear Benjoz and Ernie. Picked them up and left for 1U to catch You, Me and Dupree. I have to say it is an especially entertaining movie. I shall not spoil the movie for you here, but I'm just highlighting the gist of the movie. Unlike any other movies that promote sex, violence, horror and romance, this one was particularly special. What stood out to me most was Friendship.

Yeap, You bet it, Friendship. How many out there can say now that "You have a Real Best Friend". The way Carl and Dupree placed friendship in their life was such an envy to me. I really don't know why. I think I have been through this before previously on other posts. But such a loneliness shadowed my heart as we journied back.I just felt all alone in this big world.

I'm going to be very honest right now. I warn you, some of my remarks might be selfish, rude, childish, senseless, brave, ironic and silly but I am who I am.

I don't know about you, but I don't think I ever had someone that liked me as much as I liked that person. Note: All "like" words used from now on is not related to romantic likes but friendship "likes" ok? I dunno. Its like everything I note someone that probably things might go well with the both of us, somehow it always seem I'd be the one pushing for the friendship. It always feels like I am clapping my own hands and the other person is just not getting the hint that I'm interested to go forth with our friendship. Friendship requires trust, faith and honesty. It is selfish of me to say that sometimes I just want a return of the care and concern I pour out for the person but am I wrong? Am I wrong to say that everytime I share a secret of mine I quietly want you to share yours along with me? Am I wrong to say that everytime I cycle to your house, quietly, I would love you to surprise me as well? Am I wrong to say that everytime I "manja" with you, I secretly want you to "manja" back with me? I don't know if you're getting me here but, I just want something back in return. I just want acceptance, love, care and concern not in an extravagent way, but just in a still small ways, I see through it. I really do. I see through the small deeds, short messages, sincere smiles, corky teasing, light taps,wink of an eye. I see all these actions. Call me Homo or sensitive, I LIKE THE WAY I AM. I read people's actions and the slightest gestures and expressions will be analysed and evaluated by my neurons. I just can't help it. From the dinasaur days that I can remember, I have been evaluating the people around me. Weird? Well, I like it.

Ever wonder if anyone thinks about you? For my side, I think alot about people. I think alot about the people around me and especially the friends I like. I just wonder how they are doing or what they are doing sometimes. But somehow, I always feel, or know that maybe just no one does the same for me. I don't know why. Its dumb la, its like I "want" people to think about me like that, but when you just like someone, you will just naturally think about the person and I do think about the people I like. But somehow I just feel no one like me like I how I like them. Strong remark here but its true. Thats how I feel SOMETIMES.

I have been rather transparent tonight. I just like people to know the real me. No fakes, no lies. Just Me, John Lim Boon Oon. So now, whad'ya feel? I just feel like getting feedback. Are you like me? Or do you despise this post? Tag them on the Tag Board ;)

It has rather been an Emo night but well, we all go through our ups and downs right? ;) Its just my night. Leave ya with the lyrics of a song that I can relate to right now. 2 cents for those that can identify the song ;)

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know?'

Cause nothing's going right

And everything’s a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I...

I'm with youI'm with you

So anyone wants to be John's BestFriend now? :P

Signing off,

-jOhN "thinking" LiM-

Of One In A Million and My mail to Paul Moss..

Hey avid readers!

Considering how close my trials are, I was still watching One In A Million on Friday night. I had to take time off since tonight there was no cell so I had to see how was its progress and the standard of Malaysia. I was pleasently surprise by the determination I see. Though the quality ain't up to expectation but you have to admit, Malaysia is nuts to Americaphant. Anyway, I have to say Suki is an excellent singer. Really. Do take notice of her ;) Mark my words. I have ears (oh, so do You :P). Anyway, I was rather, how do I put it, errrr offended by Paul's remarks tonight. He was rather strong and frustrated by his remarks to the contestants. Almost all of them got slammed hard on the face. Really, he just threw rotten pizza at each contestant one after another and it got worst with smelly cheese on it. Well, anyway, it was entertaining seing Syafinaz fight with Paul. Really, I don't know what is his problem. He was ok last year with Malaysian Idol. But he got worst this year with OIAM. Probably he can't spend his precious Friday's at Zouk or so. But he was rude. And thats why i came up with a brilliant idea of writting Mr Paul a mail ;) Berikutnya adalah isi isi yang saya kupas daripadanya. Happy reading :-

Dear Paul Moss,

First of all I must thank you for making time to read this mail. My name is John Lim and I am a 17 year old guy from PJ. To cut the crap, I had tune in to 8TV just last night to see how One In A Million(OIAM) was progressing. It was interesting to see how the contestants have grown through each week. I have to admit I am not an avid view of OIAM every week because of circumstances however I have to say the contestants have certainly show determination and effort in their singing and performances each progressing week.

However, my main point of this mail is to politely highlight what I see as what is coming through in my screen regarding YOUR comments. It is rather transparent to see that you have shown much frustration in their performances. However I feel that it is taking a toll on the contestants. Yes, they ARE suppose to take the pressure and it is not an excuse and so on so forth because the industry is as such but your critiques have somehow come across as a Projection of Your frustration and anger. That is however, MY opinion of your comments. Probably it maybe be caused by stress, or personal reasons but if for any reason what I say is correct to a certain degree, I really do hope for your criticism to be more of Positive and Constructive criticism. Really, they do need encouragement and support too and especially from someone as such as You with some air-time included.

I honestly do not want to come across as correcting you or what-so-ever in any way because I am in no position but somehow I felt compelled to write this mail to you to address this issue. I respect you as a person and do agree with most of your comments however it need not come across as anger or such but encouragement and guidance from someone as experienced as you.
I do hope I have not offended you in anyway but at least caused you to ponder for a moment on my comments. I really do just want to help :) Please to address you, sir ;)

Yours Truly,
John Lim

(this mail is TOO modest :P)


That was my mail to him ;). I WILL POST the reply, IF he ever reads it~ I bet he gets at least 50 hate mails a week~ Hahahaha... Oh, and all the best for trials SPMers!!!...

A little update, Trials from 4th to 18th ;) Wish me all the best? HAHAHHA.. Muaxy people! Now back to the books!!

Emmanuel,
-jOhN "studying" LiM-

Hahaha.. Notice the eyes :P 

Last Hug before she cried.. 

Gawd he's so adorable.. 

Yeah Yeah... Oh Yeah yeah :P 

Johnny & Yumi!! Peace! 

Johnny & Yui! Hentai Hentai!