Do i get really sticky? Sigh...

The thoughts are coming back...

Damn shitty wei.. The way I thought of You the last time...

Its happening again.. I'm giving myself up too easily...

N the worst thing is that You don't know its happening to me and You might not even care...

But I want you to care..

I Love You.. But will You love me? Will You ever Love me?..

It is never what it seems.. and it never will be what it seems..

Deceit and Lies..

All these are just beyond romance.. Its more than it.. SO much more than it..

Meaningless..

Lonely nights..

Lovely, lonely, rainy nights...

Tats my love :)


OMG~ just deleted my post.. damn boring post.. nway~ Have a good week peeps.. when got interesting news, I report la.. :)

N shhyte~ I'm feeling those feelings again...

Nights peeps..

Friday Nights...

How are they meant to be spent?

Party them away? "Cell" them away? Eat them away?
Or, sit by the couch with your vitagen, Mr. Potato Original and your controllers all by your side ready to watch a movie. It's like my ONCE-IN-A-LIFE-TIME Friday Night Movie ALONE! Weeeee.. Seriously, I can COUNT the "many" times I can actually be ALONE on a Friday night to watch a movie with my favourite natural taste vitagen. Ahhhh... After the hectic week at ADP, I just needed a time-out, and it was THE night.

Got a hold of my Illegal-DVD collection, poped out a few movies, thought to myself a bit, and finally picked "THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS" (since I'm in need of Happiness).
To those that found the movie to be an excellent choice, I beg to differ. Though I absolutely enjoying inspirational/motivational movies, I wasn't quite "inspired" by this one. Seriously, practically the whole time as I was enjoying my Mr. Potato, the movie was slowly dragging me to the pits. It was fishtard depressing! Yes, for the whole 2 hours, practically only the last 10 minutes was fulfilling and inspirational. I was all dragged to the slumps by the time heaven was in sight! The movie made me so fearful of poverty. Seriously, I don't ever want to come down to the position where I have to play cave-man and sleep in the toilet with my lil boy in my lap. WAKE UP CALL MAN. But the dude sure knows how to persevere. I was looking for tears the whole show long, and he only teared twice! Phenomenal!

Oh well, all in all, this post ain't to give bad review on the movie, but just to highlight a few. I'm glad though. Glad that I had a break. Things have been pretty messy these past 2 weeks. Emotionally coaster, spiritual worm, physically broken. Slept at 7.30pm last night all the way to 7am this morning. I didn't know how I did it. Fell dead on my bed after watching a depressing episode of American Idol. I just can't understand how @#$%^&*&%^ America can be by letting Stephanie go. Sigh, but I'm routing for a Melinda, Jordin, Blake n Chris Rich. Watch out for these 4. I'm tellin yea, Either one is gonna be your next AMERICAN IDOL... Weeee.. But the again, these @#$@#&* Americans are @#$$%#% unpredictable. Lakisha is overrated. Oh well, right now, it is my source of "inspiration" and "entertainment". Seriously, I look forward to coming back on Wednesdays and Thursdays from college to watch it. I get extremely excited and happy after it :) I really don't know why. hahaha.. I even skipped LAN class this week to come back to watch the results show!

College has been crazy with work. And worst thing, it can get pretty fishtardy when you have fishing group members. I guess I'll just have to do all the work since I want to get an A for the subject whereas they seem like they just want to pass the subject. Can't you just put some heart into the things you do you @#$@#$@%&^*^&*$@#%@#$@#$#$@$%^&*%^#@#$!@#!#@#$@#$@#$@$^#$^$%&$ group members!!!!!!!! Ahhh.. now thats out, I love ADP :)

:) N a REALLY LATE shoutout to some people,
GANJA, TERA-JIE JIE, MY ENEMY, MY DEAR, MY LOUSY FRIEND, MY EXTREMELYYY LOUSY FRIEND, I love you for accepting the person that i am, You have been extremely insulting and loving, but nothing will ever change the fact that you are a dear friend to me and stay true to yourself and keep on growing girl, if you know what I mean ;) Owe ya a movie ok? Or do you want Ms. Read instead? Hahaha... Muaxy -Happy Belated Birthday Jo-

Caryn, My ASS-istant, the girl who hates staying back for meetings, the girl who somehow thinks she owns LeeHom, But you're wrong girl, He's ALL MINE! Muahahaha.. You have been an extremely naughty girl, you know that? Though you've been extremely naughty, it has been fine. Hope you are taking real good care of John? Xenev taking care of him well? No poo poo on your car? :P I still haven't good a good walk and talk with you and John. ONE of these days yeah? ONE? hahahah.. Be good ok? Don't break anymore hearts? :P -Happy Belated Birthday Ryn- ps: I'll be watchin Xenev as he grows up ;) Hahahaha..

Oh well, another month till my semester ends. Gonna pop by Perth and Melbourne in May. Can't wait for that! Weeeee... Can drop by Steven's house for a night of "extreme" FUN & Adventure, role-play with Benedict and party hard with Ian! Woohoo!! Gonna meet up with Brendon and Claire in Melbourne too, two Aussies I met in Japan. Oh well, all is good for now, Weeeeeee Seasons come, Season go, so stand up and let the wind blow!

-jOhN ":P" LiM-

Ok, enough emo emo psot liou :)

Some friends real getting sick of it.. Lolz..

Sigh... :)

Have a good week you people! And be happy-go-lucky and positive like Vinz.. hahaha... ;P

-jOhN LiM-

"Save Me From Myself"

It's not so easy loving me

It gets so complicated

All the things you've gotta be

Everything's changin

But you're the truth

I'm amazed by all your patience

Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall

Somehow you're always waitin

with your open arms to catch me

You're gonna save me from myself

from myself, yes

You're gonna save me from myself

Don't ask me why I'm cryin

Cuz when I start to crumble

You know how to keep me smilin

You always save me from myself

from myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard

But you've broken all my walls

You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness

Is what I need to make me

a better person to myselfto myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

-Aguilera-

Isn't it just beautiful being emo? Oh well, in times of turmoil there will you see some truth in people and things. I guess life's bitch has her ways to teach us lessons. Life goes on. My blog has been rather depressing. It is really draining and tiring being around emo people like me, so if you're not ready to be pulled into the pit of emo-ness then stay away :) Don't you agree? When you are constantly surrounded by people that are complaisant and depressed it'll definately somehow affect your mood as well? Oh well, sick of hearing me whine?

"Losing My Ground"

I woke up short of breath,

but I've still got a long day ahead of me

I don't know what day it is but tell me 'cuz I gotta know who to be

Is this me up in the mirror?

'Cuz I thought it was somebody else

Well it's a realization,

when you find out you don't even wanna look at yourself

Where do I go?

What do I do?

Who do I turn to?

I'm losing my ground

Who am I now?

Where does it end?

How did it all begin?

I'm losing my ground

-Fergie-

-jOhN LiM-

First I have to clear things,

It has NOTHING, FREAKING & FISHIN NOTHING to do with my results ok?

So don't go speculating and ASSuming. Thank You

Damn wei, its getting freaking irritating and annoying being around people like You.

Just shut up? Just give me some room to be human and to be pissed la. I'm just so sick and tired of hearing things.

:)

Now I sound like I swear alot, as a matter of fact, I might just do.

-jOhN "pissed" LiM-

Lost for words la.. Keep erasing my post..

All I just wanna say, is that I am changing.. for You, because of You..
I'm bidding my last farewells and good-byes.

I'm just so filled with disappointments around me that I can't bare to be disappointed no more.
I so totally need DISAPPOINTMENT management.

Now, I am gonna lose my way

Recommended songs:
Fergie - Losing my ground
Justin T. - Losing my way

LeeHom's songs are still lighting me up each night. Sigh, I really don't know how much more of his magic would work. It's time I get up and move on.
I AM GONNA FALL, now let go of the ropes.

-jOhN "falling" LiM-

Dear Lee Hom,

You just can't believe how fantastic Lee Hom's concert was! It was beyond words... Fuh~ Blown away by talent and poise. He played jazz on the piano, hit the drums, strum the guitar, perfected the violin and even amazed me by playing the Er-Hu so well. There was not a single note that was out of pitch and his sense of wittiness is just so natural. Fantastic. If I had 4 hands, 4 thumbs up! Looking forward to more of his concerts in the coming years. Till then I am grabbing a hold of his merchandise as well as his latest concert DVD. Though it may be the same stuff, but what the heck, you can never get enough of him ;) My IDOL! :)

To Lee Hom,

All the best in your future undertakings! You have done great and you will be doing great. Continue to inspire and amaze us with your endless line of talents and gifts. You have been an awesome role model and source of inspirtation. Hope to work with you in the future Uncle! ;P Take good care of yourself and see ya soon! Woohoo!!

Sincerely,

John "crazed fan" Lim

Meanwhile, practice has still been going on for STRONGER this Friday! yet again another shoutout to everyone I know! Yes, please come for the concert!!! Support me at least la :P

All info here - STRONGER!

Till then, work load in college is just crazy. Hopefully I'll keep up. You guys out there, don't be dismayed or discouraged by the things that are happening around you.. Life has much more to offer, so PRESS ON!!

Loads of Love,

jOhN

Lee Hom's concert is coming up and yes! I WILL BE GOING!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! Caryn, Abigail, Ee Jin!!!! Click on this link to hear his latest song!! FUHHHHH...

CLICK ME

Can't wait for his concert! But must not lose my voice there... ngek ngek... because got another concert after that!!!!!

CLICK ME TOO

Oh my gosh!!! FUN FUN FUN!!!! ;)

All are INVITED for STRONGER!! 9th, Friday night... COME kk.. support me at least? :)

-jOhN-

Feeling weak?

Bored? Feeling weak? Messed up life so far? (hmmmm..) Emo? Bad weeks? Make the 9th of March available, for an unbelievable night of meaning and fun...

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Pssss : I have a special song for you that day.. ;)

As I lay my head on the beach...

As I lay my head

As I looked up in the dark sky

I see the bright star

Your bright star

You were telling me

Your story

I listened closely

I heard your voice

You called out my name

But when I called yours

You were not there anymore

Will you just listen?

Will you stay close forevermore?

Will I ever mean as much?

Will I stay in your heart?

Will you be my friend?

Will you now lie next to me?

I long to meet you so much, my friend, my dream, my destiny..

-jOhN "dreaming" LiM-

Of an open Ocean..

Spectacular..

Clear waters, clean air, waving trees, soft sands, smiling fishes...

I got a pinch of Hawaii when I was in Tioman the past few days during CNY..Let us just let the pictures do the talking, shall we?

Lying by the beach, thinking about You... Thinkin about life.. Thinking about how much you've done to me, the good and the bad, the happy and the sad...

Thinking of just how much you mean and meant to me... Listening to the wind.. To the sound of water as it slips across the sandy beach..

I'm in Love.. in love with nature, with culture, with just travelling.. Vinz, Dee, I'm serious about Bangkok during summer break in August ok? Gonna meet Mami Hashizaki there! Weee.. It has gotta be a yearly affair to travel. Jinny, I promised to travel with you, and we shall ok? Thing was, Jinny goggle-earthed our KL trip when we stayed over at his apartment in KL. Did ya remember that Jinn? Lolz.. Had fun there :)

Hahaha.. even found a huge Komodo Dragon.. lolz.. isn't island life just wonderful?.. Love it!.. Will be back with more pictures very soon babes.. Muax ya'll.. Hope you're enjoying your CNY!!

Gambling sessions anyone? Pls.. Need to double up ang pow money desperately since i missed out collecting the first few days.. Call me ;)

(Damn, I love my handphone! Pics all from my K800i wei.. damn chun..)

-jOhN "traveling" LiM-

Wooh... Its been some time now... Hahahaha.. I can see that most College students aren't really updating their blogs anymore :P But anyway, here goes...

Benedict left last Saturday for Trinity College, Melbourne. A few of us went to the airport to send him off. Nice dude, erally nice dude..
Well Benedict,
All best to you! I really pray that you adapt well to Trinity and really find good people around you. It won't be long till I join you babe ;) But for now, feel free to fill me in some juicy details :P Really gonna miss midnight chats, cell nights and especially THAT night.. :P You're a good chap, keep it up man and DREAM on ;)

The week has been good but a little empty without Vinz :P, Dee was still around to accompany me. College has been filled each day with new lessons, more assignments, homework, and exciting activities. Seriously, I am enjoying college life so much, ain't missing high school yet? Hahahaha.. But all is good. Really.. Probably because every subject to me is new and extremely interesting. The lecturers have been extremely personal and nice. If you thought your Form 5 teachers were nicer compared to teachers back in Form 2, think again. College teachers are way better. I am taking Intro to Computing, Intro to Business, Calculus and English Composition this term. Planning to take Foundations of Acting next term and Psychology soon too. ADP is heaps of fun! Nope, contrary to belief, my schedule is not as free as you think. i have 8am classes EVERY weekday morning. My Tuesdays and Thurdays are packed all the way from 8am to 530pm :) But I'm enjoying every bit of it. I'm even starting Japanese classes after Chinese New Year! But take me for my word, ADP is filled with heaps of work and assignments. Because every adds up to your final GPA, you have to perfect everything. You can't slack at any test, quiz, and project. Mind you, I have at least a test each week. hahaha.. Forgive me if I sound like i'm bragging, but all I am doing is sharing my joy and excitement in this program. Really looking forward to another year and a half here ;)

Other than that, tonight I went for 2 movies back-to-back with Delaine. Went for Music and Lyrics and Dreamgirls! I have to say, Standing ovation for BOTH! LOVED IT SOOOOOO MUCHHH!! Sorry la, I love these kind of movies. Romantic Comedies and Musicals! So MY type! Vinz baby, I'm sorry you had to miss it :P Don't worry, don't worry.. Ghost Rider and Death Note 2 is waiting! :P Words can't express how much I loved both movies. Totally gonna get the Soundtrack for Dreamgirls.. Call me gay/faggot, whatever, I'm loving it and You ain't stopping me! BOO!

Anyways, Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR you all! Hope you have a good one this year. Part of my Business project this term is to buy stocks the wholoe term. As I have been watchin the market everyday, I tell you, this year has been extremely good, so go claim bigger ang pows from your relatives! Will be going to Redang for a short holiday with my family :) Fishy fishy!

Take care everyone! Seriously, the one thing is miss right now, is my beloved school mates and class mates :'( shout out to ya'll! Muax all of you. Be good ;)

-jOhN LiM-

(hmmm.. can't seem to upload pictures.. sorry :( )

Fare well, Farewell..

Take care dude,

Will be missing yeah.. ;) Will be waiting for the good news



-jOhN "miss" LiM-

Tucked up in my bed, blast emo/jazz/blues music, naked, windows open, midnight, some tears, and a few pictures of you by my side... Thats how my night will be...

Shit.... EMO week ahead..... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!........

Damn hard to layan friends like me wan... Save meeeeee..... :'(

I want holiday too... Anyone living in Japan/Europe wanna switch houses for 2 weeks? No, FOR LIFE?

Ever wonder how irritating someone can be when he is ranting about his life but leaving so many pieces out, you're tryin to figure it out or not, but somehow you practically don't understand a single s**t.. Do you bother?

Well, its no use, he wouldn't let you in to his plethora of useless thoughts anyway. But it gives him joy to express his feelings but, at the same time hide the truth too.

But time will pass till you forget, till the oceans will soon pass it's tide, till the sun sets in the west, and till the cock crows the next morning.

Oh boy, I loveeee sappy love movies... Plus the late night slot, plus the people, ahhh... Who wants to have a peaceful and quiet talk beneath the moon light accompanied by wine and some ants? If only...................

-jOhN "ranting" LiM-

confusing-nya

Save me from Myself

It's not so easy loving me

It gets so complicated

All the things you've gotta be

Everything's changin

But you're the truth

I'm amazed by all your patience

Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall

Somehow you're always waitin

with your open arms to catch me

You're gonna save me from myselffrom myself, yes

You're gonna save me from myself

Beneath the starlight I look,

Thinkin of how your love would take all the pain away

But there is no truth in that

As hurt cover the wounds

Now my life stand beside me to guide me in this lonely road

But I'm taking a chance

To hold hand again

And cover my eyes, as I venture out to a whole new world with you by my side

Making trust a whole lot harder

But what pain is there when no gain is worth it

Should I tell you where I went wrong?

Or should I tell you where YOU went wrong?

Thank You Babes [dedicated to a whole new experience in life this year]

Uncle, Auntie, had fun with ya that night... Cheers to more "nature" nights.. Muaxyyy Nipple Boy and 3rd Women Girl.... Now, Save me from myself!! :'(

-jOhN "hurt & confused" LiM-

OMGosh...

I can't keep my mind focused to even write a post!

I just can't man.. Just gonna post pictures up.. Take care ya'll!

Everlasting, Never Ending, Always;
Quietly, Silently, Beside the Shores of Reminisence....
Now I breathe to see you,
Now I wake up to the lights of your name,
Now I hear the sounds of your uncanny voice calling out to me,

Who shall be called?
Shall I declare?
It seeps into my soul,
Now I will stand taller, stronger and I will emerge better,
To the challenges of grace and rain.

Sun,
Shine bright,
Shine light,
Shine on my face,
And reflect on my countenance,
Will you ever be able to see through me?

-John Lim, 2007-
(inspired by Vincent)

Look beyond it all, my friends
Look beyond what is at hand
Don't look, but Venture.....

The New Year

Greetings my fellow mates!

It has definately been ages since I have updated. It has been a week since I got back from Japan now and all I can say is that Japan was the Blast! It has certainly changed my perception on so many things from bathing to food and people. I am really thankful that I was given the opportunity to be involved in such a program. Well, to highlight some experiences,

I went horse-back riding, I went to Universal Studios Japan, I went to many shrines and temples and Himeji Castle too, I visited Osaka, Kyoto, Kobe and Muraoka, I lived in Himeji, which was in Hyogo prefecture, I had MANY public baths in spas and hot springs, I made Mojisuki, I went skiing for 3 days, I ate many weird DELICIOUS food, I love Okonomiyaki, I found out that Japanese people always reverse park, roads in Japan is superbly small, Japanese people cycle ALOT especially the elder people,cars are cheap there, Japanese people don't really look too different from Chinese people, Japanese are extremely polite people and so on. I really don't want to bore you with words but instead I will try to upload more pictures from time to time..

I really do want to go back to Japan to meet my host family and some people I have met over there. My host family consist of 7 people. My host parents have 4 daughters and a son. Oh, and one proud thing I have to say was that they owned a hotel so they whole time I was there I lived in their hotel. Their house is connected to the hotel. They were extremely generous and provided me with all my necessities. It was a really funny and weird experience when they first thought me how to "bath" with them in the public bath. All the man in the family, which were the 4 daughters' husbands and their son joined in for the bath and slowly thought me the procedures. Yes, it did feel weird the first time but soon after I got use to it and it was really relaxing. Japanese people only bath once a day and only before they sleep at night. So you soak yourself in the hot spring before you go to bed. They have procedures for bathing so if you ever take the public bath, becareful not to jump right in the pool. Other than that, I had an extremely packed schedule there. They kept me busy everyday. I really really really really do wanna go back to Japan this year itself. To all you people out there, please, if you have to opportunity, just apply for it, it will be the experience of your lifetime!

Well, on another note, I have applied for ADP in Taylors and I have been enjoying myself. Do hope all will go well for me. Really have to start working hard and do well to get into Uni next year. So, till then, farewell people! Take good care of yourself and please do update me on your happenings too. Forgive me if I have not spent enough time with everyone. Call me anytime peeps! Missing everyone!

UPDATE: Forgot to mention, I appeared in Local Japanese Newspaper too with my pic :P Will post that pic soon.. :P muahahaha..

-jOhN "Oyasumi" LiM-