Time. It was only a matter of time that I came back to my roots.

Change is all that happened.

Thinking of how blessed I am to have been given this opportunity lightens my spirit. But knowing that I was given the opportunity didn't mean I didn't have to prepare myself to work for what I want to be at right now today.

I've definitely seen growth mentally and a significant change of opinions and values. I have grown to see things in very new perspectives. I am still developing new senses of opinions and standards for my life. I have definitely not been satisfied with where I've been and have and will always be striving for the best that I can be. I have never believed in mediocracy and mere living. I hunger Success, Dreams and Passion. I dive into a game of pushing myself to the limit everyday, to learn from the very best, to gain from valuable experiences and to understand knowledge that is freely available. I scorn at the people who live their life with no direction or passion, who walk each day with no goal or bearing.

At the end of the day, opportunities aren't just there for us, You have to find them. And if no effort or thought is even poured into the process, what can you expect to get? Don't just walk the face of this earth in your lifetime, endeavor to Fly.

This game is of no others, but Yours. Do not let others do the thinking for you, Swim your Own race! Get up and get out there and do something for your own good! I'd like to believe that Happiness will never fall on your lap. You'll have to fight for your Happiness. Just too many people wait too long to make a change in their lives. Its never the right time, because the time is Now! Wait no longer for Barbara to come home, wait no longer for the flowers to bloom, wait no longer for the cows to come home. It is time. Be a self-starter. Initiative, is what separates you from the pack. Determination, is what brings you to the best. Passion, is what drives you to Success.

Hard times you say? Await for many to be in your way. But remember, they will only be in your way but there will always be a way around it, my friend. Its true. It will never be the end, because when one door closes, many others will be opened. So don't be dismayed when faces with challenges, cause when you look back, you can only smile and see how you've accomplished it.

Start Dreaming. Start Believing in Your Dream. Start asking yourself Real questions. Start searching for the Truth. Start Now.

Living abroad in Singapore for the past 2 years allowed me to see things and explore options and understand cultures and differences, but little did I know, how it has prepared me for New York. This, is living abroad.

Disparity? Difference? Despair? Desolate? Dismayed- Shall I not be. Have I felt them? Of course. I am only but after all, just a 21 year old Asian boy, living away from the comfort of home and familiarity. But discouraged, I will be not for I know, there are greater rewards waiting for me. I am optimistic and know that there is a promising future for me, only if I work for it. There is no such thing as a free lunch ;)

I will find my way in this land that celebrates Dreams. Taking my first step here, has lit the flame that will burn only so bright. I am hopeful and reassured each day with every sunrise on my face because I know, and I feel it in my spirit, that It is there for the taking.

And with this positivity, trust me, things around you just somehow works for you. Things just fall into their perfect fit. I'm not saying Life is gonna work its way around you, but you will harmonize with your circumstances and find that it works :)

Treasure the Gift that has been given to You, will you now? :) And Live your Life today :)

Love, from New York <3

John

Gaga-ed in Sydney for the Monster Ball... Letting the pictures speak.. ;) Talk to you guys soon...

Btw, I got accepted into Adelphi at New York.. :) Its all confirmed.. :) Pretty soon, I'll be a student again.. :)

THE Ball :P
Ian Ngness..
Final Pose

THE FAME MONSTER.. IT was humungous.. for a moment it was pretty scary
:P
Blood Fountain depicting Alejandro
Show me your TEETH!
MONSTERRR
LoveeGameeee
So Happy I could Die.. Angelic
Spiral Fire on Speechless
Boys boys boyss

Really quick update. Life is moving on TOO fast

On the way to San Francisco from HongKong. Mua, SuAnne, Rachel and Sharon ^^
Finally met Brendan in Melbourne after all these years..
Housemate's Boyfriend's Birthday ^^ He is the sweetest thing.. hahah.. Congrats Emily :P
Our ice cream indulgence in Perth :) Love ya both JeanYi, Zhi Zhi.. ^^

A lil stint on my travels. here goes, to Nanjing..

Right People, Wrong Place, Wrong Time.. Sigh.. Till the next time..

:) Seoul - San Francisco.. Leave that be for now.. Gotta go to Nagoya now.. ciao.

That was for the year 2009... last flight Taipei :) Enjoyed to bits... Oh well, just a short post b4 i leave to Seoul and then to San Francisco from there.. Can't wait for that too.. Was suppose to be in Manchester but changed for this.. Oh well.. good night world..

-jOhN "winter" LiM-

That was New York above there.

And here is Milan below here.



I left a huge part of my life behind in 2009. And yes shit, I ain't gonna go back to those old moves. Lessons learnt, mistakes done, hurdles returned, people are dumb.

I need new excitements, new joys, new goals and decisions. I need a drive. I can feel it, the energy bursting from beneath, I can feel so much energy, but there is no way of channeling it to.

I feel so trapped in this body, so clustered by the world. So prevented and pressured. It makes me feel small all over again.

I really am fearful for what 2010 holds for me. I know. The word fear is the first thing that comes into my mind every time I try to look forward into this year. Yes, Fear. Changes. Big changes are about to happen. Do I fear change? As far as the John I know, he doesn't. In fact, he anticipates changes all the time. However, this is new territory. New beginnings, New Life. But isn't that what he wants? New Life, new start, new. ALL NEW. But all he is blinded with is uncertainties, innate innocence and the pressings for a new start. All he sees are only but of irritable baby steps. But isn't it all about it? Isn't it all about starting from the line. Behind the line. Before. Earlier. Formerly. Heretofore.

Who will ever understand this mind? Truly. Who will ever want to understand this mind? I need to be gosh-darn inspired again. I need meaning again. I need a purpose to all this shit. Who will give one to me? I'm tired of looking at countless objects of preposterous size, blobbing their way in this world with meaningless duties and futile attempts to dazzle a victim. I am not amused by their ways. Neither am I by mine. I need an inspiration that will last. I need to breath once more.

Here goes the mask once again. "latches checked, locks checked, password forgot, keys thrown-away, heart stopped"

-jOhN "breathless" LiM-

PS: I'm becoming a monster now, ain't I? :) Amaze me..

Its been too long... Too long since I've let my heart out...

I've been keeping myself busy flying, solely to avoid the world. But at the same time, I want the attention, I want the love, I still want to feel wanted. I've been so disconnected from everything, from people I call friends to even work. I can't even put myself to welcome my first passenger. Its sad. But every time I get on the little Firefly plane and watch the pass a huge B777 or our A380 planes, i am thankful. Thankful that I was given the opportunity to be able to be a part of it.

Looking back at this year and a half in all honesty, doesn't really make me smile. Maybe I'm not being grateful, maybe all I'm focusing is the negative, maybe, maybe something isn't just right. It started out right, but so far, the ending just doesn't look right. I'm so excited about leaving for New York probably in mid-July. I'm gonna miss traveling as much as I do now, but the other nonsense just needs to stop.

I've grown so much. But yet, I feel like a child. Still very lost and left alone. Have I been feeling this way all the while you ask? Yes, probably. Why? Because I have yet to see my full potential. I can't wait to burst out in energy. Sigh.

Why is this post turning so bad~

My last few days of the year is just hell packed. From Milan to New York and back to KL then to Sydney and Taipei and then I rush back to KL on New Year's eve just to spend it back home before I rush back to Singapore. I hope I find myself in all of these.

I hope I find it. I do.

-jOhN "rants" LiM-

Spain. Madrid-Valencia-Barcelona.

If only life has it's escape plans all routed out for you :) I'm flying the world to run away from what I can't face. I'm afraid to face myself when all I'm left is me, alone.

Me.

-jOhN "unknown" LiM-

on another note, I will be going to Milan, Italy soon and then to New York :) I can't wait for that. I hope to see you, really soon.