I will stay with You, through the ups and downs.
I will stay with You when no one seems to be around.
I know each day will get better with You

Would You be my Safe Room?
When You told me today, that You'll be there... You'd shattered my dreams. You shattered my hopes for Us. A union I'd thought that would be. Would You just let me go through the whole denial phase that'll eventually turn to anger and then negotiation to resentment and finally acceptance.

I walked aimlessly today as I left. I could not look up. I really couldn't. I was sitting in-front of a future, but it slammed shut the door in my face.

Someday, I'll see the whole truth in this. The fondness You talk about? I guess you weren't too fond of me after all. I'll get it right someday. I hope you are thinking of me as I am thinking of You now. I think of You all the time. When I was in the deserts of Dubai, when I was at the Pyramids of Giza, when I was in the blistering cold of the Russian winds, when I was joyfully shopping in Houston, when I looked on the house I wanted in Amsterdam, when I boarded the train to meet you this afternoon, when I took the lift up with You. When I starred into Your eyes as you said, No.

You said, "No." Then You had those eyebrows. Those that melted my heart. Those that spoke a million. Those that killed me, bit by bit. You told me You wanted to tell me its all going to be okey, but you know it won't, don't you?... You know it so well.

But I know You had the best in mind. You, of all people, I trust. You, with that smile. You, with that heart. You, with that maturity and mind. Thank You is all I can say. This is to You. Only You.

-jOhN "ph" LiM-

American breakfast! ^^ Watch me grow fat when I leave for New York next year if I continue eating like this.. hahahaha.....

First 9 days in Dubai and Cairo, then immediately 12 days in Moscow and Houston.... a flight well enjoyed with angels and of course my batchgirl, Sabrina who made this flight a much better one. Note: It was my forth time doing this dreadfully long flight.

Next up, AMSTERDAM tonight!! Weeeeeeeee~~~~ then.... HOLIDAY for a week in SPAIN!! WEEEEEEEE.... Barcelona, Madrid, Valencia, Here I COME!!!!!!!!!! wooooooo!! ;)

-jOhN "travels before he dies" LiM-

The flight that was :) great friendships formed, bonds built and laughters shared. Cheers to the one of the many Wonders of the World. Truly a Wonder and Beauty. Thank You God for bringing such opportunities. <3

-jOhN "sand in his shoes" LiM-

Was I ever meant to be the way I am.

Did You create me to be as I am? Did you intend for me to lie here tonight with tears gushing on my cheeks, alone, just me, with my heart wide open.

Did you allow me to feel these feelings? Did you see how much I had to go through or can You see how much I will go through in the near future? Will You be there for me?

I lie here tonight, with so much emotions. Feeling so lost, away, Far away, from the land I once called home, or even from the land I now call home. I don't feel belonged. I really don't. Not anywhere, not here nor there. Not with them, and neither with you. I am alone. Lost and confused. I am in pain, will You let loose of me and release me?

I suppose the two will never match. It was never meant to be that I should end up in this place. Or at least I'd like assume so. Why did humanity take the wrong turn? Why did You ever choose to be the judge? Why must one be right and the other wrong? Why must we always have a winner and a loser? I'm neither. And it kills me. Each day. Can't You see it? Can't You?! CAN'T YOU! I'm in pain. Everyday, every day.

I can't do this anymore, not by myself. Not anymore. And until You plan to do something, You're gonna lose me, fast. Its time for an Intervention.

:) A silent night, amidst the breeze on a cool night in Houston

-jOhN "GMT: -5" LiM-

Perth :) Had a chance to meet up with Jean Yi in Perth. Its been ageeeeeeessssssss since we've met. We had lunch together and afterwards she had plans for the afternoon so I decided to go back to have a short nap. We were suppose to meet for dinner to have Chilli Mussels! But~~ I OVERSLEPT!

Nagoya ^^ Short lived but fulfilling :) Did my flight with my SNY mentor whom I flew with a year ago to Korea. It was all about food this time around. Nagoya is famous for their Eel, or Unagi which they call Hitsumabushi. The wonders of Japan :)

Did I even mention here that I'm planning a little trip to Tokyo for my 21st birthday in Business Class on our A380 :) I really hope to comes true...

Apart from all these traveling, I've been thinking a whole lot.... its 4 months to 2010, a year of HUGE changes for me. I really hope all turns all well. I really do. Pray with me, will you? :)

-jOhN "travels" LiM-

.Desperate.